Posted in Awakening, Books, Self help


Many of us try so hard to find our way, to learn about our purpose and to find a sense of belonging. Sometimes we spend a lifetime trying to figure it out, and while changes are always at work, we are often unaware of them and unawakened. Many go go through life trying to learn whatever lessons are in store, and throughout the process develop a self defense mechanism. It’s a means of protection, one that’s suppose to shield us from pain, one that lashes out from time to time and here and there rear’s it ugly head, ultimately holding us a prisoner.

It is said that our soul already knows the way and that we have everything we need within us. I’ve heard this saying a long time ago and was reminded of it just recently. In a different time and a different place, it would come to me with a new understanding and meaning.

I remembered it while being still and engaging in an old hobby. Reading. The first book that came to me after a long break of not reading, was called the Untethered Soul and it was the one that really put things into perspective for me. It helped me understand the reactions of others and my own. It allowed me to find compassion in the harfest to find places and forgive even when it seemed impossible to forgive. But it was the second book and reading about Soul Contract that made me remember this saying.

Both books (self help books) came with a bit of hindsight and with the realization that I was putting in the work already. Subconsciously I was already plugging away as if I knew exactly what needed to be done. My soul was already hard at work, guiding me and the books merely shed light onto what was going on. It was the books that brought the realization, the explanations, the understanding. There was no doubt that all Shadow work, had led me to my work with my soul contracts. It was during the last chapter of the book, in how to release the energy of the soul contracts that I nodded and became aware of that this is what must have been happening already.

MacKinnon mentions that during the process of releasing this dark, heavy energy many of her clients have unintentionally lost weight or became more physically active and healthy. They intuitively felt a desire to get up, get moving, and create a physical release, such as playing a sport or starting to exercise. One client started their own business while another quit smoking. One got a drastic haircut, or made other sweeping changes. Was this where my motivation cane from and what had ignited the fire within.


Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

9 thoughts on “Guided

  1. Thankfully our higher selves are gently…ok maybe not so gently sometimes, nudging us along our path with a synchronicity or two thrown in to keep us on our toes 😂
    But beautifully we are growing inside as we face all those things you mention dear lady, to eventually be set free and live and love from a heart reborn 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏼 🦋

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  2. A friend shared this quote with me tonight. ‘We accept the love we think we deserve.’ I so get this. I hope I can open up and grow. I’ve met so many dear good friends this summer and I have to leave them. I’m angry at mom and my sister and I’m not looking forward to being back in OR. But, I need to be. So, I’m going to splurge and get some expensive new shoes, if they fit properly!!!

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    1. I get it too and I think it’s true. In my eyes you deserve so much and I hope that some day soon you can look back at the last couple of years, be good to yourself and know deeply that you did amazing. I have a saying for you as well.
      Be proud of how you’ve been handling these past months/years. The silent battles you fought, the moments you had to check yourself, the only person you had on your corner wiping your tears and telling you to keep going. Acknowledge your strength. Despite everything, you still grow. ❤️
      Btw. Thank you so much for the card and your address. You made my day and you know how much I love old fashioned mail.
      I hope you got the 👠

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      1. Rhapsody. You are one of my heroes. These words of yours were on my wall while caring for mom. I brought them back with me. ‘Around you, all who love you. Within you, all you need.’

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      2. You touch my heart in so many ways my dear sister, you have no idea. This means the world to me and you are beyond special to me. Thank you for being the amazing person you are.
        I remember similar times and you always being a couple of steps ahead of me. We faced so many similar times with our Mom’s. I will never forget you always being there and it helped me to go on 🙏🏼💙

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      3. We helped each other from across the worlds. I had someone tell me it wasn’t right to have online friends who were stronger than ones nearby. Piffle!!! Those people from WP I met over my journey have become some of the best people in my entire life!

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      4. I would agree and such a statement can only be made because of lack of their own experience and a hefty dose of jealousy. Pfft. I agree with you and some of the people I’ve met here are actually mich closer than the ones that live near by. Also family is not always blood.

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