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Quarantine – Day…. – I lost track

I hope everyone is hanging in there during these challenging times that are everything but easy. From fear to all the wide spread range of topics that affect us with the recent outbreak of this pandemic, many have lost their jobs, including health insurance and benefits. People are left without knowing how to continue to pay their mortgages and other bills. Others go stir crazy sitting at home, feeling locked up and isolated. Watching the news has gone to a whole new level of self torture and feeding that fear that keeps people suppressed and under control. Wanna experience what true horror feels like in a game of giving the unknown, and the loss of control the upper hand….just turn on the TV and you got it for 24hrs.

Strangely for me, it seems like I have been more active, taking more walks outside, getting exercise and fresh air since the pandemic has started. I can’t say that this is the sole reason for it, although I have been known to go against the grain and be a bit rebellious, but this is not the time for it and merely lines up with my quest for a healthier life I have started in January. I have lost ten pounds so far, by eating and moving more, and I am dedicated to continue this journey. It does feel like walking through a ghost town at times, like you are one of the few survivors. More than once I had the feeling that the walking dead will come around the corner to limp after me. The few people in cars that ventured out to get essentials, drive past with scared faces and frightened eyes in a sea of parked cars, and driveways full with the remainder of the population being at home in self quarantine. In my neighborhood there seems to be a silent agreement and understanding in place, and should you encounter someone along the way, they quickly change street sides to stay away as far as possible from you. Nobody wants to take a chance and it’s better to avoid any possibility which feels like a mutual favor. In a way it feels like this has been the most consideration for each other displayed in a long time, but it could also be a heightened self preservation with little regards to the next person. Take your pick, I have felt both ways during such encounter. My walks have been eerie and beautiful at the same time.

While the air seems fresher, and the skies have cleared from pollution, I have to say that on several occasions I felt as if seeing the world for the very first time. There is a stillness, a peace, a silent healing, that resonates and connects me deeply to Mother Earth. The positive effects this had on Mother Nature is undeniable, and I truly hope that a few things can change when this is all over to keep a better balance between humanity and the planet we inhabit. I do believe that this was necessary to invoke such changes, and it sad that it had to come to this. In a way it reminds of life itself and all the lessons we can only learn the hard way. If it’s not shaking us to the core, would we ever learn anything? No, I think not, and it has to hurt to get our attention, to change our ways. I hope that we as humanity can listen and understand this message that affects us all. I hope that we can impact what we can and change what is within our power for better balance and co existence.

Author:

Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

2 thoughts on “Quarantine – Day…. – I lost track

  1. It is most certainly a shift Rhapsody, it will forever leave a mark that tells us we want change from what we were.
    Where before we didn’t want to change…but this…it shows us our vulnerability. And the simple fact that we can ‘now’ see the smog is gone, can hear birds calling and even the noise level is so ‘natural’.
    I don’t think the governments around the world understand what has now been unleashed. Not a virus but a much stronger care and love to heal these things that we have lived in for so long.
    And we will vote accordingly…are they listening 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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