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The Choice was mine to make

The choice is always ours and this time I really stayed true to myself. The path’s past has been anything but easy, and I have yet to find out where the road is taking me, but I’m going for it. I won’t lie and there have been times I said “enough already, I need a break”, but I also have to let you know that it is truly a “no pain, no gain” kind of game. The most meaningful times have been those of adversity, when the most valuable lessons are learned. I don’t have any hard feelings for the past, it made me who I am today and I turned out ok.

I am excited for what lies ahead, about the things I know, and the mysteries, the unknown that is yet weaving it’s way into my journey. I am embracing that the magic lies in the things we don’t always know, and I am learning a few new principles along the way. One of them is not to worry and to believe that the universe has a plan. Kind of scary, right, surrendering all control and going with the flow. You be amazed how liberating and freeing it can be. Luckily I can explore such options, and I’m grateful that I can dream big, that I can pursue the possibilities that I breathe already. That I am able to chase what I am passionate about, and dare to be uniquely me. The choice was mine to make and it didn’t come free or without a fight. It was hard and challenging, cruel and trying, lonely, painful and beautiful at the same time, but it was worth it, and in the end I’ll do it all over again. The trick is to see the lessons and have a willingness to grow as a person. With those weapons by your side, bitterness and defeat will never have a chance, but the chances are great that you will grow into exactly the person you already respect in your mind. You may even be proud of your “Now” without focusing about how great life will be, when….It already is, learn to count your blessings…the choice is yours.

A poem by Michelle Schaper that resonated with me. This one is for all of you searching. May it encourage your choice and may you find the strengths in your heart to fight your battles. Remember, you are beautiful and if I can do it, you certainly can do it. Dig deep and find the courage to answer your call. Remember you are loved.

I just wanted life to give me love and I was prepared to wait, but I had to learn to fight through life to get to love, so fighting became my fate.

I fought for what I believe in, and battled with my own mind. Destiny has made a warrior out of me and many more my kind.

So now that I’ve learned to fall in love with life, I rarely go to war, but I often visit graveyards in my heart of all the girls I’ve been before.

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Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer and I’m not the only one. I am the one holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but has purpose. I’ve made mistakes, and I see them as a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time. In a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off of the hamster wheel to change my future. I didn’t land all that softly, but I still did it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of memories and I chase moments, instead of martial stuff. Less is more, and I prefer quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. Talking about free, I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. I find myself going against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you find a way, you soon realize that it is the only way to not lose who you are.
My past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But now I believe that the past is history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end I realize that we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard, to be accepted, and to find our spot in life. We try hard to fit in, some to the point of acting out of character, playing by the rules of what we think society expects of us. Until we wake one day, feeling empty and lost, with our life passing right in front of us. It’s never too late to change your stars, and it was my toughest moments, who turned out to be my greatest teachers.
They say that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it was darkness who has shown me the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

21 thoughts on “The Choice was mine to make

  1. The thoughts here really resonated with me, Rhapsody. I used to compare myself to others and think, “Why has my life been so difficult?” It’s a defeatist way of thinking, I know that now. And I try to be as you say, to know why I’m alive, and to take the opportunities life has given me to pursue my dreams.

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    1. I used to do the same Steve, it’s exhausting isn’t it? In the end we lose ourselves a little more each day, and are left feeling lonely, misunderstood and depressed.
      You are on the right path and realization is a big key and step I think. I am proud of you and wish you truly the best in your journey. You are doing it…one step at a time. Hugs

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  2. Wow -Such a powerful post and beautifully written. Your last sentence will stay in my head for a while: ‘So now that I’ve learned to fall in love with life, I rarely go to war, but I often visit graveyards in my heart of all the girls I’ve been before.” You inspire me Margit. Keep well my friend. xoxo

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  3. Hello my Sister. How goes your battle with Rheumatoid Arthritis? I hope your pains are fewer with the coming of Spring going into the warmth of summer?

    Isn’t it strange how we battle for the answers in life? I think sometimes, we just want something to pick us up and carry us off into a different place or time. But we know that cannot happen. It must be us, all by our selves, who must change… And that is the hardest thing. ❤️

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    1. Hello dear sister, how nice to see you on here. I hope you’ve been well and things have settled down a bit for you.
      The RA is getting better but there are still plenty of days and the pain is never fully gone. I think there are other things that need to happen in my life for the stress to dissipate and it will get better. I am feeling a major shift and I fear I have to be responsible for my own answers. It would be nice if something could just pick me up and remove me from all of it, but like you said we have to put in the work in everything meanwhile. It will mean much more in the end and this is a huge transition year for me. Big hug and stay well.

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