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With January in the books

Just the other day I talked about myself reflecting more here. I feel it deserves a little more attention, and it’s worth breaking it down further. Form myself, and perhaps it inspires you to take a look at your moments yourself.

Let’s take a look at my January, as I reflect through the moments good and bad, the lessons that came with it and the changes I foresee for the next month. It reminds me a little bit of a blog post from a dear friend, Simon, at www.sfarnell.wordpress.com, titled “Letter to myself.” If you haven’t visited his blog, please check it out and send my love.

Anyways, back to January.

January was a busy month for me, tearing apart nearly the entire house, searching for, and trying to eliminate what caused my allergies. I spent less time on screen and struggled to keep up with your posts and comments why you faithfully stuck with me. Although I am not a 100% done, I am much better and I no longer look like I cried all night with my eyes swollen and red. I’m relieved.

I’ve lightened my load and donated boxes over boxes to non profit organization. It feels good and yes “Less is more.” I have talked about it before but seeing it in action is another step up.

Wow, the hair is gone and it got slightly shorter then I wanted, but I have come to love it by now. It took a little while to get used to and I’m not sure if I will ever let it grow out again. New year, new me? Kind of, but it wasn’t so much tied to the year beginning. It just was time to do things differently, to raise a new level of awareness to an unmistakable new me. To set an end to a painful era and to move forward with a lighter spirit. I guess you could say it as more metaphorically speaking, hair included. It made me feel like a weight was off of my shoulders.

In other health issues it was time to become relentless and aggressive, as a wake up call in the form of a heart attack (not mine) knocked on the door. It made me pause and take a look at myself, the things that are hard like losing weight, eating healthier, turning back the clock. I had run out of excuses as to why this was not already happening for me. When was I going to start – when it’s too late? When was I finally going to do something about it. That heart attack said that it was now or never. I have started and I’m only a few days in, but I’m seeing and feeling results. So far so good, but it’s everything else but easy. It takes determination, staying power, motivation, all of the above. There will be hunger pains as you adjust to portion control, but believe me you will. You will be craving all the foods you used to eat, and everything takes so much planning and consideration, but the payoff and reducing inflammation which equals pain is priceless.

Watching a great podcast on how to grow a new body further motivated me in my progress of becoming a better version of myself.

January, I lost a dear friend as my soul sister decided to go on separate ways. I still understand, but I miss her. Despite of always being connected by spirit.

On the family front some amazing things happened I will go into detail when the time is right and I’m sorry to even put this teaser out there, but I couldn’t not include it. All I can say is that I have been blessed with the opportunity of having a father in my life. Many of you will know that I have lost my real father at the age of 10.

January brought the full moon of the Wolf energy, filled with valuable insights and paying close attention to what is important. Leading the way of what no longer serves our nature and higher self and your spiritual purpose being culled from your consciousness.

I also had an Ex contact me, reminding me how toxic narcissistic people are and why he is an ex. It was truly crazy, but also showed me that the tactics once used on me had lost their power and no longer have a hold on me. I knew and yet it was confirmation to see it in action.

January blessed me with my he sightings of a few spirit animals, delivering messages and a few afternoon naps listening to my body and taking care of myself.

Well that’s pretty much it. Quite a bit wouldn’t you say? Looking back I am happy with the lessons overall and what they taught me. I am grateful for the wake up call before it was too late. I am blessed for the good things in my life and believe there are always good things, no matter how bad it seems. I’ve learned to value those that want to be in my life even more, and I will work hard on not taking a thing for granted. I’m not afraid to feel it all, good and bad, but I do hope for a break from the bad. It’s time to soar and test these wings. There is always stuff that needs changing, things that could be better, but for me it’s happening already. I have lowered my blood pressure, my blood sugar and I have lost four pounds this week. Go me 😉

Author:

Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

14 thoughts on “With January in the books

  1. Oh yes, go you!!! 😀
    The universe in all its beauty will always test you. This has two very important reasons.
    One, to bring your yucky bits to the surface so that you can face them, understand them, and clear the fears from your heart so that you can see clearer, and love even more.
    Two, so that you can see just how far you’ve come (in reference to your ex here, but really in all things).
    You have your wings dear lady, a new journey begins 😀
    Um…would I be a fellow warrior and share your journey by reducing my chocolate load/intake/chocoholism/addiction/need…and monetary drain? 😂 🤣
    I can do it, I know I can dear lady 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋 🦘 🐬 🐳 🌺

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      1. I jest, its more like $100 😂 🤣
        I’m kidding. It would in fact probably take me 20 years at the rate I eat it 😀
        I need to be a jewelaholic, now then I could seriously do a round world trip in a week 😂 🤣

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  2. You are looking great and more important Happy, dear Rhapsody.
    Well done with the cleaning and sorting out for donations and good to hear, that it helped at your allergies. I have been sorting out for the last half year very energetic and even if I’m not good to throw out, it felt good to get rid of lots of stuff and donate it to others too.
    Narcissistic souls are those, we need to stay very far away from, dear friend. They don’t ever wish others good, they are much to egoistic for that. I have been there too and it demanded years to free myself after.
    Well done to recognize, that you need to take better care of yourself and then also do it 😀
    I need to kick myself too to remember the good ways of living, which also support the health.
    I will visit your friends blog.
    Take good care of yourself and much love to you ❤

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  3. Your hair is lovely. Such a heartfelt post thank You for sharing. You are inspiring. It is interesting how the Goddess is bringing to me things about diet health exercise and cleaning my home. Your post is another, so I am taking a breath and tomorrow I vow to get my horrnedous kitchen begun.

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