That’s exactly what a mean customer told me the other day. Snapping his fingers at me, he motioned me to hurry up while saying “I need a little less talk and more action out of you”. I’m one of the fastest and most efficient workers, not that I would have to justify my curtious initial and brief chatter such as saying hello to the man. It was rather incredible and honestly I was taken aback and appalled by his behavior. “Wow” was all I could silently mumble in my mind. I work in the service industry, so let me just be your servant right now while I allow you to talk to me as if I was your slave, crossed my mind. I’ve been around this behavior for so long, I should be used to it and I’m surprised he managed to get to me. I was caught off guard and I was fairly disgusted I must say. Now, with a few days passed, I feel a few developments that might have sparked from this interaction and his comment. I do feel sorry for the poor little man that thinks it is acceptable behavior to treat others like this and instead of saying something smart back, I have long released the toxic energy of that encounter. I’m free and it’s just a reminder that not all are so fortunate to find their way and are stuck within their own terror. They need us for guidance.It made me ponder some things and the connection might surprise you of how this incident relates to me and my own life. As this faithful little blog has grown to nearly 900 followers, it and you, have embraced my love for writing. You have followed the adventures of my hikes, the pictures, my thoughts and the opinions of my mind along this personal journey of mine. A platform to develop my writing has become a great teacher and I hope to have made some progress. I’m beyond grateful to have met so many wonderful people near and dear to me who have allowed my voice to be heard. I could never thank you enough. I have enjoyed the feedback from you while being allowed to return the same kindness to you through my experiences and my personal growth. It’s been an honor, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
A habit formed and I usually post twice a day. I can no longer do so for a variety of reasons. And while I enjoy writing and could easily spend all day doing what I love, I do have a job that consumes a big part of my time. I feel that I have done a lot of talking, but my actions have fallen short. I’m talking about my actions in the form of keeping up with you and your own writing that is very important to me. I have awards pending, recognition that has come from you and which I have not answered due to simply not having the time to cram it all in. I have been invited for guest submissions by other fellow bloggers and for the most part this has fallen silent as well. I can only hope that it doesn’t come across as if it wasn’t interested or appreciate. To myself, it appears ungrateful and that is not what I want, nor do I want to justify or excuse my lack of thereof. I hope you know how much it means to be considered and solicited for my input. I hope you know how special it is to me to be considered worthy of such recognition. You have gone out of your way with unbelievable acts of kindness by sending things to my house to help guide me in my journey. Things that have touched my heart beyond means. Have I managed to properly thank you for your kindness? In my mind I think not. So going forward I will try to post once a day, but spend more time reading up on you. It’s important to me and allows me to stay in touch with what is going on in your world. It’s not and it never has been all about me and without you I would be nothing.
Second, I don’t want to post just for the sake of posting. I hope to keep the content somewhat of value, relevant, fun and without fillers that don’t need to be there.
Third, I need more time to balance creative outlets. I miss painting and expressing my artistic side in more than one way. I miss pushing my boundaries through my photography and broaden my toolbox of techniques, tips and tricks. I think I have the vision of what I want to capture through my viewfinder, but I need the time to bring it to life through practice.
Fourth, I’m going to Germany, gee…I need to start packing lol. I’m less than two month out, hahaha. I’m excited, but I already miss you and the blog will fall mostly silent during my 2 1/2 week stay. Maybe here and there I will be able to post a picture if I’m near WiFi at my cousins house, but it will be very limited. I can only hope that what we built together won’t be forgotten during that time.
Fifth, and none of this is listed in any particular order, I have friends I feel who need me and who I might have not always been there in the capacity I should. They might tell you different, but by my own standards, I can do much better and need to be lucky and appreciative to have friends who need me to be in their life’s. I have two friends struggling with their health, that need guidance and support and I will be more active. Bryan, you got this my friend and Irene, your hospital stay and not even knowing about it was a wake up call. Sending much love and healing vibes your ways.
And lastly, the RA (Rheumatoid Arthritis) has attacked my right hand and it’s a B….to type. Painful, but smart as I am, I figure I just dictate and try voice recognition. Mmmmh, I do have an accent and so little bear becomes little brat and enemy become enema and that sort of thing. It takes on a whole new meaning and I should just leave it sometime as I’m sure it would make for one hilarious post, instead of spending so much time to correct it. Or maybe I should just post in German sometime, hahaha, probably equally amusing and these days I think I speak better English than my own language. It will take a bit to get back into the swing of things after arriving in Frankfurt and I don’t mind making my family laugh at my proper German. I’ll gladly be the laughing stock as long as there is something to laugh at.
So here we have it and here is my silver lining to this mean comment from the other day. It opened my eyes to apply the remark to my own life and you will see more involvement from me and a little less talk. 😉. Thank you for your continued support, your understanding and always being there for me. You are a great bunch I’m blessed to have encountered and you mean the world. Xoxoxo love you all ❤🦋