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Lighter yet…

Two more huge bags are donated, and it’s a wonder there is still something left in my closet. It feels good to get rid of the pieces just sitting there, taking up space, although space was never an issue. I’m noticing that I have become quite addicted to getting rid of stuff. Most pieces were in perfect condition, but also had a slim chance of being worn again. Why hold on to them, right? That’s what I said, (finally) and good thing they are gone now. God knows I have held on to them for far too long. I have started making a mental check list about the contents of my house, and it’s truly crazy how little remains that I want to keep going forward. It’s a good thing I guess.

Life is becoming clearer and clearer these days, and I couldn’t imagine how important this little mission turn out to be. What started with decluttering, lightening the load, the goal of pursuing a minimalist lifestyle, and getting rid of stuff weighing me down, was actually a carefully crafted master plan that was unfolding right before my eyes. A plan I hadn’t always been aware of, and a plan that was long in the making before I even realized it. The universe sure played a sneaky director on this one, and had a plan all along. I’m on to you though and I’m catching on. Perhaps coming across a converted school bus video was the root of all this transitioning and what truly started the dream. At least part of it.

It’s been a few years coming, and it lit a fire within. Fueled by a passion and the pursuit of freedom and ultimately a simpler lifestyle. I’ve started making changes almost immediately but there have been many snags along the way. Life just had a way of happening, and the more I resisted and didn’t go w it j the flow of it, the harder I made it for myself. A good thing can’t be rushed and usually unfolds on it’s own terms. The faster we learn this, the better off we are.

There were times I was embarrassed to answer questions about what was going on, what was taking so long and what seemed to be the stalling power. Now that I mentally had figured it all out, where was the action behind the words? I felt no one would understand if I said that I was STILL working on stuff, going through and eliminating the material side of things. Heck, at times I didn’t understand myself and got frustrated about this process that stretched out further and further. How long could it take? Perhaps I myself felt that I was procrastinating, although the RA is a real thing and not one I used to make excuses. And still the mind frame often consistent of some strange imagination that I could just snap my fingers and it all be done. Wishful thinking for sure.

In recent weeks, I learned a lot about this process and myself. I never knew how complex everything was until now. Understanding more about the timing of when and how everything needed to orchestrate, to being aligned and ready to part with my life’s work. To consider the physical ups and downs and my health, to the life experiences that were required to push me to this point. There seems to be a lot of such a-ha moments lately and I’m allowing it all to unfold as it’s meant to be.

What was happening was not only getting rid of outgrown things, but in addition I was saying goodbye to a life that once resembled me. The things I had collected and worked for so hard. The stuff that had accumulated in the form of material possessions, but not limited and also including life experiences, wisdom and a mental maturity. For however long this was playing out already, once it was realized, it was almost an instantaneous awareness that much of my life didn’t fit anymore. From the material world, to outdated programs and my beliefs, everything was changing, leaving me feeling like a Butterfly that was in the process of emerging.

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We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

4 thoughts on “Lighter yet…

  1. The journey of self realization is often a long, difficult and slow one. Takes patience and commitment. Letting go of the the things that once filled it is one step. It feels good to get the strength especially in acceptance of doing it. Thank you for sharing

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