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Coming out of the darkness

The calendar marked the 23rd of January and finally, finally, finally, I was coming out of the darkness. The pain eased up which is a big deal for us suffering from a chronic disease. I must say that when this moment comes, it means everything and is a game changer. By now, I had seen these cycles come and go and been through so many flare ups and remissions that I felt like an expert knowing how it was affecting the quality of my life.

Not too long ago, all within that week, I felt whiny, emotional, vulnerable, breaking down, even crying. The tension was unbearable and it’s hard to imagine what you go through during these times unless you have experienced it yourself. Even just sitting and not moving is uncomfortable as the tension never eases up. Limbs tingle, muscles ache and your range of motion is a fraction from what it is on a good day. Putting your hair in a pony tail can leave you in tears, part because of the pain it causes and the reminder that a simple task as such becomes a challenge and huge undertaking.

January 23rd finally brought a breakthrough. Not one that would miraculously wipe away all the pain, (although that’s possible as well), but one that made the hurt more manageable again. It is during those times that you gather your strengths and motivation. When you get totally Gung Ho to impact your life, because if you can help it in any way, you are not going back to that pit of pain for a long, long time.

Coming out of the darkness is one of the most profound feelings. It feels like you have been bestowed an awesome gift, the gift of getting your life quality back. Without it, your day is reduced to struggles, and pain management that can easily turn into depression and fear. January 23rd marked a turning point for me, a new chance, a little window of opportunity, and it came with not a minute to spare.

All of a sudden there was a pep in my step, “Hello my old friend” it’s nice to have you back. There was motivation and the desire for creation. I ended up making Ginger Syrup to stock up on my inventory and use up the fresh ginger I still had. You can find some of the benefits and healing properties of my homemade syrup here.

I also worked on some new merchandise for my Etsy shop at Youniqua which I will share with you in another post. By the way, it’s also there that you can order your very own homemade syrup by me. 🤗 Thank you in advance for looking.

It was a good day and a fresh start at trying again. Of realizing were changes could be made, of building on the blocks in place already, putting on another story of the shook foundation, and move forward once more. And I knew I had special people in my corner cheering me on, sending me healing, saying prayers for me and simply being there to catch me when I started to tumble.

January 23rd was a day of many emotions. Also a day my aunt and uncle who passed from Covid were laid to rest in Germany. It was a day of clarifying intents and relations and reconnecting with a dear soul very special to me. January 23rd had a little of everything but will definitely be a day to be remembered. And from here on out, I can only go up and tickle the sky once more.


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

11 thoughts on “Coming out of the darkness

    1. I know what you mean and I actually have a post scheduled about seeing the light at the ends of the tunnel. I too, used to say it all the time until recently. It was when I learned that we are the light and carry everything we need within us already my dear friend. 😊🤗💙🙏🏼

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      1. Ah, understood. I hope the chronic pain abates for you. You are always welcome, it is my pleasure. Awe, thank you. I too appreciate you. Love and light to you, my friend.🙏❤️

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  1. I’m very happy to read, that you are feeling better again, dear Rhapsody.
    I came to think, that I forgot to ask you, if you remember to intake both vitamins and minerals in natural formula? I use a liquid from Salus and it has helped me a lot to become energized, so I’m able to do the necessary exercises daily to keep the body better working.
    I visited your Etsy Shop and wow, you have got a lot of new and different things there 😀
    Send you healing thoughts and wish you all the best.
    Much love and huge hugs for you ❤

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    1. Awe thank you so much Irene. I indeed lacked on the vitamin intake and I’m back on track and hope it helps with the inflammation. Which will in return reduce pain levels. Is m so glad you found something that works so well for you. What a difference isn’t it?
      Thank you sooo much for stopping by at my Etsy store and your kind words. It means a lot.
      Love light and many hugs to you 💙


  2. Love and light for your journey dear lady, it has been a ‘rough’ patch for some time and indeed it takes a while to reach out and ask our hearts to break through its darkness. Glad to hear you have done just that, may it be a loving, heart sharing time for you with lots of blue sky 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋 😂 🤣

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    1. Yes ever since the weather started turning and the barometric pressure has a lot to do with it. Always harder in the winter months and hope my February self care month will get me back on top again. 💙🤗🙏🏼🦋

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