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Just because

Just because I laugh doesn’t mean I am not in pain.

Just because I have a smile on my face, doesn’t mean I’m feeling better.

Just because I choose me, doesn’t mean I’m selfish.

Just because I get frustrated and angry at my limitations, doesn’t mean I’ll give up.

Just because I cry, doesn’t not mean I’m weak.

Just because I’m judged by others, does my mean I am what they think.

Living with a chronic illness is hard and I do the best I can. I know it’s hard for you to truly understand band sadly you won’t truly get it, unless you get it.

I hope you never do….


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

18 thoughts on “Just because

  1. I relate to this so much…and I know I don’t understand or feel exactly what you do, but I’ve had chronic health issues that have bounced around in my body and doctors for much of my life-and it can be a truly isolating and devastating experience (especially when there’s flares and people can’t “see” what’s wrong and can be dismissive-even if not intentional it hurts because I’ve beaten myself up so much over the years to just “be better” and all that meant was “hide it better”)…I don’t usually speak to these things but I love reading your words, and care about you-and just wanted to say in whatever way I can be alongside your pain…you’re not alone 🙂 and Johnny sends a cat hug ❤️

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    1. Ashley, I can’t even begin to tell you how much your comment means. It warms my heart and I thank you from the bottom of it for your kind words. Hugs.
      In truth, I am glad you don’t actually understand these symptoms, as I also care much about you and don’t want you to experience these pains. I truly hope you are well now and don’t beat yourself up anymore. It’s a tough road but having people like you in your side makes all the difference. Thank you for walking right besides me and for being wonderful you. And Johnny too. Purrrfect. Much love to you my friend. ❤️

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  2. I hear you, dear Rhapsody ❤
    Anyone, who lives with chronic illness, will understand what you are writing about. Specially the invisible kind, which are often not or bad understood. Chronic illness drain the energy and leave souls without much left, when the flares are up.
    Much love and healing your way, dear friend ❤

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  3. It is so hard to live with pain and fatigue that nobody can see. My body is strong when it’s feeling well, but nobody can see the weakness when hit with a flare. It’s almost impossible to explain the overwhelming fatigue when it hits.

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    1. Amen sister, I know, same here. It’s a struggle and fight each day, as we never quite know what we are getting, but I guess it’s one reason we are warriors. Much love to you dear warrior queen. Hugs ❤️


    1. Hugs. Thank you, and it was your comment making me tear up. How sweet and extraordinary of you to do this for me. It means so much and I am so touched. Thank you kindly my friend.
      Oh and yes it is a round pizza towels, one of my favorites and loves. 😉 There is another post scheduled where you will get a bigger glimpse of it soon hehehe.
      Have a wonderful weekend and much love to you.

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    1. Oh it is and a little weather doesn’t discourage me. As a matter of fact one of my passions is photography and I often say “No weather no shot.” However the barometric pressure can be a different story sometimes when dealing with the RA but I always do my best to dance in the rain and make the best out of every situation. Thank you my friend 😉

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