If you’re an empath, and just so happen to be an introvert on top of it, you will often find yourself carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. From time to time it just catches up with us, and we yearn for a break from all the times we had to be so strong.
I keep talking about what a huge transition year 2020 has been for me and it’s not over yet, and will cross into 2021. Eagerly I take each step, already looking forward to the next in anticipation of where it will take me on this journey called life. By now I have completely surrendered to being guided, and the only time I interfere is when things don’t feel right and are threatening my authentic self.
More and more it becomes obvious what I’m working towards and the rewards of such make every struggle worthwhile. I don’t complain and I recognize them as an essential step in the journey. I am picky these days, picky with how I allocate my time, who I spend it with and on what. It all has to allow time working towards a better future, while nourishing my soul, to stay healthy and as balanced as possible. When I say balanced I mean to support my health, since I fight a chronic autoimmune disease. It has taught me to look after myself more and putting myself first, I’m still a learner when it comes to that process but I’m doing it.
My plate is full with no boredom by my side, but I am not too busy that I forget to breathe deeply and take time. I have made it a priority and it is important for my mental and physical well being. As an introvert I need time in Mother Nature or time to myself to recharge. Gifting myself such moments is sheer bliss, but seldom understood by others. I come across as too busy and perhaps it must be boring to just sit there and gaze at the sky, to listen to the birds, marvel at the full moon, watch an animal nearby, smell the flowers, or daydream while letting my soul absorb the sweet nectar of such a precious gift. One persons boredom is my heaven and a time I need and commit to. Another is this blog, and a few more.
I have come to terms with so much over the course of this year. I am constantly adding more peace to what’s already within my heart. The struggle lessens more and more although some days still pack a heavy punch. Numbers appear as signs from the universe and especially today, the messages are so obvious and in plain sight. Three different number sequences appeared today with 777 being the last one.
“Don’t chase, don’t beg, don’t stress, don’t be desperate, just relax. When you relax it will come to you. Make your wants, want you.”
I am at peace and I am a warrior of the light. I am that person who breaks the cycle.
Where I was judged, I choose understanding.
Where I was rejected, I choose acceptance.
Where I was shamed, I choose compassion.
I am that person I needed when I was hurting, when I was growing up. I am not the person who hurt me.
I vow to be better than what broke me, to heal instead of becoming bitter. To act from my heart, and not my place of pain, no matter how many times it might be perceived as a weakness or foolish. My heart will not harden and it is not up to me to judge and punish those who take advantage of me, for they will have to answer in their own due time and my prayers continue to be with those. For they do not know what they are doing.
I am a warrior, the person that breaks the cycle and like a dear Sister always says “The revolution begins with me.” Come join us and see. But either way, please make sure to stop by her blog and say hello. You won’t be disappointed and she is simply amazing.