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A simple view

The helicopters are flying heavily today and are reminders on how it all began. I used to work at Storck Barracks in the barber shop, and it was where my journey to the US started. Today the helicopters are flying, circling my window and making me think of how all the things, big and small lead us down one path or another.

The view from my childhood room is a simple one. Although it has nothing special to offer, I have come to enjoy the sight of the old barn. Recently I started to leave the blinds up at night to enjoy the stars, or the moonlight shining into the room. It’s nothing much and yet it brings a feeling of content. I’m getting more comfortable in the house, and little by little I’m putting back together a household that has not been fully functional since Mom’s sickness progressed. Once again Moni, (my cousin) was as a lifesaver and we made huge progress today. Another step closer and things are falling into place.

Is hard to believe that four weeks have past since I arrived. I have resisted little and learned even more to go with the flow. I always believed life to be easier this way, and it has become even more obvious how important this virtue truly is to me. In other observance, I believe that my time here has taught me to appreciate the little things even more and I love it. The simplest things, such as a smile from Mom, walking down memory lane with her and singing old tunes, are the most treasured gifts these days, and I’m glad I came to Germany when I did. Mom is stable now, but was close to dying. I think she knows how close she came, and this near death experience has changed her for the better.


We are the co-creators of our life and the time is now. More than ever are we needed to support Mother Earth and each other. Together we discover and explore our unique gifts in times of strengths, in times we lean on each other, and in times when we learn from each other. This blog started as an outlet and what I ultimately called my “Warriors Journey.” It was a way to document the ups and downs of my life, sharing my hardships as well as my successes. It showcased the struggles, but more important the ways of how to overcome them. Although we are warriors each and every day, I realized that having to be a warrior, comes from a place of pain. I decided to rename this blog, and “Phoenix Rising” now stands for the story of overcoming such a painful place. My motivation for this blog hasn’t changed and I hope to share inspiration and hope, to create a sense of belonging, a space of being heard, and connecting with like minded beings who instill a sense of oneness. We are never alone, and we are unstoppable in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. Who I am in a nutshell... 
I am an energy healer and Reiki Master. I am surviving a chronic disease that I’ve sent into remission three times since my initial bout, 15 years ago. I continuously challenge the status quo and by doing so I change my stars. I am a believer that anything is possible. I am a hopeless romantic and I believe that true love exists on various levels. I am an optimist that will always see the glass as half full. I am a dreamer, believing in endless possibilities. Not even the sky is the limit. I have jumped off of the hamster wheel, and I am writing a new chapter. I am chasing my Nirvana to support my most authentic self. This is my story, I am that Phoenix and I am rising from the ashes. Namaste 🙏🏼💙🦋

11 thoughts on “A simple view

    1. As you know I had to grow up very quickly and in a way it is now as if I can relive some of my childhood through the eyes of an adult now. There are tender and soft spots within that will always remain and which are being nourished right now. Family is amazing and something special, although I have found family in many of you in a different form. Thank you. I have considered moving but for now there are many lose ends in the states that require attention should I ever decide to move permanently.

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    1. 😉 yes it was back in the days of the Movie “An officer and Gentleman”. I fell in love with an officer who in the end was no gentleman at all. Haaaa. Such is life I guess. Thank you for your kind words about Mom. She is so much better by now. Xoxo

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  1. This is a beautiful journey you are on. I am so happy you are sharing it with us. It’s so hard as our parent or parents age. Prospectives change and it’s scary. I’m so glad you are enjoying your time there and your childhood memories. Many blessings to you and your mom. I am so happy she is doing better.

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    1. Thank you so much Lisa, it truly is a journey of a lifetime. It’s hard but I’m ok with the progress. Not all days are equal, but in the end my peace comes from knowing that I’m doing everything that I can.

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