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Full Moon energy

For some reason, at first unknown to me, I am still working with the energy of the full Snow moon from the 27th of February. By now it is clear that it was needed to bring what has been lying under deep deep covers, stored away for such a long time, as I was slowly becoming aware.

Being a moon child my connection to the moon has always been very important but it seems, the energy of this one was at an entirely new level. One that took me deep, encouraging me to face a few skeletons and bring these levels to surface. Something had shifted, a feeling that I was ready to begin peeling back the layers accumulated over decades of ancestral trauma. Wounds were calling to be acknowledged, understood, perhaps healed since a long time.

Leading up to the full moon things became increasingly more emotional for me. As if my glass was full to the brim, nearly flowing over, unable to take the slightest disturbance. It would surely push me over, I just didn’t knew in which way.

I was working in my kitchen the day before the full moon and actually felt great about everything I had accomplished. New Elderberry syrup was cooking on the stove, I processed my homemade Fire cider that had been fermenting for the past three month, made “Doggy Doo Shampoo” for Cinnamon, a Rosemary smudge stick (my favorite) wrapped in tulip blooms, which all took a few hours to do. Not sooner was I done and sat down, I felt tired and drained. Besides the accomplishments, a strange sadness crept in and engulfed me like a big dark cloud. A sadness that felt painful and isolated. All I could do is sit, hand on my heart, playing a video game in a fog like state of mind, observing a mindless wasting of time without caring much. I actually don’t know how much time passed sitting like this. I was drained emotionally, unable to think and worry, my mind had checked out, leaving me sit there, just being. I couldn’t explain what exactly brought me to this point and I chucked it up to the stress in my life, the uncertainties, the worries, the things that need attention, the void and what’s missing, the emptiness and what’s still waiting and needs my attention. It’s a lot, it truly is, but one step at a time, right!

The next day while on a hike with the Cinnamon girl the same happened. During a break and her chewing up a branch, the sadness returned and there I was, in a beautiful place, overwhelmed by whatever brought this on, crying silently, inward, without disturbing anyone or letting them help or console me. “You and your feelings”, “pull yourself together”, “what’s wrong with you”, voices of the past commanded me until eventually the moment passed.

Later at home I researched the full moon energy and came across an article from Mia Steiber. She explains that this full moon can ring alarm bells and that emotional souls out there can tend to feel overwhelmed by Virgo’s notoriously critical nature. Water signs such as myself (Cancer) may feel more delicate during this time and I think this definitely applied to me.

Further she claims that tensions will run high and that the undercurrents since the last new moon will come to the surface. As such, it’s important to be in charge of the energy you chose to invite during this time. I didn’t feel in charge of my energy at all and what I wanted to invite, but I knew that “this@ wasn’t it. It was time to dig deeper and get to the bottom of it, utilizing the moon energy that rules our inner self. I went inward the night of the full moon to find, meet, and hopefully heal an inner child that had left me emotionally so broken. An inner child that needed to be acknowledged and re-integrated with myself. I’ve been working with this energy ever since and great progress has been made I think. I have learned a great deal and I hope to share this experience with you shortly.

To be continued…

Author:

We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

28 thoughts on “Full Moon energy

  1. So interesting. This past full moon has been pretty eye opening for me as well – as a Taurus sun. After a tarot reading, I got the message that I need to work on my disappointment in myself. Boy is that a tough one. Hope you find balance.

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    1. Oh wow, I see your journey and it is a tough one. Being disappointed in yourself stems from a wound (hurtful experience) deep within yourself. It could be reincarnated, unfinished business from a prior life, or a life experience of which the energy has not been resolved. Sometimes it’s also a matter of expecting too much of ourselves, being too hard on ourselves and not setting realistic goals. I too hope that you find balance and sort it out for yourself. This full moon energy brought much to the forefront for me to work through and I believe it was meant to be. Best wishes and much love to you.

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  2. You have my full sympathy, empathy and any other ‘athy’ I can find dear lady. Being a Cancer with a Cancer rising I do feel you and the big dippers that ask us to clear our inner cupboards out occasionally. Mind you, I think my inner attic also has just gathered a little too much dust…bats…the odd dead rat…and just maybe a vagrant thought or two that belonged to a by gone era. Maybe its just a hint for a Spring clean dear lady…for you anyway…my season is now cooling and closing down, I better not put it off any longer or who knows what will be in there come my Spring clean again 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋 😂 🤣

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    1. Thank you Mark. I know you understand, especially being a fellow Cancer as well.
      I feel like you felt when spirit took you close to the edge and I feel that everything had to happen this way to bring up energy that required spring cleaning. I have come across trapped emotions that lies there, still, occasionally triggered for decades and ancestral trauma is a big part of it, which I’m working to heal now. 💙🦋🙏🏼

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  3. Dear RhapsodyBoheme,

    I am impressed by your enthusiasm and connection with the Full Moon’s primal energy.

    Given your interest and enthusiasm, I shall resonate with your full-moon-loving spirit with my attempt to bring the full moon alive, so to speak!

    You are hereby cordially invited to participate in my latest mixed-media offering in the form of Music Animation with Dynamic Visualization presented in high definition and imbued with a scintillating full moon surrounded by eye-catching astronomical phenomena and stellar activities! 🌕✨☄️✨

    The new post also contains my rhyming poem (or serenade) entitled If My Name Were Moon Tonight….

    Please enjoy to your heart’s content “If My Name Were Moon Tonight…” and Music Animation with Dynamic Visualization on the big high-resolution screen of your desktop or laptop computer. Switch the video playback to full-screen mode. The animation starts calmly and will gradually climax. There is also the opportunity to savour SoundEagle🦅’s rendition of “Clair de Lune” on the organ.

    This special post is entitled “🎴 If My Name Were Moon Tonight… 🌛🌝🎑🈷 with Clair de Lune 🌕”.

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