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Welcome the Rain

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A rare occurrence happened here in the desert today. It thundered and rained, for hours, at times downright pouring moisture from the sky. Several times I found myself drawn to the window, to listen to the thunder, to watch the drops falling, and to listen to the sound as they made impact with the roof of this house. My house, my home of 20 years. It probably be the last time that I’d hear this sound within these walls. I paused to take it all in, I wanted to remember the feeling.

I was thinking about how much I love the rain. From the sound, the cleansing metaphor of the landscape and the fragrant smell of wet sagebrush. How much I love to hike in a gentle mist, remembering the feeling of peace and serenity. It wasn’t long until I realized that it was that very feeling I was missing and yearning for. There hasn’t been much peace lately and listening to the rain falling took me back in a way, sorting what’s important, reminding me of who I am. Not that it all could be summed up in a thunderstorm.

It made me think of Germany where rain is in abundance. I remembered my time there and enjoying the mid summer showers that never lasted too long but cleaned the air, washing all the troubles away, even if just for a little while.

Physically, I felt strong today. The barometric pressure broke with the storm moving through and so did my pain levels. I was still fighting the fatigue and my body was still tired, but I didn’t feel super achy which makes all the difference.

On the Homefront, we were on a need to speak basis and a few uglies surfaced last night. “The tongue has no bones yet it is strong enough to break a heart.” And this is exactly what happened last night. It’s amazing how many times this old heart has broken already. You’d think there is nothing left to break, and yet the daggers still get through and hit like a bullseye right in the middle. I know it is because you are fighting your own battles and because you are afraid. And still, it’s not a comfort for me nor a consultation for you. These words linger and they have for years. These words, spoken in anger or fear are impossible to take back. We have reached the point where an apology does no longer suffice.

Here I am, standing at the window, remembering a book titled to welcome the rain. A title meant to remind me to dance in the rain, to jump in the puddles, to embrace the pain. To not mind getting wet and soaked, to let it wash away the tears and worries for awhile. I hope it will rain for quite some time yet.


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

24 thoughts on “Welcome the Rain

  1. I’ll swap you your jump in a warm rain and puddle for my 5C with a wind chill factor of at least 0C 😂 🤣
    And yes, it does tug away at our hearts…but those anchors must come free to hold something more precious, and make room for a love much more profound…yours ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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  2. There is something quite entrancing about watching an extreme thunderstorm, isn’t there? Watching Mother Nature at work with all our wonderings and realizations. Really loved this post!
    There is something about the rain that can speak to the heart. I love this quote and for me it explains a lot about people and relationships too – “Some people feel the rain, while others just get wet”. Life is different if you are in a relationship with someone who doesn’t “feel” the rain.

    Your words about “These words, spoken in anger or fear are impossible to take back.” ring so true. They remind me of the quote about words once spoken – ““Words spoken can never be taken back. It’s like ringing a bell. Once it’s rung the damage is done”

    Hope you have a better day today and in days ahead, My Dear!

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  3. Thank you so much for this wonderful post, My Dear! It seems your words left me a seed of inspiration that has bloomed into a blossom of a poem. I shall be forever indebted to you for your Sweet Gift! If you have an interest in reading it let me know –

    I hope this makes your day a little brighter and happier! 😁😊🎁

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    1. My dear friend. Of course I’d love to read it whether I was the inspiration or not. I am honored and touched as always from your kindness and thoughtfulness. Life is very hectic right now and I don’t have much time to email back and forth, nor to keep up with this blog the way I would want to, but I will definitely send you an email for you to share at your convenience. Thank you so much and you do, always make my days brighter. Xo 😘💙😉🦋

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