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Wide awake

After what I can only describe as a series of spiritual awakening, my curiosity was peaked. A hunger was born, so strong and eager that I wanted to learn more and research whatever……As my perception was shifting and taking on new norms, all I wanted was to make sense of the way I was feeling. I really didn’t know what I was looking for or where to find it, but intuition had it to always throw a few little stepping stones into my path, that seemed to land at the perfect moment. These stepping stones would soon become my reassurance that I wasn’t going crazy but that I was following the right path. They became the explanations and the “Aha” moments to prior occurrences that might have not made sense before. They were the answers to things that left me baffled and the moments when I struggled to explain what was happening. Lost for words, unable to make sense, I decided to keep those experiences to myself. Often it was nothing more then a feeling, a hunch, strange and unfamiliar, appearing out of nowhere. How do you explain and articulate something like intuition, with no facts to back, but a gut feeling so strong and only experienced by you? I knew with utter certainty that I had never experienced anything like this before, yet there was a calm and a sense of being guided that seemed comforting and put me at ease. I remember being open as I was trusting whatever it was that was happening and in the process of it I believe that my senses developed to a different level. Maybe they had always been there, but it was now that I learned to tap into this power. One of those gifts and a curse at the same time was seeing things that were mostly hidden from everyone else. I started to see them for what they were and often they would include the characteristics of people and their true intentions. The true colors that faded into nothing more then a transparency, requiring no effort reading on my part. The statement of seeing someone’s true colors took in an entirely new meaning during that time and I’m still deciding if I like it or not. I think sometimes ignorant bliss keeps us safer.

The stages of spiritual awakening was a transition period for me in which I learned what was acceptable and what I would no longer tolerate. Born into this life a long time ago, it felt as if life was just beginning for me. It was then that my own values and beliefs came to the surface and it was then that I started to pursue my own individuality. In a sense it was a phase of coming home to my own unique self accepting self while undergoing a transition of knowledge and wisdom you could say.

So who goes through these stages of spiritual awakening and who doesn’t? Do we all experience every step and how do we know? I’m no expert but I would say that it is different from person to person, but with everybody, one thing is for certain and there is always a catalyst, something dramatic, soul shattering in your life that triggers one of those steps. It is timing and being ready with awareness as the teacher will only appear when the student is ready to learn. It is being fed up with your current conditions, fed up to a point of questioning the status quo while searching for your individual purpose that is unique to only yourself. It’s not being the occasional upset or being tired about something, but it is that intolerable feeling you can’t shake and something’s that will return with increased frequency as it is beckoning for a change. And this change has to fit nobody but you, there is only one life to live and that is yours without approval of anybody else.



Going through these steps, I would like to believe that I have grown as a person. I believe that I have experienced all steps and that they offered valuable lessons and experiences along my way. Slowly but surely the pieces align and fall into harmony with my highest self and who I was meant to be. And yet I can’t help but wonder if I am fully awake. If there is more to learn and if I will look back on this, yet feeling that I have evolved once more? We always think that we know it all and have all of our experiences under our belt in our current situation, but I also know that I might find myself in the least bit surprised if those steps and lessons deepen and yet get richer with added experience.


You can check these individual steps here and find my own examples that might shed clarity and light onto your own experiences. Maybe just like me, some of these signs can make sense and reveal your own path of coming home to your unique beautiful self.


Spiritual awakening – Stage 1

Spiritual awakening – Stage 2

Spiritual awakening – Stage 3 

Spiritual awakening – Stage 4

Spiritual awakening – Stage 5 

Spiritual awakening – Stage 6

Spiritual awakening – Stage 7


Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

15 thoughts on “Wide awake

  1. Reblogged this on greenygrey3 and commented:
    I was alerted to RhapsodyBoheme by this post on True North Nomad:
    It contains a lot of relevance for the greenYgrey, and this post and the Katy Perry video I wasn’t aware of before strike a particular chord with the way I was feeling during the writing of XaW Files, and the emergence of the POP (PinkyOrangePurple).

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  2. I love your writing, it is original and heartfelt, and much needed in this particular area of human endeavor. Now, I hesitate to “recommend” anything for anyone when it comes to spiritual matters, in part because I think everyone needs to follow their own path. But, as I progressed along the way, as you are doing, I came across a book that I consider to be the most insightful, inspiring, and enlightening in terms of clarifying the general nature and overarching (template) if you will, on how spiritual awakenings unfold. Absolutely amazing to me and lays it all out. Oftentimes the writing is beautiful and poetic, as those in the know understand authentic spiritual writing to be. The author has a religious background, but obviously has an understanding that spirituality may
    have little to do with any particular religion. Anyway, it sounds like a book you would find wholey applicable to your current stage in life. The book is entitled Mysticism, and the author is Evelyn Underhill.

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    1. Thank you very much Matthew, your words mean the world and reconfirm that I’m on the path I have set out to walk. I agree with your views and recommendations as we all awake differently and experience life based on our own beliefs. I believe that all I can do is share a d put the information out there for whoever comes across to perhaps find something relatable.
      I appreciate your recommendation and will definitely check into it. Thank you very much, have a beautiful weekend.


  3. AH, I’ve finally found your collection of posts on spiritual awakenings… I’m sure I’ll find a lot of resonance in there. Started already. This sentence perfectly describes the nagging hardly bearable feeling that I’ve been having for over two years now: It’s not being the occasional upset or being tired about something, but it is that intolerable feeling you can’t shake and something’s that will return with increased frequency as it is beckoning for a change. And this change has to fit nobody but you.

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    1. First of all I’m so glad you did find the posts and that makes me happy.
      Your response consists of wise words spoken only by somebody who has undergone this transition or is in the process of and I couldn’t agree anymore with you. The lessons repeat until we fully learn them and when we reach the point of intolerance and no longer accepting the things in the pursuit of our own truths, it is then that we awaken to our own purpose. Much love to you on your journey. Xo

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