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A storm is brewing

Snow is on the horizon for the next 4 days and a storm is brewing. It matches the inside of me as a storm arrived Friday the 13th. Do I believe in Friday the 13th, not necessarily, but I bet someone else will. It’s a storm caused through none of my wrong doing and yet it at affects me and I have a feeling it will be life changing. I could feel a lot of anger right now, but I’m strangely calm. Maybe I’m in shock, we will see over the next days. Maybe it is that I remember the saying about anger as a wise man was asked what anger is.

He gave a beautiful answer, saying “it is punishment we give ourselves, for somebody else’s mistake.”

And I didn’t make a mistake, so I will trust that the universe is just nudging me to get on with it and change my stars.

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Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

15 thoughts on “A storm is brewing

  1. I am wondering if this is the first time you have felt like this since Your mothers dying? I know that for most people after the death of a close and loved, and sometimes (not so close or loved) person. I may be totally of base here. It is often a part of how the person moves through their grief. It is not a always a part of grief but is often enough.
    May the storm bring positives and clarity. Keep warm and safe hugs

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    1. I don’t know Tazzie. This incident was not related to my mother’s passing and it was something else. A relationship and tie that needs to be ended and moved on from. It’s something that brings my vibrations down and impacts my life negatively. I don’t think it is related to the grief about losing my mother.
      Stay safe and warm as your winter is approaching. Big hugs

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      1. It is good that You have such an understanding of why it occurs, I did not mean to be intrusive. I am learning far more to see why I react, to some situations, so understand. I will be very warm I have all I need and more in the way to keep warm, I am so much more fortunate than many other with my life situation. I feel for you going into Spring and Summer with all that brings and the potential that may mean such changes in our lives. Winter is a time for being home, and snuggling with the dogs in front of the fire. I do hope you are able to work and have your life not too disrupted or impacted by what is happening. Love tazzie

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      2. Oh my dear friend, you have not been intrusive at all and I truly value your insights. I am sorry for this late response, things have been crazy here but I wanted you to know that I was happy to read you are well. Stay safe my friend. Big hugs

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  2. We always get shown something about ourselves…even if just to realise there’s nothing there. And vacuums can only be one thing. The end of one journey and room to build the next.
    Your mom shared with you a discovery of a beautiful place within Rhapsody, you are beginning to blossom from that new flower you have created from that love 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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    1. You are absolutely right Mark and I believe the same when it comes to one door closing and another opening. I am glad Mom shared this place with me and perhaps it is helping me now, although this issue is not related to her. 🙏🏼❤️

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  3. Long time ago, I thought, that anger didn’t serve anything good to me, Rhapsody.
    I was wrong, either I don’t like it.
    By not accepting the anger, we do have inside ourselves, we suppress our anger, which might give stiffness in our muscles and joints.
    I find it for me better to accept the anger, go through it in my mind, then accept that the world isn’t always fair and by working through the anger in this way help me to release the anger and fear, which also belong together.
    Maybe you can use this too.
    Big hugs and much love for you, dear friend ❤
    NB: You have my email and are welcome to use it.

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    1. Oh I have Irene and I share your believes. I treat it the same, and believe in letting all feelings pass through me, including anger. I just don’t hold on to them anymore. I neither suppress them, not do I let them run my life. Thank you for your advice and offer to email you. I know what needs to be done, I just have to do it. I will always get the same results unless I do something about it. It’s just complex and overwhelming at times. Sometimes when another hit happens, it just gets to me.
      Much love to you ❤️

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