Posted in Chronic illness, Health, Inspiration

Wabi-sabi

A concept, an aesthetic, and a worldview that focuses on finding beauty within the imperfections of life and accepting peacefully the cycle of growth and decay.

This is a recent picture from a few weeks ago. It’s been month since I could make a fist with my left hand. I’ve tried, but all I could do is slightly curl my fingers, that was all. When I gently wrapped my fingers with my other hand, helping it to make a fist, I could only go so far and you could literally hear the bones grinding against either other. The sound alone was painful to hear not to mention the actual feeling. Sometimes my hand got stuck in an awkward painful cramp, until it finally snapped into action. Either into the desired direction or back to the way it was before the attempt. It was always painful, but I had to try. It was scary times for sure, losing control, your life, especially when my right hand started to show similar symptoms. And then eventually it happened and I could make a fist again. So what happens?

I’ve kept quiet thinking it might be some fluke, a good day where the universe had finally heard my prayers. The last thing I needed was to jinx it. I almost didn’t believe it myself, but more and more days followed, good days, still painful to make a fist, but days when I could do it. That in itself was a miracle to me. I’m by no means out of the woods, but I can’t help but contemplate about what contributed to it. And feel pretty darn blessed, empowered, and proud that I have kept my vision and never gave up. That I believed and surrendered my swords to love and faith. You know how the universe answers your prayers based on your thoughts? Well today I believe that I am experiencing remission and it just has to be this way. I’m thinking it, I believe it and the universe will do the rest.

I think some of the things that helped me getting her is that I stopped fighting against it. That I let my resistance and fear fall to the wayside. Mostly and whenever I could. Some things are simply out of our control and I recognized this as such a thing. I accepted the imperfections, the growth and the decay, no matter how hard it was. I tried to find the beauty in the lessons and the imperfections of life, in Wabi-sabi.

I stopped drinking out of plastic cups for the most part. I need to get a new metal bottle for when I hike since my old one started to leak, but I made changes.

I do have my copper gloves I wear here and there. They soothe my hands and feel comfortable but I can’t credit them to alleviating stiffness in the morning.

I don’t type as much on the computer and sometimes days go by before I get to your comments. I don’t like that part but I can’t force it when I’m dealing with the pain and thank you for understanding. You already know that I always come around again when I can to catch up and to see what you’ve been up to.

Ibuprofen helps with inflammation and pain but is not your friend. What a weird concept. You feel better but more damage is done in the meantime. On an autoimmune protocol ibuprofen and aspirin is a no go, and I only take it if I absolutely need to now. There used to be a time I needed to take it every night just to get a decent pain manageable amount of sleep.

I cut out sugar and sugar substitutes and sweeten with honey.

I eat less inflammatory foods.

I have become more mobile and have gone from hardly being able to walk in December to managing 8 miles on a good day.

I have become a energy healer and have gotten my Reiki Master certificate amongst some others. I am calm most days unless you invade my privacy on the trail and fly a drone over me to film me. Sorry side note but true example of poor trail Etikett. Can you believe it? Yep that happened to me this week… my words “Do you mind?” Gee

I have been lucky being able to listen to my body and allowing it time to heal. To not get sucked up in a physical job and to have had all this time off to really mend myself and look after myself. It’s been a long, painful process, but it’s been a journey where much was learned and the lessons are not yet over. This time taught me just how strong we can be and how extraordinary yet fragile the human spirit is. How easily the balance can tip and things turn to chaos and being out of whack.

My blog has definitely helped me by connecting to other kindred spirits and extraordinary souls. I am blessed to have crossed paths with you. I could never thank you enough and I hope you know what you mean to me.

Plus another powerful and most amazing gift is that I receive healing and love from other powerful healers and a very special shaman that sends me their light and love every day. I couldn’t have done it without you.

These are just a few things that come to mind and really it is a collection of many things. Maybe it is my guardian angels watching out for me. Attending the full moon celebrations, releasing energies that no longer serve me and weigh me down. Maybe it is setting new goals and intentions during the full moon and manifesting such throughout the month. I am sure it is the healing power of crystals and without a doubt it is inner peace and quieting the turmoil we so often find ourselves in. It is following my passion of turning my crafts into a business, of bringing something special to the table, a sense of belonging and being needed. It is being loved and appreciated. It is having purpose. So where do you find all these things you might wonder? Life is not perfect and never will be, but most of it is a matter of your perception and how you react to those moments. If you see a lesson or just another downfall. If you feel the victim or embrace the cards you are dealt with. You don’t have to like it one bit and believe there are still things I don’t like and need to change, but I will continue to try and make the best out of these situations. Maybe tomorrow I take a step for the worst, but I’m not even going to through this thought out into the universe because today I celebrate the achievements I have made in claiming my life back. And so can you…

Namaste ❤️

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Posted in Photography, Sunsets, words

Listen and Silent

Another beautiful sunset picture, (aren’t our sunsets just gorgeous) and another play on words. We just dared to explore one the other day, talking about Heart and Earth being spelled with the same letters.

Guess what else is spelled with the same letters?

What about Listen and Silent?

Think about it….

Have a great week everyone ❤️🦋

Posted in Inspiration

The trail of a Goddess

A Goddess is a woman who emerges from deep within herself. She is a woman who has honestly explored her darkness and learned to celebrate her light.

She is a woman who is able to fall in love with the magnificent possibilities within her. She is a woman who knows of the magic and mysterious places inside her, the sacred places that can nurture her soul and make her whole.

She is a woman who radiates light. She is magnetic.

Here is to all of you beautiful goddesses and warriors who inspire me every day. May your light shine bright and always help you find your way back home. ❤️

Posted in Inspiration, Self help, Spirituality

A message from the Lions gate portal

The Lions gate portal reached it’s full aperture on the 8th of this month and will be completely closed today, the 12th of August. I came across this cool little chart, listing our individual mantra based on our zodiac sign and the day we were born. These are the energies for August and what propels us into the coming months. I had to share the great news and I know everybody has been ready to catch a break and have positive change enter their life’s.Take a look for yourself and take the blessings in what is yours to receive and celebrate. Write your mantra down to activate these energies and consider it done.

Here is my personal message from the Lions gate and I am ready…

I am blessed, balanced and awakened. ❤️🦋

Posted in Journey, Love

An art print musing

Picture taken from google

This picture itself was so powerful to me, I couldn’t help but to incorporate it into a blog post. It is full of life, in bloom, and it reminds me that we all are an essential part of this universe, this world. The paintings on the bodies may suggest plant matter, but to me it speaks of true love and the impact each one of us has on our environment, the earth. There are hues of calm blue where life is good, and fiery reds that need attention. I see a gaze into the windows of our soul, the eyes, a knowing, a certainty that it is often replaced when words become unnecessary. It is also then that the heart knows when the search is over.

Posted in Inspiration, Women

Keeping it real – A reminder for women

10 facts every woman should know (in case you are too hard on yourself which is pretty much always…am I right?) I hope you can keep a few things in mind and your day gets just a little brighter. ❤️❤️❤️

1. Everyone has rolls when they bend over.

2. When someone tells you that you’re beautiful, believe them. They aren’t lying. And if you are too focused on your fine lines, remember that you earned each and every one of them. You say your hair is turning gray??? Forget the color and embrace that sexy silver fox within. Hair color never determined anything and believe me “you still got IT”.

3. Sometimes we all wake up with breath that could kill a goat. Maybe we can wait a minute before we passionately lock lips with our significant other.

4. For every woman unhappy with her stretch marks is another woman who wishes she had them.

5. You should definitely have more confidence. And if you saw yourself the way others see you, you would.

6. Don’t look at a man to save you. Be able to save yourself.

7. It’s ok to not love every part of your body…but you should anyways.

8. We all have that one friend who seems to have it all together. That woman with the seemingly perfect life. Well, you might be that woman to someone else.

9. You should be a priority. Not an option, a last resort, or a backup plan.

10. You’re a woman. That alone makes you pretty damn remarkable.

~Mary L. Leonard & myself

Posted in Inspiration, words

Alpas

It’s time for another new word and today I am exploring “Alpas”.

(v) To become free. To break loose.

What’s holding you back? Stay true to yourself, everyone else is already taken. You are perfect in every sense. Remember….❤️🦋

Posted in Health, Life

Natural Mosquito Repellent

Mosquitos have always had a hay day with me and everybody always said “Oh you must have sweet blood” when I was the only one that got bitten. Forget that…

The bites here in the states are not as bad (bad enough though) as they were back in Germany last year. The insects were in general much more aggressive over there since there is no pesticide spraying of crops.

Last week there have been reported cases of mosquitos carrying the West Nile Virus in my area which is a bit scary. I was never a fan about the chemical protectant sprays on the market and these days I am all about eliminating toxins from my body vs. putting new ones in. So this natural repellent seemed like a no brainer and I am giving it a try.

Here is what you need:

1/2 cup water

1/8 cup apple cider vinegar

10 drops citronella essential oil

10 drops cinnamon leaf oil or lemon eucalyptus essential oil

A spray bottle

Directions:

Take a spray bottle and put apple cider vinegar and both essential oils in. Then shake the bottle.

Add the water to the spray bottle. Shake well until all ingredients are mixed and voila.