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Release “ME”

And here it is…what could be the last post for some time, perhaps. Something has shown up on my radar and is growing stronger. It’s been here in the background for quite some time now but I wasn’t ready, nor did I want to acknowledge it, and so I sent it back, trying to mute and dismiss it.

It surely feels strange to arrive at this point and life has a new intense ness, a new feeling of being alive and most of all actioning things, vs. letting them pass me, watching from the sidelines as an onlooker to my own story. To feel everything with yet increased awareness, to truly pay attention and grasp the opportunity to choose, whether we want to listen, take note, act on what has bubbled up or dismiss it for yet another time. But believe me when I say that what is meant to be will always return, and soon or later it comes to the surface once more until we finally deal with it.

When it comes to this blog, it has been my companion for quite some time. It has been my constant and it has listened and allowed me to shed/share my heart while being herd and understood. And that understanding has come from you, my beautiful dear fellow bloggers. It has been my outlet, my friend, the one that has heard my cry’s and struggles. The one who has been a witness in the “Becoming ” and has attended a hundred funerals of the old self that once were me. It has witnessed this Phoenix rise over and over after fighting my battles with a chronic dis-ease and the many cross roads weaving it’s way through this life in general. Best of all, it has brought me to you and allowed me to make some pretty special connections and friendships. I am rich because of it and I know that it has been a big part as to why I dismissed the call before.

In a way it felt like I would let you down by not being present here on a daily basis. You who might have found something useful in my ramblings. You who might have needed me and you who have been my constant, my loyal supporters. You who have seen me through, and you who stopped by on a regular basis to comment and not let me walk alone. I felt like losing something very special, something I value a great deal, an old friend, my outlet and the precious connections we have built together. Now, I don’t believe that anymore. The blog is not going anywhere and is here for me whenever I need to type my heart and thoughts onto paper or into virtual space like here. And true friends are forever and today I refuse to believe in the old adage that says “Out of sight, out of mind.” And yes, I am doing “ME” (finally) in the process of it all, while releasing myself. I have acknowledged the call….finally.

And yet it’s with a partially heavy heart that I have arrived at the conclusion to stop writing for awhile and to embrace a new chapter. As with all change, it will take some getting used to and God knows that I have had this feeling a few times before, and God knows that I have resisted it.

As I walk through the doorway of new possibilities, I will still post to Aspendell_Retreat on Instagram, building my new future, building a tiny house in a remote area in the wild. Many of you have my contact and email information to stay in touch and I would love that.

I feel that I have gathered many lessons over the past couple of years and now is the time to integrate this learnings. I am grateful for the foundation to put all these learnings into action and let them become the new me. Eventually I will revamp this blog and go back to how it started so I can tell a more precise story without filler distractions. So if you are interested, please stay tuned and continue to join me on this next adventure of my journey.

Until then my friends…I love you to the moon and back.


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

16 thoughts on “Release “ME”

  1. Dearest Rhapsody,,, EnJOY your new found Freedom of Self, to explore and BE all that it is you desire to be… I wish you well on your journey of YOU…
    Much love your way… and this is not farewell… But we are ALL of us BECOMING and greeting a New chapter in BEing… Much love your way ❤

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  2. Much love and light your way Rhapsody, and a blessing to what is opening within you. A point in time to touch who you are truly, feel the love within it all and stand in that acceptance of who you really are within. Big hugs dear lady, and the best of wishes for your future. May that love heal as only love can and speak to what you are becoming in this journey. Take care and enjoy the building, inside and out xox 😀❤️🙏🏽


  3. I will be ever grateful for your blog because we have met through it, virtually first, but then also in real life! And I’m grateful for the many inspirations I found in your writings. Be yourself my friend, walk out into what brings your joy! My heart and my wishes will be out there with you! And I know you will create something great! Enjoy the journey doing it!

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  4. Ahhh, We will be missing you, My Dear!! Wishing you the best in the new chapter of your life that you are writing each day! Will you be so kind as to keep your blog in an active mode but not accepting comments??? This will give some of us a chance to go back to the time before we started following you to read what we missed???


  5. A new chapter to be written. Adventures to be had. Places to explore. New awakenings to be felt. Enjoy the journey. ♥

    I do follow you on Instagram and look forward to your next dream becoming a reality. All the best. ♥♥

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  6. You will be much missed here but I know and hope you will cherish this new chapter in your life and it brings you fresh renewal.

    I’ll be here watching and waiting and I’ll keep in touch. Much love to you 🤗❤️🤗❤️


  7. Dear Rhapsody❤️💃🎶 I so resonate with you moving into your new, funneling your being into a new direction. We all know when it’s time, sometime overtime! But now is great to follow the heart. Enjoy it all and we will keep in touch, I believe I can request your email through your contact page! I would still like to have that recipe❤️💃🎶 Much love to you🥰


  8. Hello my friend! I was just combing thru my favorite writers, and came across your news. While i am so saddened. However, i respect your reasonings and also your decisions for such a departure. I surely hope all is well and wish you the best of ALL! With that said, I feel you should know what you have giving your blog community. I can speak only of me but i am 100% certain that you have touched many lives including my own! While I have only blogged for a couple of years, it has and will always be a very rewarding contribution to whomever it touches. You have been one of my mentors in writing, and have become a meaningful purpose of human life within its complicated definitions. You have captured the attention of the subconscious mind/soul through the gates of what your beautiful eyes and mind has seen and envisioned! As your knowledge, wisdom and understanding of life, kept me listening, You have always remained a go to serenity for most. With the most sincerity of aspiration and love i remained here with you. So i am wishing you the best victory in your quest, as we all send you the vitalis energy with passion and love that is deserved! 💜#RB

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    1. Hello my dear friend. I needed to say a huge thank you for your kind words and for sharing your thoughts with me. I am sorry for the delay as I am challenged with the RA pain that causes me not being able to type all the time. It was also the reason I stopped writing but I am still very much here and keep the blog in an active status. I hope to be back soon even if not on a daily basis.
      You should know that reading your words touched me deeply and that it is people just like you who inspire me to do what I do. Seeing that it has not gone in vain and actually makes a difference to some is more than I can ask for. I am delighted and touched beyond words. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. You are the reason and you make the difference. 💙🙏🏼

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