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Good enough

What ended in near panic last week, all worked itself out to a beautiful start of a new week. I’m still surprised I could get the repair of the blind done in record speed, and at minimal cost. I got lucky and I’m most grateful an appointment could be made this quickly. It is back in working order and my hiking stick is returned to where it belongs vs. being wedged under the door lock. I feel safer at night and another measure of security has been added.

I realize that it was mostly me who caused my own hell yesterday. I reacted to years of fear, angst to disappoint Mom, fused with a desire to please her, as well as a yearning for acceptance. My reaction showed that my no exception policy I try to keep when it very es to Mom is not fully in place yet, nor may it ever be. I’m not sure if I can give it up completely. It will be as if all hope has vanished if I do, and there will always be a part that wants that mother – daughter relationship to be closer. I’m contempt to know that not all days are equal. There will be moments of vulnerability, and I’m allowing myself to be human, to make mistakes, to not be perfect. Life, and these very challenges are not perfect, and in return they don’t deserve perfect actions. What I manage one day, might be my downfall the next. I’m ok that the results will vary, knowing that I will always do my best. And you know what? It’s good enough any day….and most of all I’m good enough.

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We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

21 thoughts on “Good enough

  1. To say you are good enough is akin to saying the sea is wet enough. The sea is very wet, it’s wetter than the wettest wet, it’s dripping with wetness, it’s wetness is indisputable, no-one would ever say it’s wet enough because that’s a measure of wetness when there’s so much wetness it cannot be measured. Same is true of your goodness, it’s beyond measure. To say ‘enough’ can only, therefore, be your subjective opinion of your feelings about yourself, and that is not cognizant with the facts of reality as, for example, I see them and I think others do. Please appreciate, we have the advantage of detachment.
    ‘Good’ is also subjective: “possessing or displaying moral virtue; that which is morally right; having the required qualities, of a high standard; to be desired or approved of.”
    So, to help you measure your goodness by seeing it reflected in the eyes of another, please know, you are amongst the most compassionate, loving, caring and giving human beings I have ever had the privilege to get to know. You have left your job, your home, travelled across the world, given up your friends, forgone your income, you have opened your heart to fate and faith in deciding how long your sacrifice will take, you have not given up, however hard your journey got, you have continued to search incessantly for ways to bring love and light to others, whether your nearest and dearest and you have shared your entire story with people who you don’t even know, enabling others to benefit from your experience, love and truth.
    Sorry to be going on about this, but I desire so strongly for you to understand how others see you. As are we all, you point out that you are a human being, you hurt, you feel, you suffer, whether in your heart or in your mind. Thank heaven you are giving yourself a break and you put it so beautifully, so insightfully and wisely too. Thank you, my teacher, you have taught me and given me a gift with these words: “Life, and these very challenges are not perfect, and in return they don’t deserve perfect actions.” I will use these words for my own learning and growth and, once again, your goodness is apparent in the act of your giving and my receiving. May you always be thrice blessed, precious sister. x

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    1. Oh my goodness, how could I ever reply back to this in words that give any magnitude to all the compliments you shower me with. I am speechless and it almost feels serene to be loved and valued like this. To say the least, I am not used to it. Thank you so much my dear soul sister. My heart is so full because of you and I can t help but smile when I think of you, see a comment or an email. You have been a blessing from day one and somewhere along the lines I feel wonderful, knowing I did something right to be blessed in the way of crossing paths with you. Sending many blessings your way, carrying you in light and love. Xo

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      1. It’s clearly time for you to get used to being loved and appreciated. It’s happening, so you might as well enjoy it, there’s going to be plenty of opportunities. 🙂 xx

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  2. I’ve really been enjoying the last few posts you’ve written, because your storytelling brings emotions, a true introspection, gratitude, kindness, creativity and demonstrate lots of courage. Perfect example how to be effective in your message but most of all a perfect example how to be in the moment, be here now for yourself and others. That’s what you do daily, Margit. Be proud of it as it is exceptional. xoxo

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    1. Your comment gave me chills and means so much my dear. With life being tough and challenges most times, it is difficult to bring the storytelling element into play. I couldn’t be any happier if I did manage to do so and I know I have to credit it to my heart, where usually my posts are generated.
      Thank you so much dearest, you have made my week. Xoxoxo

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      1. Thank you so much love. I still struggle reading you on the iPad and it’s hit and miss. Very few times it’s ok, but most times it freezes up and doesn’t allow me to see your posts. Frustrating, but just think of me being here anyways and being a huge fan of you. Much love, catch up when the stars align. Xo

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      2. You are the first to report this problem on the iPad. I will ask others if they are having the same difficulty and try to solve the problem. Of course I know that you are always there for me. No worries. 💙🌷 Have a great week, Margit.

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      3. I’ve shared once before I think with you. It has only happened here in Germany and with the spotty WiFi, so it could be something different all together. Just weird that it happens when I visit your site. Let me know if there is something you find out. Xo

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