Posted in Inspiration, Motivation,

The little things…

Picture of my first handmade smudge fan. Made of wood and feathers found while hiking, and a few purchased pieces such as the wood beads and a few smaller feathers.

Gabrielle Roth poses a statement that in many shamanic societies, if you came to a medicine person complaining of being disheartened, dispirited, or depressed, they would ask one of four questions.

When did you stop dancing?

When did you stop singing?

When did you stop being enchanted by stories?

When did you find comfort in the sweet territory of silence?

Four simple but very powerful questions that take little effort but pack a big punch. I believe that the lessons of the past year have brought me much closer to these questions and to understanding their meaning on a whole different level. Did you know that all the little things can end up being all the big things in our life’s? It was this morning, waking up with a smile, well rested, that my thoughts shifted to this and has inspired this post.

I was never an early riser, and a study that having to get up before 8 AM is equivalent to torture, holds true with me. There are plenty of times when I get up before 8, but when I do it is naturally now and not because of the sound of an alarm clock. Just the thought of the alarm going off any minute or that it is set, causes sleep interruption and anxiety for me. I like to wake up naturally. I know, I did get spoiled not having to work, but more and more I realize how important and necessary this time truly was and still is for me.

I always had a special relationship with my bed, haha. You know the one that feels perfect, to be wrapped in comfort, feeling cozy, when the temperature is just right. When you experienced a good night of rest, and wake up with a smile, ready to take on the world. To snuggle up in soft plush sheets in the winter that keep you warm and comfortable, or when you feel the cooling cotton sheets during the summer on your skin to keep it light and airy. You get it, you have been there and I’m not the only one.

Well for awhile I lost that feeling, especially while I was in Germany and the RA and stress crippled my body. I couldn’t sleep on my side anymore or my stomach and for a non back sleeper it’s not an easy thing to get comfortable or even fall asleep on your back. I remember night after night, waking at every little movement when I tried to turn around and the pain reminded me that it was not possible. I felt so exhausted and tired, and after awhile I’m sure I felt disheartened and lost my joy about the little things. Things like waking up rested to face the day. It may seem little and something insignificant that we often take for granted, but for me it became a very big deal and something I missed. This lasted for several months, with me remembering how wonderful it used to be, and how much things had changed. How much I wished to sleep and entire night without having to get up just to move a little, bit because I had to use the bathroom, but to move my joints. The relationship with my bed had dissolved and what used to be a place of comfort and bliss had now turned into a place of discomfort and horror. I was afraid of the nights and I couldn’t wait for dawn so I could get up and escape this place of pain.

Looking back, I know I was simply too tired to dance, to sing, to be enchanted, or to take comfort in silence. It is amazing how quickly we can lose this, often to no fault of our own. I thought it was my new reality as it lasted for months, but it also taught me to never give up hope, to keep believing and to keep working on your reality. It doesn’t have to be permanent or stay forever, and it will be much easier if you can carry hope within your heart.

Things have changed got me since those grueling times, and today I can once again enjoy the comfort of my beloved bed. Things are not perfect yet, but they are very close to it for me, remembering back to what was. I think I love it even more these days, and sometimes I turn in way early in the evening just to marvel in the feeling that I had lost in an instance once before. It was because of these questions posed from Gabrielle Roth that I paused myself, and those basic things that I’m sure many of us take for granted. I could share a few more lessons like these, things the RA has taught me, things we expect of ourselves every day and don’t think twice about. Today I would tell you to be gentle with yourself and to be thankful and grateful for these things.

My hope in sharing this is to make you pause just like I did and to take a moment. What are you taking for granted and what are the little things in your life you’d miss if they were gone today? How would it make you feel? Perhaps bringing attention to those things will help you dance and sing, will help you celebrate them and see them with renewed joy. Perhaps they place enchanted stories within your heart to share with loved ones, or they allow you to marvel in silence, to be still and listen to your heart while keeping depression and discontentment as far away as possible from you.

Carpe Diem 💙🦋

Advertisements

Author:

Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer and I’m not the only one. I am the one holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but has purpose. I’ve made mistakes, and I see them as a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time. In a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off of the hamster wheel to change my future. I didn’t land all that softly, but I still did it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of memories and I chase moments, instead of martial stuff. Less is more, and I prefer quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. Talking about free, I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. I find myself going against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you find a way, you soon realize that it is the only way to not lose who you are.
My past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But now I believe that the past is history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end I realize that we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard, to be accepted, and to find our spot in life. We try hard to fit in, some to the point of acting out of character, playing by the rules of what we think society expects of us. Until we wake one day, feeling empty and lost, with our life passing right in front of us. It’s never too late to change your stars, and it was my toughest moments, who turned out to be my greatest teachers.
They say that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it was darkness who has shown me the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

10 thoughts on “The little things…

  1. Sleeping well is so important for our health. I do not sleep enough these days but thankfully the little sleep I get is restful. Glad you found that comfort again and I agree with you -We need to slow down, and enjoy more of all those little things. That’s what makes our life wonderful. Thanks for reminding us.

    Liked by 2 people

  2. I’m not a singer or dancer. I do need to go outside more, although, my view is stellar!!
    I have often thought this week, do I really need to be here? I want it. I rest better here. I’m all alone except for my WP world and a few professionals I run into. I’ll need to peruse these thoughts you have broached often. good stuff, my sister friend.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. I think it is time you think a bit more about you, whatever that includes. I think you have accepted certain things for way too long and there is no guilt in living a little and doing something good for you. Time will bring it al into perspective my sister. Listen to your heart.

      Like

  3. I have a Gabriel Roth CD. Bought it in 1999 I think. Years ago, when I was going through some huge transitional stuff, I would put on the mesmerising CD and whirl to it. I did that spontaneously, just seemed to incite it. I found it very calming. The Whirling is reminiscent of the practice in Sufism (a Muslim sect), and really is a kind of meditative state I think.
    https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dervish
    I must get that CD copied on to my phone.

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s