We lose something and we gain something. In one instance life changes and is never the same again. The moments are lost as far as repeating themselves, but live on forever within our hearts. There, lives the love that can’t be shaken, that is eternal and forever.
This trip to Germany has been such a time for me. A time of great loss and feeling lost, but also a time of tremendous personal growth and gaining new insights. Of meeting new people and getting the answers to my own passion and what fuels my life. “What’s next”, no longer seems like a distant question I can’t answer, but is coming clearly into focus, laying it’s answers at my feet, although I don’t have all of them yet. Everything else before was a waiting period, hanging in suspense, being in limbo until time was ready to point the way. I trust it will continue to do so with the rest that is still unsure.
Last night my aunt fell asleep forever and has crossed over to the spirit world. I am grateful I got to visit her several times in the hospital and mend some family scars, Mom and her had in their late years together. I feel the powerlessness of loss all over again and my heart goes out to my immediate family who feels this loss on an even deeper level. Today we lost a family member while another family member is celebrating a birthday. It was similar just a short time ago as Mom passed and another life found its way into this world with the birth of another family member.
I think back to Moms funeral and the condolences I received from people. One phrase stands out that sums it all up and it now, just now that I truly understand the meaning and the depths of it.
“Much strengths to you” wrapped in a hug and wish for dealing with this loss.
May you Rest In Peace. Say hi to Mom, love you both. You’re missed.