January, a tough start to 2021 for me, with several health challenges. Surely had I identified some of my short comings just recently, but despite of it things only took a turn for the worse. Chronic pain became a constant, a daily companion and quickly it naw’ed away at me, leaving me feeling whiny and complaining for the majority of my days. Nights felt long with interrupted and little sleep and just turning from one side to the other caused pain. In prior times pain may have been noticeable in the hands and wrists, other times in the knees, the feet, the upper back, neck and shoulders which seem to be attacked quite frequently. Now it appeared that all areas where attacked all at once, and a few new ones made themselves known. One of them was the balls/bottom of my feet. Luckily only the right one and not both at the same time.
I had felt discomfort here and there but brushed it off to perhaps hiking too far or the weather. Surely my feet would recover after a nice hot shower and for the most part they did until the pain increased. It was always in the same spot and wouldn’t go away anymore. It was difficult to take steps and soon I adjusted my gait, walking with somewhat of a limp as to not put too much pressure onto the foot. And then I got tired of it all together and started to research what was goin go on. What I found is a condition that is called Metatarsalgia.
It’s a painful condition that affects the ball of the foot. The metatarsals are bones that connect the toes to the ankles. In the foot, there are small toe nerves between the metatarsal bones. When the head of the metatarsal bones presses against another, the small nerve is caught between them and starts to become inflamed. Putting weight on the foot can worsen symptoms, because with each step these bones rub together, increasing the inflammation of the nerve.
While there are several causes for this to happen, mine comes courtesy of my rheumatoid arthritis. Needless to say I’ve had to reduce my steps per week, ice my foot to reduce the swelling and do the best I can. Inactivity swells my feet which seems like a vicious circle and I hope nothing worse comes as a result from this.
At the moment the right foot is shot. There is an unbearable amount of tension and tightness in my shoulders, neck and upper back that bring with a headache out of this world. The hands are swollen and the fingers, especially the index fingers don’t bend that well right now. I’m a bit of a broken mess right now and I am restarting my kundalini yoga routine. Why did that fall to the wayside I ask myself. Strange how we forget these things when we feel well and how easily they fall to the wayside. Shouldn’t we instead recognize the great benefits we get from these modalities and maintain them, making them the utmost priority because they make us feel so good. What strange creatures we are at times, so here we go again and I hope to get the relief o find before.
January you are definitely kicking my butt this month, but you have to be this tough to put it into perspective for me. So with it I embrace the pain and learn the lesson for a smoother February ahead.