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The light within

Picture taken in Mittenwald, Germany. It’s called the looking glass, resembling a giant telescope and a window front that is overhanging the cliff of a mountain. It felt a bit eerie standing at the edge but it was beautiful to admire the surrounding mountain range. A unique experience, a one of a kind.

I am on verge of getting sidetracked here, turning this post into a different topic all together. Having written the description of the picture, I am taken back to that day and emotions flood through me. I was in Germany at that time (obviously), taken care of Mom during my ten month stay. It was my birthday and a surprise trip to the mountains was planned for me to give me a little space, a change of scenery, an opportunity to collect my strengths.

Looking at this picture now, I’m reminded of how often we stand on the edge. How I was standing on the edge during that time. Mentally and physically. At times on the brink of an amazing breakthrough, something, a total different life all together, or dangling, in danger, threatening to lose our grip, simply hanging by a thread. It’s not always that we get a view this grandiose as I was stepping into this giant looking glass, and the scenery can be breathtaking in more than one way. Even if it’s in a choking manner:

But I am also reminded about the phrase that describes the light at the end of the tunnel. Have you heard it before? To give someone hope it is often used in a sense of saying that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Or to encourage, to give the impression that the darkness is subsiding and that the worst is behind. If we put into perspective that there is light at the end of the tunnel, it feels motivational to keep going. To let us know that we are nearly there and that what we are searching for lies at that end of the tunnel.

I used to believe in this phrase myself, most likely used it before and applied it not only to myself but also to others. My views have changed over time, in the search for such said light. Do we truly have aspire towards the light in darkness. To search for it and use it like a magnet to pull us out of whatever hardship we experience? What about if “We” brought the light to the table? It “We” remembered that the light is already within us, that everything we need is within us and that everything that we seek is also seeking us?

I know it’s easier said than done, and the darkness strips away our confidence, our belief in ourselves, even our momentum. And yet it is the truth and we are beings of light that can illuminate the darkness, around us and within us.


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

18 thoughts on “The light within

  1. Well said dear lady. We are that light indeed, we just cover it in places so that we can look a little harder to find and understand it, and be free in doing that. It doesn’t matter what steps we take, they all lead home to that light ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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  2. As one who had lost the light within for too many years, and now is rediscovering a new light engaging in it and selectively sharing it with like minded souls, and others who may not be enfolded into my full embrace but who I share with and wish their own lights to begin to shine again. I am reminded as I came out of my great darkness and deep black place of depression, and discovered colour in the world again To have a light within burning is something I never want to dim again.

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    1. This is beautifully spoken Tazzie and I relate so much to your words. I have seen the darkness too and it was a scary, lonely place, in which I was afraid of myself and what I might end up doing. I mean to myself, being suicidal, trying to hold on to the light but seeing only darkness and hopelessness. Here is to us, having emerged from this awful place, here to share our light to illuminate the path for others. Hugs

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