The calendar marked the 23rd of January and finally, finally, finally, I was coming out of the darkness. The pain eased up which is a big deal for us suffering from a chronic disease. I must say that when this moment comes, it means everything and is a game changer. By now, I had seen these cycles come and go and been through so many flare ups and remissions that I felt like an expert knowing how it was affecting the quality of my life.
Not too long ago, all within that week, I felt whiny, emotional, vulnerable, breaking down, even crying. The tension was unbearable and it’s hard to imagine what you go through during these times unless you have experienced it yourself. Even just sitting and not moving is uncomfortable as the tension never eases up. Limbs tingle, muscles ache and your range of motion is a fraction from what it is on a good day. Putting your hair in a pony tail can leave you in tears, part because of the pain it causes and the reminder that a simple task as such becomes a challenge and huge undertaking.
January 23rd finally brought a breakthrough. Not one that would miraculously wipe away all the pain, (although that’s possible as well), but one that made the hurt more manageable again. It is during those times that you gather your strengths and motivation. When you get totally Gung Ho to impact your life, because if you can help it in any way, you are not going back to that pit of pain for a long, long time.
Coming out of the darkness is one of the most profound feelings. It feels like you have been bestowed an awesome gift, the gift of getting your life quality back. Without it, your day is reduced to struggles, and pain management that can easily turn into depression and fear. January 23rd marked a turning point for me, a new chance, a little window of opportunity, and it came with not a minute to spare.
All of a sudden there was a pep in my step, “Hello my old friend” it’s nice to have you back. There was motivation and the desire for creation. I ended up making Ginger Syrup to stock up on my inventory and use up the fresh ginger I still had. You can find some of the benefits and healing properties of my homemade syrup here.
I also worked on some new merchandise for my Etsy shop at Youniqua which I will share with you in another post. By the way, it’s also there that you can order your very own homemade syrup by me. 🤗 Thank you in advance for looking.
It was a good day and a fresh start at trying again. Of realizing were changes could be made, of building on the blocks in place already, putting on another story of the shook foundation, and move forward once more. And I knew I had special people in my corner cheering me on, sending me healing, saying prayers for me and simply being there to catch me when I started to tumble.
January 23rd was a day of many emotions. Also a day my aunt and uncle who passed from Covid were laid to rest in Germany. It was a day of clarifying intents and relations and reconnecting with a dear soul very special to me. January 23rd had a little of everything but will definitely be a day to be remembered. And from here on out, I can only go up and tickle the sky once more.