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Facing the music…pt 2

My doctors appointment is behind me, at least the initial one and I continue here in pt.2. It’s been 4 years I have sought medical help and in large my own care has been in my own hands. There are many things I just know. Some started as hunches, others as “could it be” that resulted in further research, and yet others stem from a deep knowing as if I have been here before. Perhaps in a prior life I was a doctor, medicine woman/man, healer, or shaman myself. I can’t tell you where I know from, other than my gut and intuition have never failed me.

I was nervous going to the doctor, no doubt. There are things that are obvious to me but I still haven’t decided if it’s always good to know in detail what is wrong. What could go wrong…if…what is bad already….and what could be. It surely takes bravery to go see the doctor. The first blood pressure reading was 148 over 80. The second wasn’t much better. The nurse taking my vitals asked me a couple questions in regards to hypertension and told me that she would leave me sit for a moment. Over the course of the next few minutes the machine would take my blood pressure 6 times within 1 minute intervals. “Try to relax and breathe” she told me on the way out. Alone in the room I remembered my Self affirmations, my mantras I set for myself the other day and began to recite them in my head. Eyes closed, I sat, breathed deeply and told myself that I was loved and supported beyond measure. That I had no reason for fear and that nothing was my fault. I told myself that whatever happens would not be the end of my story, but merely the beginning. By the time she came back into the room, I had meditated myself from hypertension and a blood pressure of 148 down to 114 over 70. Everybody seemed relieved.

My doctor was a very young woman and in part I was very glad about that. I felt that perhaps she would be open to non traditional methods, to alternative medicine and healing, and she was. Problem is, that I need help quickly and unfortunately I don’t have much time to experiment and try various things, but I still had to make my intentions known. Right now the main objective is to reduce inflammation in the body so I can regain a more active life that is not overshadowed by constant pain. I received a topical creme for my left swollen knee with further instructions to follow the RICE concept. Rest-Ice-Compression-Elevate. For overall pain another inflammation fighting pill that I will take as needed and on a temporary basis. I slew of tests have been ordered when it comes to bloodwork, as well as x-rays of my knee and my hands. Not mentioning a Mammogram and other routine checkups. I will try to at least schedule my bloodwork for the end of next week and coordinate the x-rays as soon as possible.

Although I have only taken the pill once, I feel it did bring some relief in pain and I found it was easier getting around. Moving wasn’t associated with so much strain and I am thankful for every little bit. I’m still on a one cup per week coffee regimen and I’m sticking with tea. I will incorporate a targeted 30 minute routine that will include more walking, dance or whatever else I can. I am actually looking forward to it, if I can sustain and execute the plan due to less pain. We shall see. On the contrary, there is nothing to lose but everything to gain. I have big plans and I need to be well. I consider it done and my intentions to the universe who loves and supports me are clear. So mote it be!


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

8 thoughts on “Facing the music…pt 2

  1. Well you have been courageous enough to have a look at your body and see those things that we ‘feel’ but are unsure of what they are. At least this can relieve any worry to some degree. If you need any extra systolic or diastolic numbers I’ve got a few extra at 150 over 95 if you like, but in my case I know what the ‘stirrer’ is, a medication that I’m trying to get off but it has damaged my adrenal gland and is firing off hormones and a million inflammatory signals reacting to it all over the place…and yes, as it has suppressed my immune system as well I have an accelerated arthritis response so you have my empathy dear lady. May they find and heal you with much love my friend, and at the least allow a choccy or two among the medicine 😂 🤣 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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    1. Oh my goodness that sounds like a real pain as well. I had numbers like that before too but luckily they have came down. If on a persistent basis, I don’t know, but at least it worked the other day at the doctors office. Wishing you all the best always and sending much love. 😘💙🙏🏼

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      1. And your journey is testing you too dear lady. Your photo’s of the arthritis are way worse than me and I cannot imagine that sort of pain, and the frustration of trying to do many things and are unable. But I feel a big breath, a healing heart within you and much love to help you forward my friend. With that, I’ll throw in a hug (gently), to lift and help heal your steps. And one day soon you’ll send me photo’s of you jogging with Cinnamon in a field or mountain path somewhere 😂 🤣 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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  2. i personally avoid doctors at all costs. my wife and i have been on a journey the past year to find any and all natural medicines, herbs, oils to be able to heal our selves for anything we might encounter. one of the things we focus on is inflammation. we made a sort of tincture that contains raw honey, black pepper, turmeric, and ginger. we get a mason jar, fill is 3/4 with honey, add lots of the other ingredients, stir. it will be a brownish/black color. it should be quite potent, but actually tastes really good. add 1 tbsp to hot water, along with a squeeze of lemon like a tea and have once or twice a day consistently. over the course of several weeks, my wife swears it relieved all inflammation and pain she had in her foot which had been bothering her for a long time. of course, the more raw and organic the ingredients the better. if you are into tea, also try getting your own herbs and one of those stainless steel tea thingys to steep your tea. get chamomile, peppermint, lemon balm, lavender, and valerian root. once you start making your own tea, for healing purposes, you will never go back to store bought tea again. in my opinion too, it is ideal to get off processed sugar, bread, and packaged foods and go raw. you will then allow your body to heal itself…along with the meditation thing too. this is the stuff “they” don’t want you to know about. we can be our own shaman.

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    1. I love your response to my post and I relate on all levels. How wonderful for you to found such treasures on your journey of self healing.
      I have been battling my RA for 16 years now and have gone largely untreated by big Pharma. I don’t believe in slapping a bandaid on the symptoms, but I am all about treating the root cause on a holistic level. So far I have been able to send my rheumatoid arthritis into remission three times already. From time to time life happens and added stress is definitely not a friend of ours.
      I have incorporated major lifestyle changes reducing these moments and living a more balanced life. I quit my hectic retail management job and sat out on my own healing journey. I have made potions and creams, all natural and they have aided me a great deal. It’s work on progress to eliminate toxins and inflammation, as well as to heal my gut which I think is key to my road of recovery and healing. You have inspired me to pursue the next level and work on my consistency some more. I do ginger with honey as well but can do much better when it comes to committing doing it every day. Your potion sounds magical and I am so glad it brought so much success and help to your wife.
      Thank you for your invaluable advise and taking the time to comment.
      I usually avoid the doctors at all cost as well. Right now I need to go to Germany, Clear a house of three generations and sell it. I need to be more consistency in my days to be able to tackle this issue. So even if I need a little jump start and swallow the ugly pill, it will be very un-regular, only as absolutely needed, and very temporary. This is not my road to healing and you are absolutely right. There is no money to be made in educated people and self help. I have been my own shaman and being a Reiki Master has helped with the meditation and finding a place of zen. 😉


      1. Strangely i just came across in reading a study by holistic doctors on oil of cinnamon and oil of ceylon cinnamon bark drops that dramatically reduce inflammation and cut back on flu symptoms from weeks to days, among other things.

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      2. Powerful stuff indeed. I infuse my ginger, honey mixture with Cinnamon and other things. I say a spoonful a day, keeps the doctor away and I haven’t been sick in nearly three years now. Let’s keep it that way, at least when it comes to the flu and Covid. I also work with elderberries and make a king support and immune boosting elixir too. Between the two I’ve been taken care of I feel.


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