This picture was taken a few years back at another favorite spot where the marmots run wild and whistle to signal you are near. I will never forget backpacking and camping at this beautiful spot under a starry night and a full moon. It was light enough for the mountain to reflect in the lake as the glow of the moon was casting it’s soft subdued light everywhere.
I love to hike and I have seen some pretty amazing spots over the years with some help. Fact is I am dealing with chronic pain, rheumatoid arthritis that can cause joint damage and erosion. It’s always a struggle to hike these days and most days I say a little prayer to say safe out there. For my joints to hold up, for my ankles not to buckle and the strengths to manage the often rocky terrain. It’s painful, always, and it’s only the pain levels that vary. On a mild day more tolerable and manageable, making you feel alive with a actual quality of life, and on bad days crippling and debilitating where the simplest of tasks become a challenge. In addition to the pain, the second worse thing is the fatigue, being tired all the time, having to force yourself to move, to be active, to live a normal life. Everything takes effort on top of the pain and I have listened to my body to let it rest, to observe the signs, to be gentle and not push too hard, and at the same time push myself when I feel I can to get my strength back in order of being able to face daily life. It’s a struggle and no two days are equal.
We’ve waited so long for warmer temperatures and the humidity to lower, which have finally arrived, actually weeks ago and all June has been nice. The pain though hasn’t vanished and I am still struggling. The other day we talked about this potentially being my new reality and my way of how life is for me going forward. I struggled even more, and couldn’t accept that to be my truth. In a way it would feel like giving up, surrendering to it, giving into the fight, and it didn’t feel right. Not just yet, and while I believe that this is valuable, sometimes, that we have to pick our battles and go with the flow, I also believe that certain things are worth fighting for and this is one such a thing. You see I have been here before, not for this long as it has been now, and not as bad as it has been now, but I have been here and have witnessed it all go into remission, giving me years without pain. I have to believe that this is also a possibility and could be my truths. So perhaps the chances are 50/50 and this dreamer believes in miracles.
Scoliosis over here! I feel you.
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Oh man I am so sorry. We all carry our suitcase don’t we and we all have a story. You are in my thoughts.
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It is a very debilitating situation dear lady, and as you have said, to such a degree that even doing something simple turns into a nightmare.
I am in the early stages of it and the only thing that seems to affect it is diet. So out went sugar, chocolate, alcohol, did I mention chocolate 😀, and a million other things.
That does look like a beautiful place, and it is when we are in this space we feel so much more connected than when our bodies are constantly screaming at us. Giving you a little rest at least among the mayhem.
May your remission drive a Lamborghini and visit soon 😀
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Your comment is bittersweet and stirs on my emotions. You made me smile and feel sad at the same time being diagnosed with this mean, unforgiving disease at well. I may have some hope here soon and be sure to keep you in mind through sharing the info. I believe people come into our lives for a reason and maybe this is why our paths have crossed. Besides giving up chocolate simply sucks 😉
Make sure to get balance into your life because stress is no friend of yours with this disease. And if that Lamborghini shows up, be sure I’ll come to pick you up. 😉 Thanks my friend.
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Thank you dear lady, I shall be waiting with block of chocolate in hand 😀
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Save me a piece 😉. Have a great week and keep checking back. I hope to know more by the end of the week.
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Take care of yourself! Hugs!
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I am trying and there might be a day of hope on the horizon. Should know more soon. Hugs
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Fingers crossed!!
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Thank you my special friend. Enjoy your weekend.
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Beautiful place both for hiking and relaxing Rhapsody.
Have you tried CBD oil against your pain? It is working good for me, so I don’t need so many other painkillers, when mine flaw up her.
Send you healing and best wishes ❤
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I have a CBD cream I use from time to time and someone recommended to get a CBD oil that is already mixed with turmeric which helps with inflammation. I will keep you posted once I get it. Hugs ❤️
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Good to hear, that you find a way too without so many chemicals. I have used the CBD oil in some months now and it is working well. I don’t intake this together with turmeric, this I use in the food together with ginger and ground cumin to fight the inflammation.
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That should be fine as well and is something I have to increase. Inflammation is a constant fight and I am currently working on finding my food triggers. Much love and light to you. Be well.
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Blessings to you – healing Light to your body. ❤ And, love that you believe in miracles. So do I.
Beautiful photo, much love.
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Thank you son much Debbie. Miracles do happen and I know we have both experienced this to be true. From one soul to another. I see you. ❤️
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I am sorry that you are no better love. I hope you find your answers soon. Healing light to you. 💖💖💖
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Thank you Colette. I am better but there is always a mixture of good and bad days. There is always some pain, just the levels vary. Overall better though 👍🏻
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