Life is bittersweet, and never did I realize this saying to be more true, then during my stay in Germany. I will be leaving next month, but a part of me stays while the rest of me worries as I’m gone.
Never was I more afraid to leave and honestly, I don’t know how I ever did it in all these years, leaving Mom behind. Never has life been so apparent in all it’s harsh realities. Never was the truth so cold and the obvious between want and reality so clear.
Never have I felt more lonely and isolated, more overwhelmed and more pushed into the corner with my hands tied. Never have I been more vulnerable and scared, more devastated and yet hopeful. Never did I have to be stronger and more of a fighter as I have been for the past ten month.
Never have I starred depression more into the eye as I have been. Never did I feel more like giving up as I have been here. Never did I feel such agonizing pain, both physically and mentally. Never did I cry as much as I have cried during my time in Germany.
Never have I stumbled this much and fallen so many times, but always have I made the choice to get back up and face another day and another fight.
Cry me a river…..
We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other.
Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other.
This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place.
My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire.
Who I am in a nutshell...
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master.
I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago.
I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars.
I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter.
I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self.
This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes.
Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋
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Rhapsody Bohème 
Cry as much as you need, Gorgeous! But know that you are not alone in thoughts… I am sending much love to keep fighting your fights! I believe in you 🙂 xx
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Thank you my dear sister. You know it means everything. I’m just reflecting and laying my weapons down for a moment. The battle is not over yet and I will face another fight. Xo
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My heart goes out to you. Let yourself feel. Allow yourself to cry. And fight. xx
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Oh I have felt it all over the past ten month. Sometimes we just need to take a break from being so strong, cry and let it all out, so we can pick up and go again. Thank you for your kind words Tee. Hugs
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One step at a time will get you through. Endless blessings to you.
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You are absolutely right Brett. Thank you for reminding me and for your support. It is people like you, on the sidelines, cheering me on that make all the difference. Thank you
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You are not alone. Hugs.
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I know and it’s a life saver. Thank you very much. Hugs
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You are sad because you care and are human. You are a good daughter! But you deserve your own life too, and need to remember that. Hugs!
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You are right, I am sad and scared for what will be when I’m gone. I couldn’t stay if I wanted to because I need to take care of things back home. Which will be taking care of me as well. Hugs
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This was so comforting and inspiring. Thank you
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