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Breaking the cycle

If you’re an empath, and just so happen to be an introvert on top of it, you will often find yourself carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. From time to time it just catches up with us, and we yearn for a break from all the times we had to be so strong.

I keep talking about what a huge transition year 2020 has been for me and it’s not over yet, and will cross into 2021. Eagerly I take each step, already looking forward to the next in anticipation of where it will take me on this journey called life. By now I have completely surrendered to being guided, and the only time I interfere is when things don’t feel right and are threatening my authentic self.

More and more it becomes obvious what I’m working towards and the rewards of such make every struggle worthwhile. I don’t complain and I recognize them as an essential step in the journey. I am picky these days, picky with how I allocate my time, who I spend it with and on what. It all has to allow time working towards a better future, while nourishing my soul, to stay healthy and as balanced as possible. When I say balanced I mean to support my health, since I fight a chronic autoimmune disease. It has taught me to look after myself more and putting myself first, I’m still a learner when it comes to that process but I’m doing it.

My plate is full with no boredom by my side, but I am not too busy that I forget to breathe deeply and take time. I have made it a priority and it is important for my mental and physical well being. As an introvert I need time in Mother Nature or time to myself to recharge. Gifting myself such moments is sheer bliss, but seldom understood by others. I come across as too busy and perhaps it must be boring to just sit there and gaze at the sky, to listen to the birds, marvel at the full moon, watch an animal nearby, smell the flowers, or daydream while letting my soul absorb the sweet nectar of such a precious gift. One persons boredom is my heaven and a time I need and commit to. Another is this blog, and a few more.

I have come to terms with so much over the course of this year. I am constantly adding more peace to what’s already within my heart. The struggle lessens more and more although some days still pack a heavy punch. Numbers appear as signs from the universe and especially today, the messages are so obvious and in plain sight. Three different number sequences appeared today with 777 being the last one.

“Don’t chase, don’t beg, don’t stress, don’t be desperate, just relax. When you relax it will come to you. Make your wants, want you.”

I am at peace and I am a warrior of the light. I am that person who breaks the cycle.

Where I was judged, I choose understanding.

Where I was rejected, I choose acceptance.

Where I was shamed, I choose compassion.

I am that person I needed when I was hurting, when I was growing up. I am not the person who hurt me.

I vow to be better than what broke me, to heal instead of becoming bitter. To act from my heart, and not my place of pain, no matter how many times it might be perceived as a weakness or foolish. My heart will not harden and it is not up to me to judge and punish those who take advantage of me, for they will have to answer in their own due time and my prayers continue to be with those. For they do not know what they are doing.

I am a warrior, the person that breaks the cycle and like a dear Sister always says “The revolution begins with me.” Come join us and see. But either way, please make sure to stop by her blog and say hello. You won’t be disappointed and she is simply amazing.

Author:

Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

31 thoughts on “Breaking the cycle

    1. Awe, you made my day and I so appreciate your words in this comment. You are right and the I AM’s have taken on a total different meaning. Where they could have been interpreted as selfish egoistic, they now shout it from the rooftops with conviction and motivation.
      Big love to you and have a beautiful day. Xo

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  1. Oh my dear sister!!!! WOW!!! It was like reading my own journal entry moving through your words, only more eloquently written as I love your style and flow. Nearing 2/3 through the tears started to fall, and reaching the end they were turned on high. Lol. Where’s the tissue? Beautiful!! We truly do hold a soul connection! And, I like you, anticipate EVERY MOMENT out in front of me, for I have no doubt they will be the richest and most bliss filled moments of my life.
    I think since we chose to live a life true to ourselves, true to our warrior nature, we experienced more pain, but also experience the sweet nectar of life in a more complete bouquet.
    I love that connecting with you has encouraged, validated, and challenged me to grow even more fully. I know this is only the beginning of getting to know my long lost sister I never knew I had. God is so good!!! And you are so beautiful. Your spirit shines like the beauty in your eyes. Only keep making it brighter!! Miss Cinnamon there to help you do just that!!
    Much love sister. God bless you in every way. And thank you for the kind words, they touched deep into the center of my heart.

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  2. My plate is full with no boredom by my side, but I am not too busy that I forget to breathe deeply and take time – you gave such perfect words, your words became my words, my heart dancing the joyful dance of resonance. I feel my life is so full, not enough time yet there are plenty of times that I am simply not engaging in anything ‘productive.’ I need so much space and time to digest and just be with how life is flowing. I am really touched by what you said about being that person who I needed when I was hurting. Yes how I wish I knew it was all going to be ok, and I am all I needed. Too many people thought I was naïve for not being angry at those who were unfair to me but I am more committed to my well being. For all on their own journey, only hurt people hurt other people. Awesome post dear beautiful heart friend.

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    1. I am glad you found something helpful and inspirational between the lines my dear friend.
      I think it always comes down to prioritizing and putting first what has meaning to us. And realizing self value and card being important. Taking good care of yourself and finding a balance so you can continue to do so in the future.
      And welcome home, following your own drumbeat, putting what everybody else believes on the back burner. Recognizing the personal hell someone goes through when they lash out to hurt others is a vital key in bei my able to forgive and show compassion for those who hurt us. Maybe they don’t always deserve our forgiveness, but we deserve our freedom. Hugs 🤗

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