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Love and loss

Life is a constant result of love and loss. The trick is to ace the test and find the meaning in the lessons. We break, and these cracks (scars) point the way, as if leaving a magical landscape on the canvas of our life. Some are visible, others deeply rooted within ourselves. Today I know that these cracks that break us open are necessary for us to feel a sense of wholeness. To be complete, to feel as one. I know that those very cracks don’t compromise us, but actually make us stronger. When our light starts to emerge from those cracks, it is then that the pressure is regulated and everything finds balance and acceptance.

I found a photo album the other day. Mom tugged it away safe and sound and it contained a few never before seen pictures, like this picture of my parents. It speaks volumes and a thousand words to me. They both look so happy, I immediately cried because of the fate they both had to face.

This trip to Germany has been one of love and loss for myself. It’s hard to comprehend all the feelings at times, when everything becomes quiet, and nothing is left to say, or doesn’t have a chance to be heard any longer. Life is a cruel place at times or is just our perception of such? Some lessons are so hard to learn, or is it just our resistance to it and not understanding the good in it yet? Some things are so painful that we fail to see the growths that comes of these adverse times. The growths that moves us forward, that breaks us open in order for our light to emerge. You are nearly there…keep going you beautiful soul.

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Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

14 thoughts on “Love and loss

  1. Such a nice photo of your parents, Rhapsody 🙂
    Nice memories for you to keep.
    You are right, we need to break down and to build ourselves up again as a new soul, as we then have gone through heavy stuff in life, which didn’t kill us.
    Good to hear, that you are on the right way up, my friend.
    Much love and huge hugs for you ❤

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    1. Some days are better than others and today is a tough one again. I think it is because I am leaving soon and I’m clawing on to everything that is Mom, not even wanting to get out of the house. This is how she spent her time, here in this house, and you know what it’s not all that bad. And still I feel bad that she was alone for so long. What a mess of feelings and contradictions. Feeling sad for her and ten sitting here myself doing the same an saying it’s not all that bad, as if it was ok for me to deserve less. I have a lot of healing left to do my friend but tomorrow is a new day. ❤️

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      1. As we have talked about before Rhapsody, then you have followed your dreams many years ago and no one can tell you, this was wrong.
        We are all responsible for our own lives and choose, how we wish to live those.
        When we have/have had parents, who wished to stay at home and don’t do much outside their homes, it is/was their own choices, not ours.
        Our children are not our property, we only have them for loaning.
        Send you love and healing thoughts and wish you all the best, dear friend ❤

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  2. That photo is beautiful, look at the way your Dad is looking at your Mom. Whenever we break, we always come back to the same place, and that is Love, the only thing that matters is Love. Your Mom was reaching out to you with her photo album, how beautiful is that xx

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  3. Well written dear lady. We finally see that complete package of that beauty, but like a masterpiece in the beginning it is very blank. But gradually it begins to glow until at long last it shows what it took to get there. Shows the brushstrokes that were not quite right and re-brushed, even to the point of a new idea being created. A new color added or texture changed until deep inside a satisfaction is created from all that went before. A pleasing, loving appreciation of what we have done. A ‘knowing’ that it is now alright, reaching that point of acceptance so that we are truly smiling within at its completion.
    Their masterpieces are complete Rhapsody, and you are exactly what they created. You can hold them both in your heart to take out and look at any time you wish, that magic created from the brushstrokes of love will always be there ❤️

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      1. Thank you Rhapsody, and I’m glad for you because inside all this is something so beautiful. A something that will leave you in tears…loving tears because you will finally see and understand. Big, big hugs dear lady ❤️ 🙏🏼

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