Life provides us with plenty of experiences, some good and some bad, they consist of moments that turn into memories that lift our hearts or haunt our dreams. Whenever I need a little pick me up, I rely in the beauty of recalling one of those special moments as they magically produce a smile on my face. But what about the not so pleasant moments that we contemplate over and over? The ones that hold us captive and instead of a smile produce regrets that creep back into our mind, keeping us up at night.
I consider myself lucky that I was never much a dweller of the past, although I’m not a stranger to it. I think we all know a certain amount of regret and course I would do some things differently if I had the chance to do them again, but I also have learned to give myself credit. To be forgiving of what might be viewed as a mistake in later life, to accept the choices I made and to realize that I did the best to my ability at that time. Before I found myself wondering from time to time about that famous “What if”. A cruel way of the mind to entertain and torture ourselves with nothing but the same outcome and with nothing that would ever change. I reminisced about what could have been, how my life could have turned out if I only had….????
After the initial Catalyst and life jolting me awake with what I call “My transformation phase” it came to mind that something had changed. I was no longer interested by my past and the hold it once held over me subsided. I accepted what was and left the past where it belonged. As a teacher that taught it’s lessons and one that would never have anything new to say again. I felt as if a burden was lifted, free with a load lightened, for the first time I realized how weighted down I had been carrying the past around in all of those years. The past will always be a part of me, but I’m no longer interested in the regrets it held for me. I believe that everything is unfolding exactly how it is meant to be, all experiences included, good and bad. Special moments will remain while I have waived goodbye to the self destroying, unhealthy moments that once haunted my dreams.
My wish for you is to realize the worth of your past and allow it to be whatever you see fit for yourself.