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The many faces of Pain

Pain and darkness go hand in hand. Despite, that one can fully exist without the other, they are often linked and associated with each other. When one is present, it’s most likely that the other is not too far off.

~Rhapsody Bohème

“Pain is a dark felling,

This post is to raise awareness. It is to acknowledge the many that suffer in silence, whether it is from chronic pain, mental or emotional pain. The ones that are riddled by anxiety and depression, seemingly relying on themselves only because of not knowing where to could turn to. You are not alone and you are being heard. I have been no stranger to the many faces and layers of pain. That’s why I decided to make it bigger and write a book. I feel we need relatable content, stories and experiences shared, not only to motivate and keep each other going but also to spread hope and a feeling of companionship.


It comes with conditions to express,

Rules made before uttering a big cry,

Emotions dealt with others concerns,

Certain drafted ways to hide your deep cracks

And an unusual pause to act normal in front of people!

Feeling depressed deep within,

Pretending to be very casual though,

One eye open, filled with happiness to show the world

And another eye closed, with tears to calm the storm inside

Yet another day loving with thoughts to end life,

Still manages to pass through those times with a fake smile! “

~ Anjana Balasubramanian


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

14 thoughts on “The many faces of Pain

  1. But it has a blessing within it, deep down awaiting its discovery. It always shows us something inside us, sometimes many things in its journey. But most importantly, and especially for the really hard ones, it gives a whole new appreciation of what ‘we’ have done to obtain it. A new way of being because we have opened inside to something never before seen or felt…us…that new piece that has finally been opened to that light of understanding. And gradually we will truly understand its journey and finally see and feel what we have always looked for was the pinnacle of it all…love, our love, the part that we had been missing for what seems like forever. But like all things that we face, we must experience both sides to understand, endure that path that has only one conclusion, and what we will become because of it ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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    1. All of it been a blessing regardless of how painful and uncomfortable it has been. None of the transformation would be possible without and everything would merely pass us like another day at the office. And you are right, we must experience all sides and all layers and learn along the way, each time discovering a new depths to our being and who we truly are. Pain and adversity shaped us and it has shaped me. 🙏🏼💙🦋

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  2. You touch sensitive areas here, dear Rhapsody.
    If you ever need inspiration or have questions to others about these topics, while writing your book, you are more than welcome to contact me in private. Have been there and survived.
    Much love to both of you ❤ Wish that I could give you a hug for real now.

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    1. I would love to hear your story my dear friend and you have always been an inspiration to me without knowing too many details. Whatever you feel comfortable sharing that would help others, I would love to incorporate and share it. Confidential of course. And I can’t wait for that big hug, to receive and give back at the same time. Much love to you. 💙

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