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Last light near San Francisco’s Golden Gate

This picture was taken the night before I left for Germany.

It’s been seven days since I got here, and it’s been a hell of a week. Tonight it is barely nine PM but im in bed and the stresses have finally caught up with me. I’m sick and what started with an overall sore throat, has left me feeling kind of lousy today. I didn’t get a chance to rest today and my day was filled with things about Mom. I need to find better balance and although I don’t work right now, I have had no time to myself and it’s been hectic.

Tonight I hope to get rested so I can wake up refreshed for another day.



Who am I, and why I write. I’m a dreamer and I’m not the only one. I am the one holding on to the silver lining when the skies are gray. I’m a believer that nothing is coincidence, but has purpose. I’ve made mistakes, and I see them as a part of who I am today. I have lost myself in order to find myself, and I still do from time to time. In a good way. I’m a big child who laughs until my belly hurts when life wants to be serious. Career wise: I’ve been there, done that, and I took “The jump” off of the hamster wheel to change my future. I didn’t land all that softly, but I still did it. Coming full circle, I had it all, and yet I was lonely and had nothing. Today I choose to be a collector of memories and I chase moments, instead of martial stuff. Less is more, and I prefer quality over quantity. You’d be amazed at how freeing it can be. Talking about free, I see myself as a free spirit that believes in an unconventional lifestyle. I find myself going against the grain most of the times, not to rebel, but because it feels right to stay true to my unique and authentic self. It takes courage, and you often stand alone, but if you find a way, you soon realize that it is the only way to not lose who you are.
My past wasn’t easy and I come from a life that didn’t always give me the opportunity to be heard. Few related and even fewer cared to take the time. But now I believe that the past is history, the future hasn’t happened and the “NOW” is truly all we ever have. In the end I realize that we all have a story to tell, and we all seek to be understood. We all yearn to be heard, to be accepted, and to find our spot in life. We try hard to fit in, some to the point of acting out of character, playing by the rules of what we think society expects of us. Until we wake one day, feeling empty and lost, with our life passing right in front of us. It’s never too late to change your stars, and it was my toughest moments, who turned out to be my greatest teachers.
They say that the stars can’t shine without darkness, and it was darkness who has shown me the light.
It took a series of (un)fortunate events, to learn to glow through the pain, to learn how to dance in the rain. I believe in Magic and wonder, and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. As an empath this old soul often feels a little too much, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Today, I am here to tell my story because I believe that it can help others. It is my hope to bring inspiration and strengths to you, while showing you that it can be done. I know you are out there, and I know you are suffering in silence. I am here to tell you that you are not alone, and your voice is being heard loud and clear. Hang on and be strong, transformation is yours. 
In light and love....Rhapsody Bohème 💙🦋

24 thoughts on “Last light near San Francisco’s Golden Gate

  1. What wonderful picture, Rhapsody! It almost looks like a painting… Amazing 🙂

    I am sorry to read that the past week has been so rough on you… I am sending you my most positive thoughts, so that the days to come will give you a chance to rest a bit!

    *Love and hugs*

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    1. Thank you love, most appreciated and loved. I am hanging in there the best I can and life is moving fast with time running out. Thank you for your special wishes and for always being such a true friend. Xoxoxo

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  2. Love that photo–Restful.
    I know exactly where you are (well, not like on a map. I’m very bad with maps) and I hate you are there. I never want people to do what we are doing. I’m not going to tell you what you know about rest and taking care of yourself. It is sometimes the last thing you can do. Sending my heart, compassion, and prayers to you. love always and always.

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    1. That alone and having someone wonderful like yourself, knowing and understanding where I am, gives me the wings and strengths to go on. I feel at times as if I’m in shock and I know it’s my body trying to protect the soul within me from feeling too much of what I might not be able to handle. I’m strong when I need to be and I know now how Mom must have felt many years ago. She kept all,the crap away from me, being strong when she needed to be and crying (I’m sure, although I never heard or seen it) behind closed doors. The roles have reversed and it is me now who doesn’t show the pain in front of her.

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    1. Thank you Joseph, for stopping by and your comment. I have though much about you over the past week and the advice you have given me in regards to a transition into a home etc. I will write about it as soon as I can. Thank you.

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