“Forgive yourself for not being at peace. The moment you completely accept your non-peace, it is translated into peace.
Anything you accept fully will get you there, will take you into peace. This is the miracle of surrender.”
For as long as I remember I always identified with quotes. The message of wisdom newly discovered from thyself, but long discovered by old wise souls, put on paper to forever memorialized in a message. Perhaps it’s the feeling of identifying with one another, the feeling of reassurance and knowing to be on the same track others have found before us. Or the feeling of not being alone. We fight for so much and for me personally it has been a year of great challenges.
Mom is struggling today and although I know where it is coming from, it’s very tough to watch and endure. I try to calm, defend, to justify, and to plead. I fight for understanding. Nothing matters and the hits keep coming. There is no appreciation for anything I have done, and gratitude is replaced by insults. Today is a tough day and the best I can do is to surrender. Easier said then done, it requires work. But I’m aware and that is all that matters. Today I have to let time do it’s healing. I forgive myself for not being perfect, for not finding it all that easy, for struggling with the pain those blows can cause and the unjust feeling they leave behind. I will seek peace through it all and today and as always, I forgive not only myself but Mom as well.