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The analytical mind

How do the pieces fit together, was a question that came to mind today.

I talked to Mom both days, yesterday and today. She was in great spirits, actually a bit surprising to me, given that it was Dad‘s birthday yesterday. I think perhaps she felt good not having to share his memory alone, having someone (me) there to recall some of the stories. It was easy to stir her back to the funny times, and we found ourselves laughing instead of being overcome by grief. I’m sure Mom’s well-being and lighthearted mood on those two days certainly lifted a burden off of me. Even if just temporary.

It’s raining today and the barometric pressure has dropped. The humidity is climbing and I should be hurting. Yet I am surprisingly comfortable and it makes no sense at all. So what’s different?

  • I have been more active. Spending more time outdoors and using my exercise equipment. It’s definitely a plus and I am determined.
  • Since I dumped a whole glass of water in my bed, mind you that it happened at bedtime, I carry around a half gallon jug. Not only because I can close it tight, but it helps me gauge my daily water intake. I’m not where I want to be yet, but I have definitely increased the amount of water I drink. I wish water could always taste as great as it does when you are hiking, climbing that summit, being parched.
  • I have started to make a conscious effort deciding what I feed my body. Many more salads, no sweets, no soda, no processed foods, reduced sugar, and that kind of stuff.
  • I have been doing some crafting, felting to be more precise, that requires me to work more with my hands. Working with warm water and kneading the fabric has made a difference. I still have some ways to go, but it’s small steps I celebrate today.
  • I have stepped away from typing so much, which has also helped my hands heal. It is in those stationary moments and actually now, writing this post that I can feel my hands getting stiff and the pain returns.
  • I have started to take a few ibuprofens at bedtime. It has allowed a more restful sleep which is important for people with RA.
  • Last but not least, I laughed a lot today, thank you to the courtesy of one amazing soul sister. So much actually until my belly was hurting and I could hardly breath. We will be in trouble when we meet in person, and I look forward to that day with all my heart.

So how do the pieces fit? I am not sure, and no matter how hard I have tried to analyze and figure this out in the past, I just don’t know. Laughter and love are definitely strong medicines and powerful potions. Great friends and amazing people, a content Mom for sure add to the equation. Maybe it is chasing my dreams and being on the brink of doing something a little different. Can you believe it, I thought of a great name to represent what I want to do, and I ordered business cards? So exciting, and they arrive Friday with the next step in sight. Or maybe it is just finally time for this cloud to lift and better times to greet me around the corner. It just has to be….it’s time. 🦋❤️


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

30 thoughts on “The analytical mind

    1. Thank you dear friend. Each day is still different and is lacking consistency. But I am hopeful, determined and I have to believe that things are on the mend with better times around the corner. Thank you dear. Have a beautiful day. ❤️

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  1. Very real, Rhapsody, and I agree completely about state of mind: just not quite logical and we can’t make it happen simply by wanting it. Like you, I find ideas, change, trying novel things are wonderful medicines (we still need the physical kind I guess). All the best with your health and the new venture. PS: Your art a couple of posts back is striking: gorgeous and original.

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    1. You made my day Steve, thank you so much for your feedback. Especially what concerns my art. I hope it goes somewhere, but like you said, simply by wanting something does not work. We have to put in the physical and the work and with the right combination of a positive outlook, we might just do it ❤️

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    1. I have been so bad answering comments, but in my defense I would like you to know that they have not been any less meaningful and I apologize. I appreciate you my fashion sister and I am sending much love your way. 💙

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      1. Oh Margit, please no worries. I am in the same situation so I completely understand. You visit whenever you can. No pressure, no stress. I know that you feel the same. Thank you for the good vibes. Keep well. xoxo

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      2. I only have good thoughts for you Margit. You are an amazing person and I am glad I got the chance to meet you through WordPress. Looking forward to learn more about you and your projects. Keep well my friend. xoxo

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    1. Thank you my friend. It’s a struggle on and off, two steps forward, one back and sometimes it gets the better of me. I’ve been pulling “that card” with Mom a lot lately and it’s not an easy task. I know it does affect me on the stress front and I am doing my best to juggle it. Hugs

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  2. I was thinking about you while driving. I’m so glad you are feeling a bit better. Moving a bit does seem to help. I have been doing garden stuff and that seems to be helping me feel a bit better.
    I enjoy hearing about your experiences and we so need to make a date to chat! I’m best with planned things like that! lol

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  3. I love to hear this so much, I hope and pray with all my heart that all progress towards RA remission continues until you are completely free and climbing those mountains again. I know you are doing it, my sister, by your attitude, your actions and your warrior spirit. My heart and love is with you. x

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