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All that it took and more…

I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting lately. Things have become more obvious then ever before, and time doesn’t seem abundant anymore. I am getting older, and the thought process changes with age. At least mine is. All of a sudden it is most important to live my best life, to ponder what I am willing to accept and what needs to change. There is a hunger to live every day with the fullest awareness possible, to not take one moment for granted and to feel with such intensity, that it is that very feeling that makes me feel alive.

It’s been a tough two years, and yet I am grateful. It’s hard to be thankful for the losses and the pain, but without them I would not be where I am today, and I don’t want to go backwards. There is a bigger understanding, a knowing, and the light that I’ve carried within for so long, is emerging from the cracks, the seams that stretch over my entire being. The once believed brokenness is actually what was required to make me whole. Each crack resembles a battle, a hurtful event, something that felt as if my heart was being ripped, and yet today I have come to embrace these scars.

Only in my pain, did I find my will.

Only in my chaos, did I meant to be still.

Only in my fear, did I find my might.

Only in my darkness, did I see the light.

🙏🏼❤️

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Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

18 thoughts on “All that it took and more…

  1. Beautifully said dear lady, beautifully said! 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽
    In this lovely part of your awakening things do have so much more meaning. YOU have so much more meaning because you have let go of what dragged you down. And in that understanding your worth has risen immensely because you now understand the lie that your beliefs held. Those negativities and the world view that held you back…with great purpose…so that you could understand an unconditional love by removing those conditions that we all place on ourselves in so many ways.
    You can still feel a little flat some days because like all changes into something new, there will be times when you need to allow yourself to ‘just be’. And there will be other days when the neighbor’s will wonder what you’ve been smoking 😂
    And on those days, it just won’t matter any more because you can now fly dear lady, your wings are free 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋 🦘 🐬 🐳 🌺

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    1. Beautifully explained and said again Mark and every word fits to a T. It feels so good to realize all of this in the process of it and know exactly what is going on. I know there will always be those days, but overall I am not going back to where I was and I take comfort in that. 😉❤️🙋🏼‍♀️🙏🏼🦋

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  2. I’m constantly humbled by the changes in my life from the circumstances I’ve had recently. I hope I have grown, matured, and gained. I know I have gained in knowing people. Beautiful souls like YOU!!

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    1. Of course you have gained and grown. Grief and pain changes a person and if we are lucky and not closed minded, it often changes us for the better, even though it was such a painful process.
      So happy to know YOU special sister and grateful to have you in my life. ❤️

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  3. You are expressing yourself so beautiful, Rhapsody.
    All the less good moments in life are the ones to teach us, what our purpose must be for now. Our purpose change by time, just as we change by experiences.
    I do too find it important to remember to dream, create new goals and work to reach those goals, best possible.
    Much love and hugs for you, dear friend ❤

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