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Energetically connected

Lantern burning in front of Moms room at the nursing home to say goodbye….

I found myself in amazement that I managed to stay up past 11PM the day of my arrival. Now with a few days here already, it seems like distant memory. I am yet to sleep a full night though and I’m running on fumes. The long trip, car ride and emotional viewing of Mom, I put it all behind me and my body just powered through it all. Performing for me when being strong was the only choice there was. The last couple of days have been filled with sadness and sorrow, but also a certain numbness and shock I haven’t quite got past. It’s surreal, almost like wanting to wake up from a bad, bad dream. The moment I was so afraid of, and of which I knew I had to face sooner or later, had come faster than anticipated. Mom was this sick before, but her decline was rapid and then I had that hunch feeling that this was her time. Oh how I fought that feeling, how much I wanted to be wrong, for it to not be the truth, but it would be so sooner then I could imagine.

I was filled with a deep sense of loss, but also a sense of relief for her suffering to have ended. The scare about this moment had finally realized. How many years had I been afraid, afraid of the message, the call, that very moment. Of course I knew the answer and it was this way for as long as I could remember, or so it seemed….

Once in bed, I fell asleep rather quickly, but only for a short time. Pretty soon I was awoken, and immediately I recognized the feeling, I had felt this before. It was the same phenomenon as my dog passed away, and last year with a very emotional occurrence involving Dad.

It was around 1AM that I woke from a bright flash of light shining directly into my face. The light was so bright that I squinted my already closed eyes shut even tighter. Could I have been dreaming….no…I knew this was different, and immediately I knew what it was. Mom was trying to communicate with me. The light was brief and darkness once more filled the room. For the next two hours my phone lit up, notifying me that a message had come through, except there was no physical messages. No notifications, no emails, no alerts, nothing. Just the notification sound and lit up phone. This is not the first time this has happened and besides my dog, I also believe that it was a way Dad tried to contact me last year. It was very similar and the feel was the same. This is now the third time this has happened to me, and it can’t be chalked up to coincidence, or some kind of maintenance, etc. You just know, although you can’t explain it. It’s nothing you have ever felt, nothing familiar, nothing you can compare it with, and yet you know and it seems perfectly normal, making perfect sense. To you at least.


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

20 thoughts on “Energetically connected

  1. I think, that it makes perfectly sense Rhapsody. All of the three wished to tell you something or maybe say thank you for this time, I don’t know.
    Many years ago first time, as I experienced, how the souls who had crossed over the rainbow bridge, wished to contact me by one or another reason. I was only a kid that time, but I found it natural for me, that they had something to say or giving advice. Since then other times have occurred too.
    Souls, as we have been close to in this life, don’t just disappear, I feel.
    Good to read, that you are, where you need to be right now.
    Send you love, abundance and huge hugs, dear friend ❤

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    1. I knew you would be able to relate to this Irene. You are a kindred spirit, having endured your own tough experiences and your values have shifted because of it. Thank you so much for sharing this and for your support.
      Much love and light to you, and a big hug. ❤️

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  2. You know it was for you Rhapsody, and it was out of the ordinary so that it wasn’t possible to mistake it for something else. And no doubt it gave you peace inside to know they had all done this for you, and that they are all continuing in a beautiful place.
    Love and light to you dear lady, may it also give you that peace and rest 💜

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  3. Rhapsody, I want to thank you for your unflinching sharing of what you’ve been through, your clarity, your perceptive insights and actions. It is invaluable for me, and I’m sure for all of us. And sending you metta.

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    1. Steve, once again your heartfelt comment touches my heart and reassured me as to why I do this. If it can help others in any way, then I couldn’t ask for anything more. Thank you for your loyalty and friendship, it truly is invaluable to me. Hugs. ❤️

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  4. How beautiful that you are getting those messages from your Dad… And your Mum.
    Hope you get a bit more sleep love. Such is the time that demands are made of you, robbing you of your silent meditations… No wonder you made those connections in the dead of night when subtle energies can be heard. ❤️💕

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    1. Oh it already has. I don’t need to explain it because I already know the answers and I don’t feel the need to convince others of what it is. This is my truths and nobody else needs to understand. My gut feelings and “just knowing” has always served me well and not everything requires scientific evidence to me. My intuition knows. As far as coincidences…I don’t believe in them. Everything has purpose and happens for a reason at the exact time they are meant to happen. They are synchronicities and it is up to us to recognize them and make sense of the path that’s been laid out for us all along. Hugs ❤️

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