Posted in Gardening, Inspiration, Life

The gentle gardener

It was a day of tears, a day of sadness, relief, and letting go, surrendering all that is not within my control. It was also a day of revaluation, coming to new terms, and a day of signs and what’s to come.

The days around Dad’s birthday are always tough for me. Still, nothing has changed after all these years, and I miss him. I got up and soon recognized a pattern that was all too familiar. Acting silly, trying to make light of things, and being funny, until I was reaching the point of exhaustion, and the realization of what was going on. I was trying to pull myself out of the rut, the sadness that slowly grew inside. It’s as if I become my own cheerleader and this usually goes on for a moment or two until I catch on to what is happening. After realizing what I was doing, the wall dropped and it was as giving myself permission to be sad, to cry, and to stop trying. The time has come to acknowledge those feelings, and allow them to pass, for they surely would, eventually anyways. It was around that time that I found out that the mortgage company would defer my house payments for three month, interest free. I was so emotional about receiving t news and this much needed break, that immediately I burst into tears, hands clasped together in prayer posture, while looking up and thanking my guardian angel and the universe.

Later that day I drew a oracle card, intended with a message for the world, for all of us. I drew the gentle gardener. Here is it’s message.

The gentle gardener is visiting you at this moment in your life to remind you that your thoughts, feelings, and beliefs create the reality you experience. She is the embodiment of the energy within you that is sent out into the field of co-creation and ensures that all that you are is reflected in the world of form. Are you aware of your thoughts? What is their quality?

Believe in limitless possibility and you will see miracles unfold. The gentle gardener guarantees the integrity of everything you send out into the world. Stay positive and expect a wondrous return.

Your garden is abundant with beauty.

So what does one issue have to do with the other? Well for me it was an emotional day, dealing with the anniversary of Dad’s death and the scars that are still here many years later. The answer from the mortgage company actually brought a huge relief for worries and burdens I have carried and which have weighed heavy on me. Especially during these times. I feel the universe was giving me a break to gather new strengths under that normally heavy load. Further it was guidance as far as pursuing my own business and Etsy shop I recently opened. It was a message in regards to the current quarantine, a time that can easily get to all of us, as we feel locked up and so restricted. I used to say that I won’t get bored for a long time staying at home and I still don’t. But I miss the freedom of getting out when I want to, spending time with friends and loved ones, and village walks are getting old and are not enough. The days seem to have fallen into a routine, a rut that repeats every day, and I don’t like it. I was never a fan of routines.

Drawing this card was a reminder for me to gently realign my focus. I don’t have control of what is going on in the world, but how can I change my thoughts, and how can I expect a wondrous return in regards to the energy I am investing now? I believe it’s a question we should all ask ourselves. There has to be more than just making the days go by, one after another, while we wait. With that said, what can you do now, while everything is restricted, so you can reap the rewards later? Can you take an online class? Pursue a hobby you always wanted to learn more about? Can you become an advocate for your family and friend, spreading positivity and hope? Couldn’t we all use something extra to hold onto right now?

And here is another thing the gentle gardeners reminded me about. Whether we tend to a physical garden, or the garden of our mind, we will always get what we direct our focus on. With positive reinforcements that include our thoughts and outlook on any given situation, with a little love and effort we are rewarded with flowers and blooms, aromas and wildlife, a sense of beauty and peace, a calm and healing that soothes our own well being. On the contrary, if we consider what negativity and neglect brings us, the picture I see is much different. When we are filled with fear, anger, and not caring, our garden as seen before can’t exist. I see a picture that is dark, dead and overrun by weeds. I see hardship and a life that is much harder on ourselves and everyone we come in contact with. I hope these little examples and my experience can show you that we do have some control on how we tend to the garden within ourselves and the garden in our world.

Choose wildly 😉

Posted in Life, plants


Palmkätzchen (German) are amongst one of the first messengers of spring. In Germany they are protected by nature laws, and are not to be plugged. They serve as a good source to animals and bees.

On my walk today to get out of the house, I came across this beauty, a giant bush of Palmkätzchen. Their fuzzy little velvet like buds, took me back to my childhood, a time it was still ok to pick these skinny branches. Since they bloom around mid March/April during Easter, Mom would arrange several branches in a tall vase for the Easter Holiday. Hollow, blown out eggs, delicately decorated with ribbons and paintings, as well as wooden little rabbit and other ornaments representing Easter, would hang from the branches, making it a festive centerpiece. Immediately a smile formed on my face thinking back to that innocent, time with all its little traditions. Hours later, the feelings have shifted as reality reminds me that these precious times can never be relived or repeated making new memories in the physical. But the memories will remain and for those I am eternally grateful.

Posted in Health, Life, Prayer, Reiki

Just in case

For my American readers, just in case anyone needs this in these uncertain times. I know many of you are scared, and I wanted to take the opportunity to send light and love your way. Together we can connect and send healing to the world, and to all of us who feel panic and anxiety.

You are not alone, and I will send healing love this evening at 8 PST, that you may find peace and comfort. We will start with soft drumming to connect to the heartbeat of the earth. State our intentions, while asking for healing, strengths and protection of all our loved ones.

If you want to join, see how this time converts to your time zone and take a moment to become still with me. Close your eyes and relax. Let your thoughts drift away, and tell your ego to step aside and not to interfere. If you find it hard to stop the noises in your head, ask again, until you become still. Find your rhythm and breathe deeply, picturing your stomach rise and fall. Relax and rely on your senses. Here you are safe and all that matters is the current moment. Maybe you can burn sage and clear your space of negative energy. Maybe you have soft music playing in the background. Maybe you allow yourself to relax while taking a bubblebath. Whatever way suits you, be thankful to yourself for granting this moment to you. For taking the time to do something for yourself.

Sending love and blessings during this difficult time and always. 🙏🏼

Please feel free to contact me and leave me a message if you would like more help.

Posted in Challenges, Life

A world in pandemic

A world in pandemic has been a scary phase for most. Walking into the unknown, the uncertainty, and not having the facts, knowing we are vulnerable, without a cure and vaccination to effectively combat the virus has stimulated fear and heightened aggression everywhere. It’s almost impossible to watch the news and one wonders how much is actually fact and how much is blown out of proportions. Some think the media should be held accountable for instilling fear and hurt in people, while others simply despise the feeling of not being in control.

Compassion and mindfulness, consideration and thoughtfulness seem to have vanished overnight, leaving a “fend for yourself” environment. The elderly with preexisting conditions are at higher risk and are to be avoided. Scary times for sure. Not only at higher risk which can be scary enough, but also left to face it alone without immediate and direct support.

Overnight the world has changed, canceling schools, social events such a all sports, concerts etc. Doors to nursing homes have closed, prohibiting visits in avoidance to spreading the virus. Safety measures or chaos? Shelves are wiped at stores with basic essentials such as toilet paper, and worse yet, others try to capitalize on the crisis, reselling said products for high profits to themselves. People have reacted hostile towards each other and it’s scary to go into public. I for one who suffers with allergies am scared to be out and having to sneeze. Others crack jokes and try to brighten things with humor and smart memes, having survived the 10th end of the world crisis. I don’t know if that is the right attitude to send out to the universe either, and I won’t to it. I believe in karma and that the current situation requires respect.

I’m still unsure of how to feel and what to believe is true and what is exaggerated. Many fear that the worst is yet to come. With that said, please be safe out there and do your part. While much is out of our control, some things such as basic hygiene and boosting your immune system is within our control. 🙏🏼

Posted in Inspiration, Life

To All My Blogger Friends Whom I love Across The World! 😘❤

To All My Blogger Friends Whom I love Across The World! 😘❤

To All My Blogger Friends Whom I love Across The World! 😘❤
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A beautiful and heartfelt post from my dear friend in regards to our current crises. I truly appreciate her words and kind concerns, and had to share her post. I have my own thoughts and post scheduled later this week, and wanted to join in to spread love and positive vibes around the globe. Thank you Nichole ❤️

Posted in Life, My story

A storm is brewing

Snow is on the horizon for the next 4 days and a storm is brewing. It matches the inside of me as a storm arrived Friday the 13th. Do I believe in Friday the 13th, not necessarily, but I bet someone else will. It’s a storm caused through none of my wrong doing and yet it at affects me and I have a feeling it will be life changing. I could feel a lot of anger right now, but I’m strangely calm. Maybe I’m in shock, we will see over the next days. Maybe it is that I remember the saying about anger as a wise man was asked what anger is.

He gave a beautiful answer, saying “it is punishment we give ourselves, for somebody else’s mistake.”

And I didn’t make a mistake, so I will trust that the universe is just nudging me to get on with it and change my stars.

Posted in Challenges, Life

Created by Storms – Truth

Today’s post goes out to my dear friend Marcus, the man behind the camera, pictured above. A fellow blogger and friend from the homeland (Germany), I was blessed to connect with Marcus back in 2018 and enjoy a shared photo shooting adventure in Schwäbisch Hall. It remains a very special memory to me, I will always hold dear.

Mom was very sick at that time, and I was faced with having to sign paperwork, and admitting her into a nursing home. Marcus was there every step of the way, offering great advice of what to look for, what to request from the government, etc. But even more he was there on an emotional level, helping me to breathe and bring a calmness to my anxiety and stress over everything. My worries while fighting the storm of truth, knowing what had to be done, and the inevitable, that was yet so complex and such a painful process.

It is often the truth of the situation that hurts us. Being in that situation, the knowing that we so often wish was different. Another side to that truth is the fact that strong men and women tell the truth, no matter how painful this storm is, no matter how harsh. Their hearts are filled with pure intentions. To them honesty is the best policy. That is why they’d rather hurt someone’s feelings by telling the truth than comfort them with a sweet, sugary lie.

Marcus never hurt my feelings and always found the most amount of compassion for my situation and me. After all he knew, because his own Mom was in a nursing home herself. I will never forget how important it was for me, that he shared his own truth with me. How painful the truth can be at times and how much we struggle with it along the way. Even when we accept the truth, it didn’t mean that we have grown to like it. They say the truth is painful but also sets you free. Today this post is to honor my friend Marcus who recently had to fight this storm of truth himself losing his beloved Mother. You are not alone my dear friend and I am holding the space for you. Hugs.

Posted in Inspiration, Life

Breathtakingly beautiful

I’m not just talking about the scenery here, but life is amazing. And then it’s awful. And then it’s amazing again. And in between the amazing and awful it’s ordinary, mundane, and routine.

Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful, and relax and exhale during the ordinary. That’s just living, heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life. And it’s breathtakingly beautiful.

Posted in Inspiration, Life, Wisdom

Words of wisdom

Diffuser Bracelet by me with lava beads to infuse your favorite essential oils on the go, and white Howlite gemstones, great for meditation and to calm stress and anxiety. If you want to achieve a better understanding of yourself, of people, of the world, and of life itself, Howlite should be your go to stone, which brings me to a little wisdom from Eckhart Tolle.

“See if you can catch yourself complaining in either speech or thought, about a situation you find yourself in, what other people do or say, your surroundings, your life situation, even the weather. To complain is always non acceptance of what is. In invariably carries an unconscious negative charge. When you complain, you make yourself a victim. Leave the situation or accept it. All else is madness.