Just the other day I talked about myself reflecting more here. I feel it deserves a little more attention, and it’s worth breaking it down further. Form myself, and perhaps it inspires you to take a look at your moments yourself.
Let’s take a look at my January, as I reflect through the moments good and bad, the lessons that came with it and the changes I foresee for the next month. It reminds me a little bit of a blog post from a dear friend, Simon, at www.sfarnell.wordpress.com, titled “Letter to myself.” If you haven’t visited his blog, please check it out and send my love.
Anyways, back to January.
January was a busy month for me, tearing apart nearly the entire house, searching for, and trying to eliminate what caused my allergies. I spent less time on screen and struggled to keep up with your posts and comments why you faithfully stuck with me. Although I am not a 100% done, I am much better and I no longer look like I cried all night with my eyes swollen and red. I’m relieved.
I’ve lightened my load and donated boxes over boxes to non profit organization. It feels good and yes “Less is more.” I have talked about it before but seeing it in action is another step up.
Wow, the hair is gone and it got slightly shorter then I wanted, but I have come to love it by now. It took a little while to get used to and I’m not sure if I will ever let it grow out again. New year, new me? Kind of, but it wasn’t so much tied to the year beginning. It just was time to do things differently, to raise a new level of awareness to an unmistakable new me. To set an end to a painful era and to move forward with a lighter spirit. I guess you could say it as more metaphorically speaking, hair included. It made me feel like a weight was off of my shoulders.
In other health issues it was time to become relentless and aggressive, as a wake up call in the form of a heart attack (not mine) knocked on the door. It made me pause and take a look at myself, the things that are hard like losing weight, eating healthier, turning back the clock. I had run out of excuses as to why this was not already happening for me. When was I going to start – when it’s too late? When was I finally going to do something about it. That heart attack said that it was now or never. I have started and I’m only a few days in, but I’m seeing and feeling results. So far so good, but it’s everything else but easy. It takes determination, staying power, motivation, all of the above. There will be hunger pains as you adjust to portion control, but believe me you will. You will be craving all the foods you used to eat, and everything takes so much planning and consideration, but the payoff and reducing inflammation which equals pain is priceless.
Watching a great podcast on how to grow a new body further motivated me in my progress of becoming a better version of myself.
January, I lost a dear friend as my soul sister decided to go on separate ways. I still understand, but I miss her. Despite of always being connected by spirit.
On the family front some amazing things happened I will go into detail when the time is right and I’m sorry to even put this teaser out there, but I couldn’t not include it. All I can say is that I have been blessed with the opportunity of having a father in my life. Many of you will know that I have lost my real father at the age of 10.
January brought the full moon of the Wolf energy, filled with valuable insights and paying close attention to what is important. Leading the way of what no longer serves our nature and higher self and your spiritual purpose being culled from your consciousness.
I also had an Ex contact me, reminding me how toxic narcissistic people are and why he is an ex. It was truly crazy, but also showed me that the tactics once used on me had lost their power and no longer have a hold on me. I knew and yet it was confirmation to see it in action.
January blessed me with my he sightings of a few spirit animals, delivering messages and a few afternoon naps listening to my body and taking care of myself.
Well that’s pretty much it. Quite a bit wouldn’t you say? Looking back I am happy with the lessons overall and what they taught me. I am grateful for the wake up call before it was too late. I am blessed for the good things in my life and believe there are always good things, no matter how bad it seems. I’ve learned to value those that want to be in my life even more, and I will work hard on not taking a thing for granted. I’m not afraid to feel it all, good and bad, but I do hope for a break from the bad. It’s time to soar and test these wings. There is always stuff that needs changing, things that could be better, but for me it’s happening already. I have lowered my blood pressure, my blood sugar and I have lost four pounds this week. Go me 😉