I follow a site on Facebook called Source Messages . Each day a message is provided to help us see things from a new perspective and to guide us along on our journey. Those who have started the awakening process, regardless of how long ago, or how far you see and find yourself on the path of enlightenment, will see virtue, a understanding and a confirmation in those messages that are often feel as if spoken from your own heart. All of a sudden these feelings that you could never quite pinpoint are articulated and validated. They make perfect sense as you sit here, nod to yourself and notice a smile dance onto your lips. They speak to your soul, you feel reassured and it feels rewarding and good. Finally a validation for all the hard work you’ve been doing and how far you have come. Work that is seldom seen as most of it takes place internally and on an emotional level. A battle, a fight, few know anything about. Yet it’s there, every day, valid and painful in all it’s details.
I have felt these messages to the core for some time now. Messages that were no coincidence to be found by me, messages that the universe provided through divine intervention and guidance to keep going. All we have to do is listen and be willing to see with an open mind. Today I feel inclined to share the message that was written on the 12th of October. It is my belief that it could benefit a great many and that it needs to be heard. Today I am using my voice on this blog to share this insight with you and be the messenger of reassurance via Source Messages. So here we go….
“These shifts aren’t temporary. They’re not based on luck. The positive results you’re seeing are rooted in the internal manifestations you focused on first. Exploring your inner worlds gave you fresh ideas and new perspectives. Attaining peace gave you the stability you needed to begin executing. Energy you once used for arguments and disappointment are now being utilized for positive growth. Don’t you see? It’s all interconnected. These small shifts are causing a massive uprising. Your new life is taking form.”
It’s that time again, and like every Month we are soliciting insight about which spirit animal will step forward to support the energies for the upcoming month. Let’s take a quick recap and see what happened so far this year. I started this little ritual in March, a time when I felt that I needed a little extra guidance, so this is where we start.
March: Hummingbirds message was to “Be here now”
April: Armadillo urged us to “Set healthy boundaries”
May: Groundhog found us telling us that it was “Time to let go”
June: Grasshopper appeared motivating us to “Take a leap of Faith”
July: After all the hard work Horse spirit ensured us that “Freedom was ours”
August: Buffalo promised that “The abundant Universe would provide”
September: Armadillo made a reappearance to set further boundaries that were needed.
Now, we are entering the month of October, and Stag Spirit has come forward to tell us that it is time and to “Take the lead.” To me it is much in line with the recent Harvest Moon, a time to reap what we have sown. A time to harvest. Take the lead is not exactly a message to sit back and wait, but it is a message that we did our groundwork and that our goals and endeavors are supported. It tells us to leap, to lead and to step up. Whether or not you have set your intention to lead, you may have found yourself suddenly called to step up to the forefront of your life. Stag Spirit is a reminder that now is a time to heed the call to be sure, strong, and compassionate. Others will look to you, and you have it within you to see through the eyes of Stag Spirit and walk with confidence as you take on the responsibilities that are yours now and model integrity in all that you do and in all your relationships. Be willing to see the best in others so that your compassionate heart keeps you on the right path. Stag Spirit wants you to know that your responsibilities now are to yourself too, for you are learning and developing new skills. The best in you is coming into view as you step forward with strength, knowing that spirit supports you as you compassionately take the lead. You are a model for transformation now, sharing your experience, strength, and hope with others so they may grow and discover their best selves too. What a gift you are. Stay humble and authentic, and walk your talk, for this is how a wise leader leads.
Have a wonderful month everyone and good luck on your journey and path.
The full Buck/Stag moon will appear in the night sky on July 23rd and be visible for three days. It’s been awhile since I wrote about the powerful moon energy and as things settle in for me and this moon is all about healing, I’m of course all over it. We all need healing on some sort of level and mine is multi dimensional. So let’s take a closer look to see what we can expect.
Hindus, Buddhists and Jains call it the Guru Moon because it’s marked as a time to clear off the mind and learn from the Guru or spiritual mentor. It’s a time for individual exploration and connecting deeper with your inner self. It is perfect for reflection and reconnection with our bodies and minds which can help us gain a clear perspective on an important matter.
Those born in late Aries, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn might feel the moon deeper that other zodiac signs. Ahhhh…no wonder, and as a fellow Cancer I suppose this means “count me in.”
The full moon brings the opportunity to spend time outdoors and truly connect with nature in this blissful season. Find somewhere quiet, feel free to go barefoot to ground and connect to the earth.
The full moon is personal to each individual and sometimes it will be there to highlight our wins and manifestations will come to fruition. At other times it is there to shine that spotlight on what needs to be she’s in order to make room for the new. And let’s not forget to utilize this energy to release what no longer serves us.
To reap the fruits of the full moon, you can spend time meditating, journaling, or doing any other form of self care. Personally I hope to add drumming for the first time in months. Happy full moon everyone, let the magic begin.
The pain body was reaching havoc last week, leaving me in pretty bad shape. When it happens it’s always on the emotional level as well as the physical one. It’s almost what I would imagine entering a state of depression must feel like. I try to understand the lesson (s) and you’d think that now that I left a toxic life behind, and can pursue my most authentic self, now that I have the freedom to do as I please it would look much different. At least I thought it would…and ahhh…there it is, did I set myself up for failed expectations? Another root evil I won’t get into right now.
In all honesty, I didn’t know what to expect and I tried to go with my own motto of going with the flow, let life develop and unfold as it must, but deep down we always hope for the best and see things through rose colored glasses, don’t we? Sometimes it induces us to hold expectations even if we don’t do it via the direct route. We don’t see things for what they are while we yearn for different and can’t stay where we are. When we feel the need for change and a time of transition. Staying at the same crossroads becomes unbearable and anything has to be better than this, right? It might be so but seldom is it perfect, and seldom do we step into a perfect new situation. New challenges and problems await, even if they are different, they still share the same familiarity, the same foundation. For instance: While we quit one job, thinking the new one will be much better, different issues await, with different people, and new scenarios. What I didn’t expect was all the physical pain that would come my way, although I’ve put my body through hell. I thought it could finally rest, heal and mend, but this hasn’t been the case. Maybe in a physical sense, there is no more heavy lifting and pushing beyond exhaustion, but there is still a lot of emotional baggage, and I’ve always known that it adds and promotes my pain.
A few weeks ago I’ve reached to over the counter pain killers and it was a big step as I don’t like them. “Temporary” was my saving grace and what I wanted to focus on, but they have left me hanging, bringing me little to no relief. Yesterday morning I was at an all time low. It’s territory I know too well, and I wish I was unaware of it, never having encountered it. It frightens the daylight out of me, but on the flip side I know that even that has a part and without it I wouldn’t be who I am. The only question is “is it a good or bad thing?” Some days I don’t know, especially when I feel vulnerable because of the pain body. Some days I see the amazing light that shines within and other days I see a big mess within. It’s the kind of low when you can’t pick yourself up anymore and there seems to be no way out of the slump. A low where you just want the pain to end, any which way, but end. Where your willpower and fighter spirit vanishes before your eyes. Where all your knowledge and even your positivity goes out the door. Where you feel so raw, emotional and vulnerable, and cry in an instance at anything and everything because life doesn’t seem fair. I’m not sure when that happened either and when I became so emotionally vulnerable. Some days I just don’t understand it and the lesson is well hidden. A sign that I am still not ready to move on and that more work is required. That’s how dark life feels during one of these lows.
And then I reached for the “big guys”, steroids, leftovers from a prior awful bad episode with the RA. Meds I had for years, long expired, for one of those rainy days moments when everything else has failed. That moment has arrived and there is no need to savor them any longer, but perhaps not use them all. Will they help being expired for years? Maybe I can trick myself into believing that the horrible side effects have lost their potency while the healing properties are still intact. Am I entering a placebo phase? It got so bad I had to try, and this was to be another “temporary.” I hope to kickstart things so I can function at least. So I can sleep maybe a whole night or even several hours in row. That would be a dream. Where I don’t have to strain trying to dress or comb my hair in agony. Another dream….
I think I’m on the mend emotionally, at least for the moment while I am writing this, and I’m optimistic at this very minute. I know it can change quickly and there is more work to be done before I can convince myself that this is a true statement. For the moment I take it and enjoy that I can grab a little glimmer of light while staying in the darkness a little longer. Hello darkness my old friend, we are definitely not strangers, you and I. The darkness and pain are some of our greatest teachers and I am so willing to do the work. But does it really have to hurt sooo badly?
I ‘m an awful mess, physically and emotionally. I have become somewhat of a hermit, withdrawn, lonely, missing some special people in my life and yet wanting to be alone. Is this the point I am turning into my mother? I have felt so raw and emotional that naturally it comes to mind that something must be wrong with me. I’ve even read up about depression as it surely feels like it on some days. It could also be an issue with my thyroid which I actually believe is the culprit and which mimics depression symptoms along other problems like being unable to lose weight. But hey I did lose ten more pounds over the last month and was happy to see the results.
Like I said more work is needed and transformational work is hard work, no doubt. No wonder so many shy away from it, it would definitely be a lot easier to give up and yet something tells me that I have to continue on this journey and see it through. That there is no other way and that I have come too far to throw in the towel. So onward I go, sometimes walking, skipping, happy and eager, and sometimes crawling on all fours or limping, but I am moving and any progress is progress…so mote it be…
Have you heard of Osho? Surely you must have and perhaps you too relate to much of his wisdom. There quotes recently found their way into my life. Perhaps at a time when I needed to hear them since I don’t believe n coincidences. Today, I feel compelled to share them with you, or at least write them out here for future reference.
The first one is all about self love. Of being comfortable in your own skin. Of facing some fears and perhaps his one relates to many of us. Here it is…
“First become alone. First start enjoying yourself. First love yourself. First become so authentically happy that it nobody comes it doesn’t matter; you are full, overflowing. If nobody knocks at your door it is perfectly okay – you are not missing. You are not waiting for somebody to come and knock at the door. You are at home. If somebody comes, good, beautiful. If nobody comes, that too is beautiful and good. Then move into relationship. Now you move like a master, not like a beggar. Now you move like an emperor, not like a beggar.”
The second one is all about contentment. Of going with the flow. Of dropping expectations. Of letting go of control, of being at peace. Here it is…
“Don’t seek, don’t search, don’t ask, don’t knock, don’t demand – relax. If you relax, it comes. If you relax, it is there. If you relax, you start vibrating with it.”
The last one goes back to self love. To forgiveness and taking a leap of faith challenging the status quo and everything you have learned in life. It’s an undoing, an unlearning, a chance to summon your courage and follow your own truth. Here it is…
“Accept yourself as you are. And that is the most difficult thing in the world, because it goes against your training, education, your culture. From the very beginning you have been told how you should be. Nobody has ever told you that you are good as you are.”
I hope somebody needed to read these today. Read them slowly, see how they apply and then forge your plan and general outline. Know in your heart where you want to go. Visualize it and see it. Notice a smile gracing your face as you see it. Hold on to it and give thanks as if it happened already. And now surrender and let go. 🙏🏼💙
My current now is probably one of the greatest journey’s of my life. In all actuality it’s been in the making for quite some time and I see with such clarity how all the pieces required their own time and fell into place one by one. It’s one thing to realize things in hindsight, to wish you would have done differently, but it’s another to be keenly aware of what’s going on. It’s on a whole other level, allowing you to direct in real time. You become an observer of your own life. You feel deeply and you notice the impact of every step. You become your own advisor, your best friend, the one that picks you up and delivers that pep talk when it’s needed, and the one that silently gives you a shoulder to lean on for a good cry. It’s quite amazing to watch the pieces develop and even the ones that sting and feel like your face gets a good rub with sandpaper, yes even those have purpose, no matter how bitter they taste, and how much they hurt initially.
It’s been a process. I see many years, at first trying to defend myself, to fight back when I was attacked, and even now it still takes practice not to fall into the trap and lower my frequency to those standards. I know how it feels, how hurtful it can be, so why would I ever want to act from a place like this? Because it’s human nature that we defend ourselves when we are criticized and attacked. Maybe we have to have the last word, maybe that gives us the believe that we did well, soothes our mind, perhaps we defended ourselves, maybe we won the fight. These days I don’t care much about winning these kind of fights. It simply is not worth the energy it takes. I don’t have to be right, I don’t have to win, but I have to be at peace and hold a greater love for myself. And this is the frequency I choose to uphold as long as I can. Once you realize it’s in your best interest, you will easily understand my choice. You see…
The universe responds to your frequency. It doesn’t recognize your personal desires, wants and needs. It only understands the frequency in which you are vibrating at. For example, if you’re vibrating in the frequency of fear, guilt or shame you are going to attract things of a similar vibration. What you put out, is what you get back. If you’re vibrating in the frequency of love, joy and abundance, you’re going to attract things that support that frequency. It’s kind of like tuning into a radio station. You have to be tuning into the music you want to listen to just like you have to be tuned into the energy you want to manifest into your life. Change your mindset, and it will change your life. It is work in progress but it is worth it. Love yourself enough to remember that you deserve better. That a mere ten seconds of satisfaction feeling a win could never compare to the peace and quiet that spells bliss and harmony.
May 11th, the new moon in Taurus, signaling a fresh start and the beginning of a new lunar cycle. While new moon energy affects us each in it’s own unique way, this cycle is activating the need for change and bringing value to our situation.
The new lunar cycle is about empowerment and radical self care. It preserves the energy for what you truly value, while setting boundaries , and not neglecting your well being for the comfort of others. To me it seems a continuation of the energy at hand and previously written about, soliciting the knowledge of what spirit animal is stepping for forward to support each month. It seems to be right in line with everything else and nothing appears to be out of order, or out of place. With that said, take comfort that not much new energy is heading your way, allowing you time to work on what you already started, honing in on it and perfecting your craft. Don’t forget that Pluto is retrograde, opening doors that previously appeared tightly shut.
Another layer to this new moon is the connection with Black Moon Lilith in Taurus. It is now time to no longer give away our power, to stand up for our worth and to remain grounded and firm. Now is the time to release guilt and all we have suppressed within outsell ourselves. Now, we choose the reality we truly see, deserve and dream of. New decisions can feel challenging and downright overwhelming, but this specific time is for our highest good. Everything is already on the way, so use the energy of this new moon to revisit your goals and dreams.
I feel like this new moon is speaking directly to me. Like it is giving me the pep talk to keep going, to stay the course, to be reassured that this pain I am feeling right now is not meant to last forever. As with every new moon, we set out intentions and clearly communicate to the universe where we see ourselves and what we are going to achieve. Notice that I am not using the phrase “hope to achieve”, as this leaves room for your manifesto not being as powerful. Envision it, see it in your minds eye as if you have achieved it already, be grateful, and consider it done.
The first super moon of the year is upon us and it’s time again to prepare for the energy it has in store for us.
Rituals associated with the full moon include connecting with nature and manifesting dreams and goals. It is believed to be a symbol of optimism for the future. During this time, one can expect to have some of their goals and dreams achieved. In order for this to happen, however, one must figure out which parts to let go of in order to move forward in life. We are being asked to trust and believe in ourselves as we attempt to grow and change. Allow yourself the chance to fail and the courage to try again. This is a big one, isn’t it and often we are far too hard on ourselves and hold unrealistic expectations. Give yourself a break. You are doing your absolute best. Remember this…
Be willing to adapt and redirect from your original course or strategy. This will help make your intentions and goals successful and long lasting. Besides progress and optimism, the pink moon is also linked to other spiritual meanings, such as lightheartedness, adaptability and generosity.
Full moons are seen as powerful tools to manifest wishes and goals. What are you wishing for at this point of your life? This Monday evening when the pink moon rises into the night sky, listen to some music that triggers happy emotions. Speak with gratitude and imagine yourself already hearing about the good news. Sit outside, be still and allow nature’s beauty to bring good energy your way.
This post goes out to all of you, conquering things you once believed to be impossible to tackle. Things that always seemed too far out of reach. You know the things you dreamed about but never thought you could. Things you thought were for someone else to do.
If you are lucky then the day comes when it happens, and if by magic superpowers these things become possible. Even for you, for us, who have doubted before. Some of you may breeze through them with a ease that is unexpected and surprising. You see, when working in the garden of our life, everything has it’s timing, everything unfolds, buds and grows when it is ready. I believe that when things are hard, when nothing falls into line, and when things are working against you, it’s perhaps that we try to plant in the wrong season. With patience, the right timing, and a little wisdom, we are supported by the universe and we are ready to push on. Once we reach that point, we become that Phoenix Rising and when that happens, there is no looking back. The seed has been planted and it sprouting. Spring is the time to cultivate our buds and encourage their growth.
Slowly…slowly…it dawned on me.
Why did I keep trying?
The answer is very simple, considering.
You see…Once the seed has been planted, once you have started to sprout and bud, new life begins. You are born again, and it can’t be undone. There is no other choice but to move forward and grow anew. Use this time for your own growths and remember that beautiful things are born out of adversity or when we plant the seeds of our life.
I think I skipped last weeks new word post and the week before perhaps, as well as my weekly health segment. I’ve managed to post, but again I’m not managing to read you as much as I would like to. I have so many talented followers, you deserve to be read, and you deserve to receive input. I always feel bad when life shifts my focus elsewhere, but I am here to say thank you for sticking with me.
To be honest with you, there’s a lot going on right now and even this post has been rescheduled a few times. I am doing important work in my life right now, and sometimes things come up that need to be shared first. I told my girlfriend that I was considering not blogging for awhile or to slow down, posting not every day. 😳 Yeah, her response exactly and her jaw dropped, numerous times to say the least. And so did mine, actually hearing myself saying it out loud. In conversation, others have suggested that the blog wasn’t my priority right now, to let it go, and to be honest it wasn’t something that I could even consider.
I know some of you will say “go for it and do what you need to do, we will be here when you return”, while others will encourage me to just be and to do me. I can truly say that I am doing that and everything that is happening now will be for my higher good. I might slow down blogging going forward. Strangely it’s always as soon as I consider it that all of a sudden there is so much to say. The new conclusion is that I might skip the occasional daily post or two, perhaps even longer and I’m going with the flow of things. I say no to fillers, and the feeling of “oh my god I have nothing written for today.” I’m letting it flow and give myself the freedom of working towards a great new purpose, actually a complete lifestyle change. Whatever feels right will win priority despite of all the things that need attention and have to be done.
Some of the things going on is that my House went on the market for 12 days with the intention to sell. By now we have decided to take it off the market and basically strip it of as many personal belongings as possible. This will help a potential buyer to picture themselves in those walls I once called home. It will also give a head start in case closing goes quickly and we have to be out in a hurry. Much will change on the home front over the next couple of weeks. I’m sorting and I’m packing. Luckily I’ve started to downsize a long time ago, but finally I am at a point to manage it easier on the physical and health front. Fingers crossed it continues. I’m deciding what goes and what stays. Much is going and that’s a good thing. I am having a huge garage sale this weekend and even my artwork is being axed and up for grabs. Couldn’t even imagined that not too long ago.
A 27 year relationship/marriage hasn’t worked in over a decade and has become a toxic terrain I can no longer subject myself to. It literally makes me sick and I think we both deserve better. We are bringing out the worst in each other and frankly I don’t like that at all. It’s a constant battle, each and every day and once best friends and lovers have gone from love and friendship to tolerating and having little patience for each other. It’s not a good feeling.
I have readjusted my focus and I am learning to go on. What else is there? In theory all the years leading up to this was my time of sadness, coming to terms, adjusting and realizing. There have been so many tears, that are now being replaced with a big portion of numbness. Sometimes I still feel too much and other times I am battling through and know it’s for the best.
I am that Phoenix Rising. I am taking a bigger involvement in co-creating my life and that in itself is important and gives me hope of returning to the person I remember myself before all of this. I have an amazing chance, a chance not everyone gets, and I will do my best to get it right.
I am creating a space for my soul to be at home. I am entering my Crone wisdom and what seemed once important is becoming the small stuff I no longer sweat.
I am definitely dreaming big and in a card reading I was told that my vision will be granted. A vision that is much bigger than myself. I invite you to come along as we support and empower each other to achieve the peaceful existence we each deserve so much.