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Lost and found

We might find ourselves lost and found on numerous occasions throughout the journey of life. It all depends, and there are times that I love to get lost, to escape it all. To breathe deeply and reconnect with what truly matters. Other times may feel more painful and we feel lost in the sense of not knowing where to turn next. Sometimes our inspiration seizes and we feel dull and uninspired. Life catches up and leaves us struggling and fighting. And then it passes and the light goes on once more. Life is pulsating through our veins and we feel found again. Life goes on….

A comment from my dear sister Colette made me pause the other day as she responded to a recent post. I was talking about a few latest obsessions and she mentioned that it appeared that I was finding my way back to myself again. It made me think at first, and soon I knew that she was right. I couldn’t really say anymore what my blog was about. It had become a mishmash of things, a journal to my daily life. From a place of inspiration, it had turned into a documentary. Some of the stats even dropped since I came to Germany, and although I care and hope to reach whoever needs to be reached, numbers and results are secondary, especially at this point when my priority needs to be elsewhere. Still it matters and Colette made me think with her words. I found that I had missed spreading that content that is mainly fueled by inspiration. I had missed myself, I was lost in a sense. And then, thank you to her comment the light went on and she brought to the forefront what I already felt. Life is full of bits and pieces, moments of joy and moments of pain, being lost so we can be found again. Everything plays a part and some are to be enjoyed more than others. It’s a natural process in learning who we are. Without darkness there is no light. And sometimes we find ourselves again within some of our latest obsessions. The passions for something or someone that makes our hearts beat faster. Those are the moments to cherish, the ones to hold on to, the ones where we are always truest to ourselves. How could we ever be truly lost in that?

The garden lights are ready 😉


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

6 thoughts on “Lost and found

    1. Thank you very much, it’s stop and go. The highest of highs and at times the lowest of lows. I guess it’s all part of it. I will be gone a few days but catch up once I return. Love and light dear one. Xo

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  1. A perspective in life we can all relate to, beautifully expressed. The synchronicity of you writing this is pretty much gob-smacking for me personally. Last night I did a meditation to find myself again because I had been feeling lost. First, I opened myself to the innocence of my soul, then connected to the energy within me that is the vibrancy of Life from which I started to find my trust again. My trust lifted me up, enabling the blockages and limitations to be dissolved and I found clarity again. This morning, I read your words; “Life is pulsating through our veins and we feel found again.” How do you do it?! That is what I did last night to a tee!
    What you say about the changes to your blog, mirrors the changes (and losses) to your life, since you entered into and are fulfilling a personal soul quest instead. I know you would not choose differently, when returning to the old hurts and doing what needs to be done, we are freeing ourselves in a different manner than the freedom of the sierras, even if the views are not so good. Your blog has always been about your soul’s journey, it still is. I love what and how you write, I love your photos and I love you. x

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    1. Isn’t it amazing how it always ends up working out? How we experience similar things at the same time and just seem to understand what the other is facing at any given time. Just another confirmation that we are on the same vibration and wave lengths and it’s a beautiful thing my friend. I take comfort in knowing that I’m not alone and excitement in sharing hide things with someone that understands all too well.
      And you are right, there are many different ways we free ourselves and this has been a journey for all and freeing ourselves of the shackles and burdens of the past. It toon years to manifest it won’t go away overnight.
      Thank you for your kind words. I love you, always. Xo

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  2. I watched “Collateral Beauty” today. Ultimately, the plot ended in such a way that the movie didn’t have as much impact as it could’ve, in my opinion. I was struck, however, by the open and closing scenes of the dominoes. The dominoes get stacked in intricate designs by the main character, only for him to tip them over after building them. Isn’t that a beautiful metaphor for life? We build and create, life comes in, we find ourselves grieving the life we had, then we begin to build and create again. I’m glad you’re coming home to yourself.

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    1. A beautiful comparison and you are so right. Life is a circle and I once heard that we try and try over and over until we get it right. Most lessons are learned from hardships and perhaps we wouldn’t even notice otherwise and the impact would be no significant. I always say that adversity ultimately molds us into the people we are meant to become.


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