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The paintings of my life

I started painting roughly 10 years ago. I always enjoyed arts and crafts and the process of creation, but I never explored it on the levels of painting acrylic on canvas. In fact, I never really painted much at all. Looking back to my childhood, I remember coloring books and enjoying the soothing effects they had on my soul during those peaceful hours spent, getting lost in the process of adding color to the shapes and outlines of the pages. Those times have long past and occasionally I manage  to pull out the adult coloring books, even though it happens rarely.

I recall a point when my life changed, seemingly overnight. I hit a rough patch and had just said goodbye to one of my beloved dogs. You have to understand that I share a deep connection to all animals and pets become family, often living better then some people. I felt lost and the pain seemed unbearable at the time, threatening to rip my heart apart, I just couldn’t get over. I don’t know how it came to be, but I started to paint. It was an outlet, a form of expression while bringing me the same kind of peace that I had felt as a child, engaged in my coloring books. The process itself was much different than the one prior and this time it was me who was creating my own images. There was no need to stay within the controlled lines even though some had outlines, others didn’t and were flowing freely. It was relief, as if my soul poured out into whatever it was that I was painting at the time. To this day I can look at each one of my paintings and feel a personal connection. They tell the story of my journey and remind me that beautiful things are often born out of adversity. Talents are discovered as well as passions and a distraction to help us cope. A gentle soul, someone that is easily moved on an emotional level, the strong warriors that walk among us, the ones wise beyond their years, they all have seen a great deal of adversity and pain and they all have a story to tell.

I feel the call from time to time when I haven’t painted in awhile. Almost as if another painting is due, and another chapter is closing. There is a thirst for the feeling and the exploration of discovering new things. It starts with an idea and with a choice of what speaks to me. I miss it right now and painting has become such a beautiful and rewarding aspect. Much has happened since my last painting and after Germany I will make it a priority to paint whatever calls me.

I came across this video from Jim Carrey and it spoke to my heart. I relate to his words and his need for color in life. It also reminded me of myself and I believe that art should always portray what moves the artist. While there is no wrong or right in artistry, there must be heart and like with anything and without heart there is no enjoyment and no connection. It’s also something that I love to advise new writers on. The ones that correct and revise their body of work a hundred times in order to get it right. I’ve done it myself and you will drive yourself crazy. You see, it’s not always the perfection that matters, but the heart and the soul that is conveyed and shines through your words. How could this ever be wrong?

 


Here are a few of my paintings and their titles. All of them signified challenging times, but there are funny ones within the collection for another post. 😉


“Feeling blue”

“The strings of my heart”

“Chasing love”

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I'm a dreamer and hopeless romantic who believes that there is always a silver lining to everything. Now, inspired by the simple life, I have learned that less is more and that we find magic all around us if we take the time to notice. Life is a journey and a process that is ever changing. We are constantly evolving in the matter of who we are as we align our stars and shed a past no longer in line with our highest self. I don't easily fit conventional norms, not because I'm a rebel, but because of resenting the pull that threatens to take me away from my true beliefs and my unique personal identity. I support the power of "Choice" and the ability for us to be the architects of our own lives. Some of these choices should have something a little wild about them as they form the moments that forever stay edged in our memory and make our hearts beat with wonder. Nobody will remember the ordinary. For myself, I'm a warrior who has fallen many times, who has gone through trails an tribulations and who is no stranger to adversity. After all, my choice remains clear, to get back up and stand stronger than ever. To recognize that it often takes our darkest moments to mold us into who we were meant to be. I have learned to trust the process and stay positive through the challenges. I trust it to be the only way to prevent my heart from hardening and allowing bitterness to creep in. I believe in the power of "NOW" as it is the only moment we truly ever have. The past is gone, unchangeable and the future hasn't happened yet. All we can impact is the current moment. Everything starts with a choice and hopefully with one that has something wild about it and may even scare you to death to execute. DO IT...I promise you won't regret it. This blog is my voice to share my Journey. If I could describe this adventure in short, I would call it "Spiritual awakening" with a yearning for "Freedom" and going after the things that truly matter. To seek a less complicated life that is stripped down from the many obligations and responsibilities that often tie us down. For me it is a life free of rules and regulations, one that allows me to escape the must expectations while jumping off the hamster wheel that is spinning faster all the time. To be on my own time and live each day to the fullest, to make it all slow down by banishing routine and unleashing my creativity/artistic values in an effort to entertain whatever subject comes to mind. And if lucky, to perhaps offer a different view to my readers, one that speaks to your soul vs. the demands of what society might expect. It is one that empowers you to be your unique self and follow the beat of your own drum. I am dreaming big as I trail blaze the path to a new life and becoming a storyteller. I find my inspiration in the little things in life, in Mother Nature and on the trail that provides the adventures and the backdrop for a book someday. My hope is to inspire "Courage" in others who might find themselves on the brink of taking that first step. This blog serves as a foundation for my collection of personal thoughts, opinions and experiences and by no means am I an expert on any topics mentioned. To my readers I would say that the universe connects us by a common thread, we all search and we all have something to say. We don't always have to meet in person to share a strong bond and people enter our path for a reason. Some stay for a short time and serve their purpose, while others teach us a lesson and help us become stronger through experience. And a few special ones remain as the treasures we hold dear over a lifetime and touch our hearts beyond means. In whatever way we are meant to be, I thank you for crossing my path and for stopping by. I hope that I have left you inspired, full of wonder and with a few "Wild Choices" to make....Hugs XO

36 thoughts on “The paintings of my life

    1. Thank you again, it’s a lot of fun as well as it is relaxing for me. Awhile ago I tried a new technique where you try not to think at all. You grab your canvas and just add color and whatever comes to mind…(awe, sneaky, you had to think in order for that to happen). But seriously you just go with whatever draws you in and see what emerges. It’s interesting and easier said then done.

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      1. Two perfect ingredients, fun and relaxing. Isn’t it great when for brief moments we stop thinking and just do something. We have a tendency to over think at times and ruin beautiful moments. We know what you mean about it being easier said then done. Seems though you are getting a handle on it so keep it up.

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    1. Thank you Shelly, this truly means a lot to me as I thought for a long time they were just childlike scribbles. I look back at them and feel as if I have grown into the message of my paintings. Maybe I was guided at times but nevertheless they are a part of my journey.

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  1. I had no idea you were an artist! Your work is very evocative and makes me feel like I know you a little bit better now. ❤️ I really liked the idea of letting go of the need for perfection. I am always collecting art supplies with the idea that I’ll do something when I feel like I can do something well. Of course, I never feel like it would be “good enough” so I never start a piece. This is really motivating! Thanks for sharing my dear.

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    1. Awe Linda this is so sweet, thank you. I collect art supplies too and often it’s odds and ends here and there that years later find their rightful place in a project. We share this passion as well 😉 and you definitely need to start a piece. Who is to judge if it’s good enough and who determines that? Don’t be your worst critic and shut yourself down before having the chance to succeed. There is no wrong or right in art and you can’t fail. You’ll feel liberated and I guarantee you’ll enjoy it. Just stop thinking lol. I wanna see a piece when I get back from Germany and you have better not forgotten me by then. 😉 you gave homework to do my dear.

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      1. That I am haha and I’d be the first to admit it. Haven’t you heard that crazy is the news black hahaha. See…I’m totally nuts lol.
        But jokes aside you know what your words mean to you and I gladly return them and a huge hug back to you as my heart feels the same. 💙🦋😉

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    1. Awe thank you so much Darren, that’s very kind. I know what you mean with the last one “Chasing Love” and it’s a self portrait of me chasing after my mother’s love, with it always being out of reach. That’s why I picked the dark, haunting paint and it is the way it is.

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