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The ache for home

“The ache for home lives in all of us. The safe place we can go as we are and not be questioned.”

~Maya Angelou

I have lived torn between two countries for most of my life and it’s not easy. You always experience some kind of homesick, and it’s hard to answer where and what you call home. Mom always said “well you wanted it that way”, and it is what she believed since I was the one who left, but I know it’s not true and I couldn’t have imagined how hard one decision would spread over the term of a lifetime.

Home is where the heart is they say, and home can be anywhere, although you never forget where you came from and where your roots run deep. It’s understandable and yet sad to me that the EU has closed its borders to people coming from the US. I’m sure somehow I probably could get in being a German Citizen and having a house there, but it would be under strict guidelines and quarantine I’m sure. All understandable and yet for the first time it feels as if I can’t return to the place of my roots, home. For now at least.

In the end I believe that this quote is all encompassing and home truly is where you are accepted as you are and your heart finds peace. Where you are understood and not questioned. Home is a place where you can be and sometimes if you are lucky, a place where your tribe and likeminded people live. People you have something in common with, people who can value you and where you can contribute.

May we all have such a place, even if it is in more than one home. 🙏🏼

Author:

Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

9 thoughts on “The ache for home

  1. I used to live out in the Australian bush. Grew up there in fact. And the only place I ever felt that peace was when I was out in it. Nature all around, the energy was one of acceptance. It never asked anything of me but to be myself…so I opened to it and always connected, to such a degree that most animals and birds accepted me and would allow me to get quite close.
    Mind you, the occasional ‘splat’ was a bit close but hey, they were just being themselves too. Maybe that’s their way of saying I was special too 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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    1. Besides the occasional splat, you described the feeling wonderfully and it truly is what it’s all about. And I’m sure it was there way of telling you how special you are. Mom always said that if an animal splats in you it is suppose to bring good luck. So consider yourself fortunate they picked you to bestow such honor upon. 😉❤️

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      1. Hear, hear!!! Then they must have accepted all of me to bestow such an honor. And the luck was in being able to find that inner truth, the love and happiness we always seek 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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  2. I also live in two countries and visit other places but I feel I could call Berlin home. Regardless of where I am, after two weeks of being there, am longing to come back to the countryside of Berlin. Am so glad I was home before the shutdown. I wonder how it would have been if I wasn’t in Berlin…. I haven’t thought about this. Awwww, thank you for sharing.

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