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Hayes Street

Flying back from Germany, my final flight landed in San Fransisco, CA. I got to spent my first day back visiting the ocean, and this famous site, which is this row of houses on Hayes Street. It was a perfect day, mild and sunny, quite different from the last couple of gloomy days I got to spent before leaving Germany.

It’s hard to believe this was a week ago already, and I’ve been fighting my way back. My body is still not cooperating a 100% and I have never experienced anything like this. It’s rather scary to lose control over your body, and it takes everything to a whole new level. I finally unpacked and struggled my way through some cleaning chores. I miss Mom, but I have been so consumed with my own struggles, there really hasn’t been much time for anything else. Not by choice, but because of reality. It’s really strange, but I think I am getting better.

The current struggle is to walk sure footed, the inflammation seems to have moved into my feet besides the shoulder. I don’t trust myself on uneven pavement, although I want to go out tomorrow and visit the vortex. Nothing has been easy this past week, but my silver lining is out there.

With this second day of a brand new year, I recognize this year as a transition year. Some things will be hard and tough, but it’s a part of the journey. My dreams are long realized, it is just a matter of timing. While this year will be about prep, lightening the load, and other choices, 2020 has a nice ring to it for a year or executing the prep.



Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer and I’m not the only one. I am the one holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but has purpose. I’ve made mistakes, and I see them as a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time. In a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off of the hamster wheel to change my future. I didn’t land all that softly, but I still did it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of memories and I chase moments, instead of martial stuff. Less is more, and I prefer quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. Talking about free, I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. I find myself going against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you find a way, you soon realize that it is the only way to not lose who you are.
My past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But now I believe that the past is history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end I realize that we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard, to be accepted, and to find our spot in life. We try hard to fit in, some to the point of acting out of character, playing by the rules of what we think society expects of us. Until we wake one day, feeling empty and lost, with our life passing right in front of us. It’s never too late to change your stars, and it was my toughest moments, who turned out to be my greatest teachers.
They say that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it was darkness who has shown me the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

4 thoughts on “Hayes Street

  1. I can’t imagine how much you miss your mom but oh my she would tell you to take good care of yourself. Hoping your body cooperates so you can enjoy San Francisco,(my favorite city!) Sending you loads of blessings that are well deserved!

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    1. You are right great wise one and it will take a little to recover. I am making progress and luckily I live close enough to San Francisco to visit again and again. Happy New Year doll. May this be your year. All the best xo 💙

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