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The Vortex – Part 3 – The fairy garden

Please see The Vortex Part 1 & 2 to get up to speed on where this post picks up on.

After discovering the T.V. in my picture from one of my favorite stomping grounds, it all made sense. I knew that my feelings were credited to having found my own little energy field. I was picking up on something just like I did at Mount Shasta, where I had felt it for the very first time. I think back to how it all started, and the only way I can describe it as getting addicted, hooked on a feeling. I wanted to feel like this all the time, and priorities were set to go visit “The Vortex” as often as possible. To tune into the feeling, perhaps discover other energy fields. It was during that time that I became aware of “grounding” and connecting myself with the earth. I could literally feel the healing enter my body, while worries drained from me.

My crazy retail life was beyond stressful and I was chasing someone else’s dream. I was a general manager for a prestigious, well known beauty store and couldn’t have carried more responsibility back. For what? To prove that I could do it, to be a foreigner successful in another country, to be validated, to not having to turn every penny? It came with a hefty price tag, one I wouldn’t be willing to pay again. Peace at home had long vanished into a failed marriage, merely living as roommates, stuck in shared responsibilities and obligations. Luckily I was never alone, and I never had to deal with it all on my own. I would have managed and I’m not afraid of being alone, but this was so much better and I had the most amazing support system, my saving grace.

Coming to Germany, there is no doubt that I missed my support system and “The Vortex”. I no longer worked physically, but the mental aspects would prove equally as challenging, if not more. There was little to feel good about in the beginning, and the house was neglected, including a garden overgrown with years full of weeds. In Mom’s defense I like to add that none of this was done purposely, it merely happened because she physically couldn’t do it anymore. If you have read prior posts, you know about Moms attachment to the house. I imagine it was very tough for her to watch it go down hill. Mom had always maintained high standards when it came to cleanliness, and we always joked about that you could easily eat off of the floor and be fine. Those times had passed, and I’m sure she struggled with it.

So here I was, with no Vortex, no place to really go to recharge. Energy was used up daily, but not replenished, I knew eventually I would run on empty. There is a place in Mittenwald that definitely has a Vortex, but it’s also several hours worth a train ride away from here. I was lucky to have gone twice, and I felt the energy of my mountains both times. Luckily there is also Rothenburg which is much closer and has a Vortex as well. It differs from my mountain Vortex, but nevertheless it is a place I feel my soul belongs. Here again, I feel a connection to the medieval era, the music, the simple life in regards to having less. Perhaps another prior life.

Eventually the “Savannah” which I called the weed overgrown backyard was transformed and became what I call the Fairy Garden today. The cobwebs were pushed back to give way to a colorful little space with a magical mushroom forest, a place for fairies, and new life contained within my outdoor shrine. The walkway in the middle of it which feels like the main aorta, the heart of the space became visible once again to breath new life into the area. At one point a hammock was strung from the fence pole to the barn, which allowed for carefree hanging out amongst the flowers. Bees which are endangered and fewer in Germany came to visit. The natural water source was replenished daily and showed signs of usage over night. Tiny hummingbirds and butterflies moved in shortly after, intoxicated from the sweet flower nectar the would find from sown, late blooming flowers. A little Vortex was created and still, I love to sit and oversee the garden in complete silence. To watch the daylight cease, casting it’s last glow and making way to a starry night. It’s peaceful and serene, my way of meditating, welcoming new blooms, and letting it all fall to the wayside for a few moments. To be still and notice what has changed on a daily basis. Although the clearing most likely made Betsy (hedgehog) flee and relocate to thicker underbrush once more. I haven’t seen her around lately and it’s been quiet.

The little Fairy Garden Vortex is bittersweet. It’s a place to enjoy and just be for awhile, but also a place to get caught up in nostalgia and to reminisce about times that have come and gone. It’s a place to notice the ever changing winds of time and the chill they can carry when your heart feels alone. A chill that should be shared to lessen it’s frostbites on your heart.

PS. And I know that I’m truly never really alone and thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Xoxoxo 💙🦋


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

21 thoughts on “The Vortex – Part 3 – The fairy garden

  1. Oh my sister of light, this is such a bittersweet post. Your closing statement on your fairy garden Vortex…

    “It’s a place to notice the ever changing winds of time and the chill they can carry when your heart feels alone. A chill that should be shared to lessen it’s frostbites on your heart.”…

    Please know that we hear you and know how this feels. On the one hand, feeling past life slip away (the good with the bad) and being faced with the unknown but feeling that it is also filled with opportunity whilst returning to childhood spaces.

    Life can be challenging and its twists and turns not always predictable, but life gives us an opportunity to connect to different physical and communicative experiences. It is something that death and between life does not offer.

    Your Vortex is for your regeneration from that other world (the soup of life energy in pure form) so that you can rejoice in life no matter the circumstances. The happiest people in the world are they that have experienced life’s bitter-sweet moments because they are the people who also know that life must balance… Light/Dark, Good/Bad, Yin/Yang, etc. For without one, you cannot recognise the other. 😊

    Enjoy the fairies…

    Enjoy your rejeneration…

    Be well. ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

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    1. Such sweet words of wisdom once more my sister and you are reading right “the stars can’t shine without darkness” and without challenges we would never be able to tell the difference. Life would be the same, always.
      Please know how grateful
      I am for sharing your light, for recognizing the battle in all its glorious moments as well as moments where I lay my weapons down. Thank you for being there and for always cheering me on and having something kind to say Colette.
      Xoxoxo hugs dear sister


  2. A glimpse into your previous life here, so intriguing, I wish I had known you so much longer. Well, I have in the soul but I mean in the current personality. I have, from time to time contemplated you sitting in your garden as the stars come out, soaking in the stillness as the dusk turns to night.
    Two thoughts struck me reading your post, the first, have you got a pendulum or something you could use for one, a pendant, maybe? If so, get a local map and see if you can divine another powerpoint or vortex in your vicinity, closer than Mittenwald, that you can go and visit to recharge. They each have a distinct energy, so it will give you something different to your garden. If you like, I can do this for you?
    The second thought, I have been getting hot flashes lately, so you can share that chill with me, I’d appreciate a real good cool down, my dear one. xx

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    1. You have seen an accurate picture beloved, as I have sat and welcomed the night. I’m drawn to stars and the moon, so it seems like the perfect place to bring all together.
      I wished we could have met earlier as well, but I am grateful and beyond happy that we have now. Better late then never, although I’d find you a thousand times over and over.
      I have found another Vortex in Rothenburg and another small one the other day. I will post about it soon. Problem still is the transportation issues, plus the weather is turning.
      I would love to scope out other areas near me sometime. 😉 I have no pendulum and if you get bored sometime, I’d love to hear what areas might come up. Xoxo

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      1. Looking forwards to that post. I am intrigued to hear how you are finding vortexes, are you feeling them, seeing them? I’ll see if I can find one near you on the map and let you know. xx

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      2. I’m sorry to say I’ve shied off finding one for you on the map, a recent scare has put me off, I think you should continue to find them your way, then they are found with your heart, what can be better than that? xx

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      3. Writing you right now. If you are talking about what I think you are, then don’t be afraid. You are powerful beyond means to deal with those messages and you know they are a part of any journey we take. Whatever level
        it might be. Xo

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  3. Again, thanks so much for sharing your story, Rhapsody. I understand the pull, the need to please your mother, to make time stand still, yet when I look at this gorgeous photograph and the others, and think about what you created with your never-constant Fairy Garden, I find it is spinning so far above a mark on a staircase.

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    1. Oh my goodness Steve, you are so, so kind. I appreciate you and you made my day with your warm comment. I don’t even know what to say (and that doesn’t happen a whole lot) but thank you from the bottom of my heart.
      Wishing you a beautiful weekend my friend.

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