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Little fuzzy guy

It was the day after my birthday, last Sunday as we hiked and chilled out at one of our favorite spots, overlooking a non crowded, beautiful Sierra lake. Many people had left messages, wishing for my new year of life to be the best one yet. I looked at it as if a new book had opened, with only blank pages for me to write my own story. A story not dependent on anyone or anything, a story up to me with my visions, my perceptions – mind-frame, my aspirations and dreams, as to what content it would hold. What story would I write? Somehow I felt that it would be the greatest yet, and the dreamer in me wants to believe that the best is yet to come.

A butterfly landed on me several times that day, reminding me of the transformation and changes that were sure to come. I have always felt and even said this before that 2019 was going to be a year of preparation and transition. Slowly, I can see the pieces falling into place and the unavoidable can no longer be prolonged. The butterfly, as well as how many times it landed on me brought a for certain message for this believer of spiritual signs, especially through the animal spirit. It was happening and in the process. I knew I had to get ready, to prepare for the next step.

Later that day I took a nap and woke from a little tickle I thought it might have been an ant. But wait, this felt different and the little tickle turned into an immediate burning sensation at my right knee area. I sat up and saw this little fuzzy guy, cute little caterpillar right next to me. I didn’t know what happened and there were plenty of times in the past where I picked them up and held them in my hand. But not this one and this one wasn’t friendly at all. His bottom side was red and my skin was on fire were it must have touched me, swelling into red hives and welts. Eventually, I relocated Mr. Cater-k-iller and put a wet, cool compress on the leg which helped ease the discomfort. After a little while the pain stopped getting worse and even later it eased a bit. Oh my goodness I thought, I got it alright. Another message about transformation, letting me know that this one was going to sting quite a bit.

Once evening had arrived and I was back home, I found a little something from the The Minds Journal that seemed appropriate for the journey ahead of me. Really ahead of any of us, because transformation happens all the time, to all of us. We grow into different people, often outgrowing the person we once were. We ascend (hopefully) and what we once valued, may no longer fit us. Life is ever changing and so are we. So this little piece was relevant for me and I hope it speaks to you as well, because….

Nobody ever talks about this part….

You know, the part when you’re no longer a caterpillar and not yet a butterfly. You don’t know who you are and you don’t know where you’re going. All you know is that every fiber of your being is calling for transformation. For disruption. For a revolution of the spirit.

So surrender. Breakdown. This is not the death of you. This is the dying of who you once were. This is your rebirth darling. And these are called growing pains.

Trust the process…🦋


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

27 thoughts on “Little fuzzy guy

  1. Great to read, that you are started your next year with an empty book to fill out for yourself, Rhapsody 🙂
    This caterpillar looks like the one we call processions caterpillars and they shoot their arrows against us or our animals and those arrows can be fatal for small animals and people with allergy.
    these caterpillars move around in one long procession to protect each other against enemies.
    It is recommended to stay far away from them.
    Wish you a beautiful weekend ❤

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    1. I know and this was truly a freak accident. A one of a kind I hope where I can admire these fuzzy guys from a distance. All had pretty much healed by now, thank goodness.
      Now another threat has surfaced and I guess they have found mosquitos with the West Nile virus in our area. This worries me a bit since I always get attached by mosquitos, but I will keep good thoughts.

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      1. Thank you much, luckily I have an overactive immune system for this case, but also one that attacks itself. I think I’m out of the woods now. No pain or itching anymore, just still slightly red. 👍🏻

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      2. When immune systems attacks themselves, it is also called autoimmunity illnesses. This they are checking me out for too.
        I fight with several kind of Arthritis and a new hospital wish to look into, what else could be wrong. Let us see.
        I’m happy, that your flares are over for now. Wish you a long healing and peaceful time without ❤

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      3. I hope you find your answers and something that can help. Autoimmune issues are such mean illnesses and so relentless.
        My rheumatoid arthritis is a chronic autoimmune illness. It’s ongoing and my immune system is destroying my joints. I don’t have a major flare right now, but I still fight pain an fatigue every day. I never know what awaits each day.
        Wishing you all the best and sending healing vibes your way. Big hug ❤️

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  2. powerful images and lessons from top to toe! I’m incredibly thankful for them. Blessings to you and I should have sent a birthday card…i still might, there happens to be any number of them in the house in boxes!! lol

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      1. You would be surprised at what still remains hidden, even if to just come up into my life to ‘see’ that I am in a better place. Not completely over it but knowing I’m in a better place because I have faced it 😀

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      2. I think each one of us would say the same and it keeps us aspiring to grow further as the best version of ourselves. And sometimes we need to celebrate the progress and trust in the amazement others see in us. I don’t know the details my friend but as as from one healer to another I can truly say that I see you. That I have recognized your struggles of the past, that we share a path similar in many ways, and that I have full confidence that you will achieve for yourself everything you have set out to do. You’re already doing it and I’m humbled to share this journey with you. Hugs.

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      3. Why thank you dear lady, humbling words indeed 🙏🏼 ❤️
        Then may our journey on dragon back or good old fashioned feet take us to our inner destiny with the truth of a story well told ❤️

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  3. Beautiful, Rhapsody. The unsecure time of becoming is also a lot about perseverance, from my point of view, and you name it: a good mix of trust and surrender. So much wisdom in your words 💝. I wish you a wonderful, transforming, kind, and awe-inspiring new year of your life! May you laugh, dance, hug, be amazed by those little and bigger creatures 😉, use the one or other tear that might flow to water the garden in your heart 🌺🌱🌸🌱🐛🌱🦋🌱🌺. Lots of 💗, Daniela

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    1. Awe thank you so much Daniela. Your words touch my heart and are so beautifully heartfelt. I truly cherish all you said and will take it with me on this continued road of transformation. Best wishes to you as well and lots of love. ❤️❤️❤️🦋

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