Happy Birthday sweet Cinnamon

Cinnamon and her first trip to the ocean. I think she loved it, especially napping in the warm sand.

Happy Birthday sweet Cinnamon girl. It’s hard to believe this little rascal is turning two today. Where has the time gone? Please slow down so my time with you won’t go by so fast.

There will be lots of treats today. A new collar to replace the old faded, sun bleached one, a new toy to rip apart and lots and lots of love, kisses and smooches all over. Plus of course a nice hike with tons of playtime. A birthday for the little queen and person she is. She never fails to amaze me. How smart she is, how keen her senses are, how quick she learns and copies us thinking she is just one of us. She has sure brought much happiness and joy into my life and today I celebrate this little girl and thank her for choosing me to be her fur-momma.

Wasti

A friendly hello and greeting from the family pet in Rothenburg, a 48 year old turtle that roams the backyard of the house.

Talking about pets, of course I missed my Cinnamon girl and by now we are reunited once more and had many cuddles, hugs kisses, and petting times. She is a special girl for sure and my heart feels happy and sad at the same time. One always stays behind…

A powerful spirit

It wasn’t all that long ago that the powerful Wolf spirit came to visit me and strolled through my backyard. Cinnamon is still on alert, looking to the hills, sometimes growling at something that is out there, unseen, and yet I too sense that it is there. It can be beautiful and frightening at the same time, especially at nighttime. What a powerful and amazing animal.

It is interesting to note that among wolves, no matter how sick, no matter how cornered, no matter how alone, afraid, or weakened, the wolf will continue. She will lope even with a broken leg. She will go near others seeking the protection of the pack. She will strenuously out-wait, outwit, outrun, and outlast whatever is bedeviling her. She will put her all into taking breath after breath. She will drag herself, if necessary…from place to place, a healing place, a place for thriving.

~C.P.Estes

Missing Bember

I always had a little visiter on my previous visits to Germany. Bember, the neighborhood cat. Mom used to feed the Momma cat and so it was only normal that her daughter came too.

During my stay, Bember was always a welcome guest at my house. She came to eat but often just to snuggle and give me some company. I missed her on this trip and I had a feeling the last time already that I wouldn’t see her again. It’s amazing how animals can influence and impact our lives and I look forward to see my little Cinnamon girl soon.

My special lil girl

Being away from this little pumpkin has been difficult for me. I miss my little cinnamon girl a great deal. I try to FaceTime with her here and now, but it seems like it’s only confusing her even more. She hears my voice, turns, and looks everywhere but never finds me. It appears to be more stressful for her and mist of the time it ends with her curling up in a ball and turning her back. It hurts to see her said, but it would it make things better if she didn’t miss ne st all. I suppose not.

Wave pool

A special moment at the wave in Arizona. It still feels unreal that we got to see and experience this special place.

Poem of a Dog

By now I have arrived in Germany and with certainty I am missing this special girl here already. Fact is I have missed her before I even left. Years ago while my other two dogs were still alive, it was enough to know them in good hands, and I don’t remember being “That” attached, although I loved them with all of my heart. It is a huge, huge comfort to know Cinnamon is in the best care while I am gone and with people she loves, so what am I worried about? What’s left are nothing but selfish reasons, of me needing her more than she needs me perhaps. Or is that what I am worried about? I am sure it has it’s place somewhere. I came across a comforting poem by an unknown source and I will read it often while I am away.

Poem of a Dog…

I am the one who always waits for you.

Your car has a special sound that I have imprinted on my senses, I can recognize it among a thousand.

Your steps have magic timbre.

Your voice is music to my ears.

If I see your joy, it makes me happy!

Your scent is the best, your presence is what moves my senses.

Your awakening wakes me up.

I watch you sleep and for me you are my God, I am happy watching over your sleep.

Your gaze is a ray of light.

Your hands on me have the lightness of peace and the sublime display of infinite love.

When you go out, I feel a huge emptiness in my heart.

I wait for you again and again.

I am the one who will wait for you all my life today, tomorrow and always:

I am your dog.

Savoring every moment

I have come to love this little girl a great deal and she is very special to me. She thinks she human and has quite a few unique quirks, making her one of a kind, with a personality to match. As the days are ticking down and merely a week is left before my departure to Germany, every moment is savored and emphasized. I hug her with all of my awareness. I pet her involving all of my senses, as if I need to store that feeling into a safe place to recall it later when we are apart. I bury my face into her fur and breathe in her sense as if she was a person I am trying to remember. I am making more and more time for her, often just being close, cuddling her and feeling her warm little body next to mine.

To be honest I love to live with awareness and intention. To experience each feeling, each sensation, each touch with all of their feelings. I love to be conscious of the moment and turn it into a precious memory that I can always hold dear to my heart. For me it’s the difference between existing and truly living. To do things with a purpose, a meaning, to do it with heart and soul. and to take time and smell the roses, although it’s a bunch of fur I’m talking about smelling here. But it’s those moments, that are important, that touch our hearts and later create the memories.

I will definitely miss this little stinker and sometimes the feeling gets the better of me and overwhelms me as the tears begin to flow. She will be greatly taken care off and perhaps it is me who needs her more than she needs me. And here I go and I shouldn’t even allow such a thought into my mind to make my heart bleed. Fact is I love her to pieces and soon we will meet again. Plus I can hopefully face time with her so she doesn’t forget me all together.

An unusual visitor and a Wolves spirit message

Two wolves passed through my backyard the other day. Cinnamon was barking up a storm outside, spotting them way before I did. Once inside, she kept hanging close by the window, growling and intensely alert. So I watched with her and at first there was nothing, but soon something moved higher up on the ridge. For a moment I couldn’t comprehend what I was seeing. It wasn’t a dog, it looked bigger than a coyote, and all of a sudden I just knew it wasn’t one. And then another, a lighter animal with a giant plume as a tail emerged lower on the mountain and I knew for sure that we weren’t dealing with a coyote sighting. But wolves? I never knew we had wolves in the area and after a little research I found that indeed it was confirmed in 2021 that a third pack of wolves were established in nearly 100 years. This pack is said to consist of three wolves and despite I only saw two, there might have been a third. To say the least, it is pretty cool and somewhat frightening at the same time. Since the sighting, Cinnamon is on constant alert and I am grateful that she senses things like these. She doesn’t go outside alone at night and our eyes are always peeled for any further signs. What an unusual animal to see though and Wolf comes with a message for me that I think I needed to hear.

“Characteristics and behaviors that no longer serve your spirit purpose are being culled from your consciousness. Make cooperation a priority over competition. Valuable insights, ideas, and new teachings are coming your way, so pay close attention. It’s important to maintain your self-esteem and integrity and deeply trust in your inner knowing, even when you feel misunderstood or misaligned. You’re being spiritually and physically protected at all times, so there’s really no need to fear.”

Giraffe Spirit – February 2022

Welcome February! Second month of the year, second month with endless possibilities. New energy is stepping forward for us and this time Giraffe Spirit is daring us to see the big picture. The background work has been done. The minor details have been put into place. All you need to do is respond to the call and this is your time.

Giraffes stretch upward to reach the treetops and look down from a high vantage point. Haven’t you looked in on yourself quite frequently lately? It is as if you have become an observer, not only to your surroundings and what is going on, but also to yourself and your own actions. When giraffe spirit appears, it is a sign to keep observing from a higher view. In all aspects of your life, it’s time to stretch your neck out and broaden your view, open your eyes to what others need or are experiencing, and see the big picture you fit into. No matter how great your wisdom, knowledge, or experience, you don’t want to overlook the details and connections that will help you better understand yourself and your circumstances, so stretch yourself. Look beyond what catches your attention at eye level and know that not everything is as obvious as you might like it to be. There is still some work left to be done and you are now equipped with the tools to mange these opportunities. Spirit will bestow upon you a new perspective that might make all the difference.

Protection message: Are you sticking your neck out too far, reaching too high instead of looking around you to see conditions on the ground? Your devotion to co-creating something new is admirable, but Giraffe spirit is showing up to remind you that you have to look at the top of the tree. Perspective is necessary now, that means checking in with what is going on around you and at your feet. Or perhaps you are ruminating over the worries of the world instead of paying attention to what you can do right now, where you are, to bring about the changes you would like to see. Align with your highest good, and that while perspective is important, transformation begins where you are. Do not get so far up in the clouds thinking about all the big problems that you lose perspective and forget to do your part, however small it may be, to start enacting change – for transformation begins with you.

Again, balance seems to be a major message for us this month. we have to evaluate where we see ourselves. We have placed piece after piece into our picture, but are we still too focused on the individual pieces that we can’t see the whole picture. Do we need to step back for a moment and take a look. Reevaluate from a higher view. Or has our head been in the clouds too high that we don’t realize what is going on at ground level? There is no right or wrong, only awareness and changing course as we see it fit for ourselves. We have come so far and may this message reassure your path and celebrate everything you have achieved so far. Happy February, my friends. Namaste…