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Spiritual awakening – Stage 1

“The transformation begins”

As I mentioned before it was Pinterest that steered me into the direction of spiritual awakening. You might wonder what exactly it means to be spiritually aware, awake and enlightened. Don’t you walk around with your eyes wide open every day and if so well then you are definitely not asleep, right? What could be missing? I had the same questions and it remains something that is somewhat difficult to answer. I think that the timing has to be right for you to believe and to see the signs the universe is throwing you. I like to say it’s made more of the things that you just feel, a instinct, a gut feeling, maybe a hunch. And even when you do feel it, you won’t know what it is, which stage you are going through, let alone that you realize that you are going through a stage or a phase. None will make any sense as it is new information and you are learning it for the very first time. Perhaps it’s a discontent you have felt, something you want to change in your life, maybe you have questions that have gone unanswered, until now. To say the least my curiosity was sparked as I first embarked on the first message and my hunger grew to learn more about this mysterious subject. I kept most of it to myself and shared very little of what I was exploring. How could I explain it to others if I couldn’t even explain it to myself. Many times I thought people would for sure think that I had gone crazy, not that I really cared all that much about what others thought of me. I had learned a long time ago that people will always have an opinion one way or another, whether you do something or not and even if you do it perfectly. Sometimes you merely get caught in the crossfire and have to accept things how they are. If you can, you will feel less burdened and may even be healthier and happier for sure.

One article exclaimed that there were 7 stages to spiritual awakening and that a person could go through any given step at any given time without any particular order. The process is different for everybody as we all awaken in our own way, so this is really where the tricky part comes in as there is not a one fits all process. From person to person we interpret and feel things in a different way and it was said that some people may even skip a few stages where others yet repeat a few stages to solidify the lesson until it is learned.

I still think that the first stage is vital and sets the course for all the other stages to follow while it remains unclear to me if the first stage could ever be skipped.
Stage 1 The Catalyst
The Catalyst is described as a life change, a paradigm shifting event that shakes and jolts you awake. Some people may need several of these catalysts which are said to be gentler after the first strong jolt. They weren’t in my case but I did require quiet a few to finally wake me up. I think the first big one was my fathers death, but I was only ten years old. And while I knew back then that life would never be the same again, I understand now that I couldn’t have had many plans and experiences at such a tender age that would have wanted me to completely change my life around! I simply was too young to understand, I didn’t know, but I still believe it was a vital event that shaped my life and my future that was to come.

The miscarriages were catalysts further forging my path. And there were a few others of which I am not sure if I could ever sort them into a gentler category. Being torn between two countries, being diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis which almost left me crippled for awhile in excruciating pain and the fear that it would rob me of my life, a failed marriage and the estranged mother / daughter relationship that had brought me much guilt over the years. Maybe I had learned to live with most of those things, maybe I had accepted them over time and they were no longer catalysts at all. I don’t know for sure but I believe that everything that happens in our lives is here to guide us onto the path we were meant to take. So ultimately I have to believe that these things are a part of my journey.

The next jolt came as Sparky did not make it home after a vet visit and the aftershock of having to say goodbye. The final catalyst came 2 1/2 years ago as Nikki crossed the Rainbow bridge. I never recovered from that one and it shook me to my core. There was no way I could sleep through that one and it was then that I found myself in the early stage of waking up. Nobody ever said that it was suppose to be beautiful and it was better be explained as very painful, life altering, a life changing event, a shift, catalyst and jolt that was character building but not to be ignored.
Some example events / jolts can include:
A near death experience,

Loss of any kind,

A life threatening illness,


But also meeting your soulmate
Further it was suggested that spirit visitations could also be a part of it. This last one truly made me pause and think. It wasn’t that I had experienced any ghosts, aliens or other spirit visits, but how did I know and how could I make such a statement! How exactly did a spirit look like, would it take on a human form to sit here and chill with me, having a conversation as if it was the most natural of things? I was thinking back to the Spirit Animals that I had encountered, the sightings and the incidents in nature that remained mostly unexplained. Could it have been?
The summary of the emotions experienced during this first stage were:



Not understanding what was going on,


And the difficulty grasping that it happened to begin with.
I definitely could relate and without a doubt I knew that I had experienced stage 1 in the process of spiritual awakening. I’m still curious and wonder how many others experience similar instances. For myself, many questions were answered and the article even though it was read in hindsight and might have not guided me at the time, it still shed a lot of light. It brought explanations and clarity to me during a time I felt alone and confused with the feelings I couldn’t articulate and share with others. I look back to these painful catalysts and I have learned to embrace them. I don’t hold any bitterness as these painful thresholds are nothing more than a push towards a life that is enriched and lived to the fullest. A life with my eyes wide open and my senses heightened to take in all of what truly matters, in all of it’s glory and all of it’s beauty.

How could I ever be bitter about that?


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

28 thoughts on “Spiritual awakening – Stage 1

  1. You may not have been able to articulate it at the time , but you did so very well here:) It’s amazing how introspective someone as yourself can be, while so much of the world merely reacts to circumstances with no clue as to why, or a desire to know themselves. You are meant for something greater. I believe that. I saw it when I met you back in the days. Maybe I could not articulate it then myself. But something in The Vision you possess… through your lens, through your painting, your thoughtfulness and advice…. now through your insightful storytelling. You are special…and I don’t mean ed this time, lol 😀 You Rock my friend!!!

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    1. Wow, I have read your words several times now and I don’t even know what to say as they touch me so deeply. Thank you so much for your kindness and your beautiful compliment. You know it means everything and I’m truly honored.
      I could probably ramble on about something in response to your words but I need to just let it be and take it all in I think. One thing is for sure though and I feel good on the path which aspires me to become a storyteller. It’s a different roam of being a servant and helping others who might not have that developed of a vision, understand what is going on. I hope I can convey this in some way through my messages.
      Thank you my friend…glad to rock with you 😉

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      1. Well Amen on that, I feel what you said was spot on here. And I didn’t know your a night owl here, I thought I was the only one. And last thought I don’t ever temp with the fate of what God has planned for us. Just know that he has this moving for a reason that we never might never understand. But what we understand is the power of what is out there in this world that is where our faith comes into play.

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    1. It’s a complex question that involves much that could be said. Maybe in a post sometime and what can I say….I’m long winded and can’t say it casually in a short sentence. I think the subject deserves more than that.

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      1. Thank you and sure will think about it. Did you have any particular thoughts in regards to the laws of attraction, as this can branch out in too many different direction. Such as between people, commanding things into your life etc.

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      2. Well the only reason I brought the laws up is because I was talking to someone that I was on a blog and that I was talking to you actually. And this female friend told me well what are you doing on a blog first off, and my reply was that I need to find peace and that I needed to let out my feelings no matter how deep they are. And then I said I found your blog first, and she said since you have had lost in your life do you think that this person as in you will help me in the ways you think you could? I didn’t know where she was going with this conversation actually, but I know one thing is that I want to trust my inside and know no matter what happens it was power of the spirit that brought me to this, or you I should say. Then she closed it with the law of attraction. So I had to ask you your thoughts on this, I hope I kind of made some sense of this. Sorry, it was one of them deep talks…

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      3. I’m not surveillance understand all you are mentioning here, but I guess like I said before, I believe that people enter our lives for a reason, call it law of attraction or whatever you will. We learn from each other or help each other, we are introduced to new perspectives and find motivation and new ways to conquer our problems.

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      4. And until then all I can say that in a spiritual way I do believe in the laws of attraction and I believe that our minds are very powerful to command the good as well as the bad into our loves. For example of you believe that you always get the short end of the stick and you can’t see the silver lining and the lesson that is to be learned, you will always hold on to your victim mentality and you will never rise above. I hope that helps shed some clarity on to your question.

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      5. Well that’s what I meant to say in the beginning here. Our minds are powerful beyond measure here, and like to say for me that I only want to bring the good into my life at this time. And I forgot to tell you that they told me that I might only have 4 months to live, but I’m about being them odds actually. And I promised you I would too for that matter. But getting back to what your saying I like to attract the good things that mean the most to me at this time. And your part of this plan, spiritual you have purpose but I don’t want to question that purpose at this time. It’s just letting God taking this journey to where it leads me..


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