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Loss, Gain & Changes

We lose something and we gain something. In one instance life changes and is never the same again. The moments are lost as far as repeating themselves, but live on forever within our hearts. There, lives the love that can’t be shaken, that is eternal and forever.

This trip to Germany has been such a time for me. A time of great loss and feeling lost, but also a time of tremendous personal growth and gaining new insights. Of meeting new people and getting the answers to my own passion and what fuels my life. “What’s next”, no longer seems like a distant question I can’t answer, but is coming clearly into focus, laying it’s answers at my feet, although I don’t have all of them yet. Everything else before was a waiting period, hanging in suspense, being in limbo until time was ready to point the way. I trust it will continue to do so with the rest that is still unsure.

Last night my aunt fell asleep forever and has crossed over to the spirit world. I am grateful I got to visit her several times in the hospital and mend some family scars, Mom and her had in their late years together. I feel the powerlessness of loss all over again and my heart goes out to my immediate family who feels this loss on an even deeper level. Today we lost a family member while another family member is celebrating a birthday. It was similar just a short time ago as Mom passed and another life found its way into this world with the birth of another family member.

I think back to Moms funeral and the condolences I received from people. One phrase stands out that sums it all up and it now, just now that I truly understand the meaning and the depths of it.

“Much strengths to you” wrapped in a hug and wish for dealing with this loss.

May you Rest In Peace. Say hi to Mom, love you both. You’re missed.

Author:

Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I am the one, holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but that everything has purpose. I’ve made my mistakes, don’t we all, but I see them as growing pains and they are a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time, but in a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off the hamster wheel in an effort to change my future. I didn’t land all that soft, but I can say that I’m still proud to have found the courage to do it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of moments and I chase memories, instead of the material stuff. Less is more, and the motto is quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. Somehow I go against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you dare, you soon realize that it is the only way if you don’t want to lose who you are. Just like most, my past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But that’s the past and it’s history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard and accepted and still life is hard and our path is full of stumbling blocks. If we can see the lessons in adversity we may realize that the toughest moments are often our greatest teachers. There is a reason for the saying that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it might be darkness that will show you the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

19 thoughts on “Loss, Gain & Changes

  1. Ohhh Sweet Rhapsody… I am so sorry about your loss. Life sure isn’t sparing you at the moment! I am sending you loads and loads of warm hugs and loving thoughts, my dear friend… There’s not much I can do, but I am with you in thoughts. Take good care, Gorgeous! xx

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  2. It can be such a cruel world Rhapsody. Wave after wave seem to keep us off balance, never time to just be.
    You have had much to feel dear lady, and I send much love and light that the waves will settle and allow you to find that peace within ❤️

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    1. Thank you Mark. There has been much loss, but also much growth for me. A lesson that everything is balance and perhaps with Mom I faced The Valley of loss for the first time instead of running away from that scary place. It’s a lesson about the black and the white wolf inside of us and that we need to pay attention to both. Grief and joy are parts of life, without grief we wouldn’t recognize true joy.
      Of course there is much more to be said, but I think you know what I mean. I have gone through the painful stages of breaking my caterpillar cocoon. It is time to fully emerge, to unfurl those wings and to take flight. ❤️

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