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Putting in the “Shadow work”

Lately it’s been all about “shadow work” and not too long ago I didn’t even know what it was and how rewarding of a process it would become. Downright rewarding, it’s a process that once was hidden without a clue, without the realization it even existed. Perhaps I have only scratched the tip of the iceberg and I’m sure more work is waiting. Naturally it always does, isn’t it how things go!

My motivation was to acknowledge the process and be good to myself, to be aware, giving credit for taking that first step, that all important first step. I feel I have come a long ways, and it’s just now becoming obvious what it really took to arrive at this point. I dismissed the constant work that takes place whether we are conscious of it or not, all in utter unawareness. I didn’t fully understand the sea of experiences and lessons life has on our soul, ultimately shaping us and our destiny. I always knew of course but it seems like another layer has peeled away, giving much greater insight.

It’s quite incredible to look back at the pieces throughout the years, and how carefully they had to happen. How they had to unfold for things to turn out the way they did. Everything had it’s place, good and bad. It’s rather mind boggling and a deep sense of gratitude finds me even through the pain of some incidents. As most of the time’s, it required some sort of adversity for it all to happen. I believe that our hardest experiences bear the most valuable lessons. If we can see it as such, as the growth of ourselves and enlightenment, then we are indeed lucky to be given the opportunity to grow. Without it we wouldn’t be who we are and I hope you can feel some sense of pride and accomplishment for who you have grown into.

If everything always went smooth, would we notice something off center, or attempt the hard work of implementing this change? It requires more than mere awareness, and although important it is only the beginning of the hard work that lies ahead. It takes more than just snapping your fingers and make it go away. Working on your shadow self will be challenging and bring you to the brink at times. It might be scary to face the inner demons and it definitely won’t fix overnight. It asks for a willingness to take a honest look. It demands a decision and commitment to take what you found to the next level instead of ticking it away again. It requires dedication to peel back the layers that were put into place over the years, by many painful experiences. It won’t be easy and you need to prepare for resistance and fear. We must remember that our shadow self deals with the darkness within ourselves, the negative, mean, evil and ugly aspects of ourselves.

Ask yourself if you are prepared to accept such a truth. Can you see yourself as less than perfect, but also as a being with faults and weaknesses? What are you prepared to do? Is it important enough to make changes? Can you stay objective and meet yourself with understanding, love and forgiveness. Perhaps you don’t have a choice anymore and you have arrived at a point where doing this work becomes your only salvation.

It was important for me. I arrived at a point that no longer allowed me to send issues back down to hide for centuries to come. It was no longer optional of whether to address them or not. The decision was mine to not go forward in the same fashion, and because of it, shadow work needed to be done. All that was required from me was the willingness to put in the work. An open mind to receive an upgrade to my soul system.

Since starting this honest look I have been able to view it in a new light. I have a new understanding of what a daunting process it can be for many and yet I am surprised of how easy it has become for me to stare my flaws into the face. I can see my own mistakes without the need of wanting to justify them. Explanations and justifications about my character are no longer needed or even important. There is a strange calm, an acceptance, a willingness to go with the flow more than ever. Resistance has faded further as I meet myself and others with understanding, compassion and mostly forgiveness. Digging deep, I am learning the reasons for these behaviors so it can be addressed and released at a healing soul level. I am finding understanding for the hurt and the wounds so deep that added one protective layer after another. I know that I am not a bad person, nor do I see others in that way. I recognize these walls and what they used to serve. I know they were layers of protection and I know that everybody has such walls.

“I myself just happen to like an open living concept much better, and I’m tearing down the very walls that confined me in the past.”

I believe that over the years I have shed much of such pain and I don’t really feel the need for protection anymore. Still, it’s work in progress and there will always be some remnants that remain from time to time which require clearing.

“It is a frightening thought that Man also has a shadow side to him, consisting not just of little weaknesses and foibles, but of a positively demonic dynamism. The individual seldom knows anything of this; to him, as an individual, it is incredible that he should ever in any circumstances go beyond himself. But let these harmless creatures form a mass, and there emerges a raging monster.” -Carl Jung


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

17 thoughts on “Putting in the “Shadow work”

      1. It will come knocking after we all do conditional, we cannot see without it. It’s like trying to fly a kite from a drawing in a book, there is a little understanding needed first…like all of life. But, I think you must be in your first test flights by now 😂 🤣 ❤️ 🙏🏼 🦋

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      2. I think so too 😉. I want to believe that I have shed most expectations and limitations that conditions place on us. I love going with the flow and let things naturally unfold. I’m not one who needs to be in control anymore. We never really were the begin with and just caused undue stress on ourselves. 🦋🙏🏼

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      3. Our lifetime is ingrained with many coping strategies because of our fears dear lady. And when we begin to ‘see’ them and understand them it still takes a long time to re-create us and remove those old ways of being. It is that path of creating instead of reacting and slowly we ‘flow’ in that inner place and are free. Old ‘ego’ might still chatter but our concern for it is let go. We now follow our hearts with much faith and love in who and what we are 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏼 🦋

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    1. You are absolutely right and the only way we can ever be free is of we face our demons and put in the work. Thank you for the follow and for stopping by. I look forward to reading you. ❤️


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