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The first chill – seasonally or else?

Fall is definitely in the air and last night and today I’ve felt the first chill. It’s windy today and the breeze feels cold, chilling down to the bone. The sunny, warm days are fleeting and already daylight seems so much shorter. With it comes the return of soups and tea’s, hot comfort food, cuddles wrapped in blankets, a movie, or more creative time indoors. I wish it was a time to go inward for me, a time to relax, regroup and rebuild, but it’s not really and there is an agenda waiting that needs to be tended to. Germany and an empty house is waiting for what’s to come next. I wish it could hold out for just a short time longer, until the end of winter when the chances of selling a house, potentially getting some work done on it is better for everyone, including myself and the RA.

Covid had me procrastinating enough time and the original plan was to return in 2020, but then Covid happened and everything was postponed. Who knew that living with this virus would become our new norm and honestly I don’t think it’s going to change. It’s hanging around, like Cancer, Rheumatoid arthritis, Diabetes, and all other diseases and illnesses. They have become part of our lives just like the flu and I think it’s here to stay.

Last Saturday, I finally did it and got my first vaccination shot for Covid. I have to admit that I am still very undecided and for months now have listened to the pro’s and con’s, the conspiracy theories and concerns, as well as every other opinion. Some things remain questionable, but like with everything else, there are always two sides to everything and one can simply choose from which angle they want to see it, feeding their own truth. I am not surprised that I found myself extremely nervous about it which to me is a sign that perhaps I shouldn’t have done it. I didn’t have peace of mind doing it, so why did I go through with it in the end? For one because I have to travel and go oversees. The pressure is mounting for those still not vaccinated of what you can do, where you are allowed inside and so on. In some ways I felt that I had no choice but to do it finally. What brought me some peace of mind was that most of my family in Germany, including a younger, very wise generation, and very educated friends here which I value and trust, have gotten vaccinated. Could we really be fooled on such a mass level? Maybe, but it brings some comfort knowing that these people did their research and in the end decided that they’ll be better off vaccinated than not. I have also known of people who were vaccinated and still got Covid. It’s not magic shot of prevention, but hopefully will keep you out of the hospital and away from a ventilator.

Needless to say, I was uneasy filling out the paperwork, minutes away form getting my first dose. Going over a list of potential allergic reactions, a potential Epi-pen shot before being administered to the hospital wasn’t all too comforting either but is standard protocol. Hopefully everything will be ok, the man administering the shot said, “this has only happened once before.” Once too many, yikes. Immediately afterwards I had to wander around the store for 15 minutes to make sure I wasn’t feeling any tightness in the chest or light headedness. I distracted myself, telling myself that I’d be ok, basically distracting my mind from feeling any kind of anxiety and manifest some symptoms I don’t want. All went well and the evening was fine too. Given that I have RA, I was told that might experience side effects from the shot such as swollen joints, fatigue and flu like symptoms a little longer than everyone else.

Sunday morning came and I awoke after a somewhat restless night. I was woken several times throughout the night from soreness on my left arm where the shot was administered. It felt as if I had gotten sucker punched and it wasn’t too bad or intolerable, but it was noticeable enough to wake me when I was laying on that side putting pressure on it. I finished my errands and grocery shopping for the week, heading back to the tiny abode to stow everything, put away the laundry and prepare a scrumptious meal for myself and my girlfriend who came to visit me for the first time since the move out of my big house. All was well, despite feeling a little tired which I chalked off to not sleeping well the night before and running around all day, busier than usual. Perhaps it was because missing my nap time, goodness I am getting old. Lol.

As always we had a great time, filled with laughter, shenanigans, no shortage of wine and simply good conversation and company. Cinnamon was a little intense, still protecting her home and Momma, not being used to people, but eventually she chilled out a bit as long as no sudden moves were made. I have some work to do with her for sure and hope it can be sorted down the road, or she calms a bit more with age. After my girlfriend left, I cleaned up and it was about 8PM by the time I got done. I was gonna do some other things but decided to rest a little and not overdo it, given that I just gotten the Covid shot etc. I laid down on the couch and it was chilly enough to cover up. I must have dozed off here and there, but couldn’t get warm. Pretty soon I was literally shivering and I don’t remember the last time feeling like this. I got up to put on my thick bathrobe and eventually the chills subsided and brought my body temperature back to normal. It had to be a side effect to the shot and all was as if nothing happened the next day. The soreness in the arm went away although there was still a feeling of coolness in the air. But then the high is only 61 for today and lows were in the 30’s overnight. So, seasonally or else, remains a mystery but I take it if that’s the worst I have to deal with.


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9 thoughts on “The first chill – seasonally or else?

  1. I’ve only got one question…if the vaccinated and the non vaccinated can carry the virus (which by the daily reports by the government, the vaccinated are also getting ill and spread it like anyone else),…what is the point of this passport to be allowed to do anything? It is still going to be spread by everyone, vaccinated or not, and they’ve even admitted it will be with us just like the flu, every year but instead of just the winter months it will be around all year round. I’m stumped, it’s the biggest contradiction I’ve ever heard of.
    Anyway dear lady, do as ‘you’ feel is right, I think that is what is missing in all this 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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    1. Oh I definitely didn’t do as I felt was right, and I wouldn’t have done it if I didn’t have to travel overseas where more and more difficulties arise for the non vaccinated. Believe me it was the scariest thing to do but I felt that in the end I had no choice.
      I have lost multiple family members to Covid and while the vaccine will not prevent you from being a carrier or even getting sick, I hope it can impact the severity and might keep you out of the hospital.
      It is the biggest controversy and I too can see both sides, both arguments and points. In the end it would have led me to my gut and it has served me well until now. It’s still telling me that if there weren’t underlying reasons, to not do it.
      In the end I take comfort that some valued family members and friends felt the same but decided to get vaccinated after seeing their loved ones perish. For myself: I’d like to hang around a little longer and I have goals yet to achieve. Should it be this awful poison that will wipe me from the planet, then I’m ready, knowing that with everything in my life, I did the best I could. I am at peace in that sense. Now let’s hope that none of this will come to happen. 😩🙏🏼

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      1. Amen dear lady, they are indeed making it very impossible to do anything without it and it leaves everyone stuck between a rock and a hard place. Just do you my friend, it will go as it must 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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  2. I’m happy to read, that you didn’t have more challenges with the vaccination than these, as you wrote about here, dear friend.
    For me it was more like a flue and first shot was painful for days and second shot I didn’t get any kind of pain, so also up to, how good the person was.
    As Mark is writing, the illness will still live among us, but we should be able to avoid getting very sick, if and when we attract it.
    In several countries in Europe, you will need to proof by PCR, that you didn’t bring it to another country, while traveling. This to avoid, as Mark said. Each country has their own rules, so please check these before traveling.
    Wish you all the best ❤

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    1. I’ve been having flu like symptoms as well but I have the luxury to take it easy when I need to. Another reason why I did get vaccinated besides having to travel, is that this will stay with us, like the flu, all year around, every month. It’s not a prevention or magic ticket, but having an underlying illness already, maybe the severity can be impacted.
      Hugs 💙💙💙

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