Posted in Disaster, Loss

Too close for comfort

Today had some scary moments that definitely came too close for comfort. Whatever my system was fighting, was still making me feel less than a 100%, but it was better than the day before and off to work I went. I struggled a few times and honestly, I wished I could have called in sick. But I couldn’t and to offset my nausea, I drank more water than usual in the hopes of staying hydrated and help with the dizziness. I made it by and soon I would learn that there were even bigger worries to be concerned about. Around 4PM I found out that yet another wildfire had started, the ninth one within the last ten days. Although it is wildfire season for us, I don’t remember ever seeing so many right after another. People are beginning to speculate if someone is setting these fires on purpose, as it is hard to believe and what are the chances that a wildfire erupts every day as a part of our daily routine. 

What was different about this one, was that it was dangerously close to my house. The freeway was closed already and there was no way getting to the house unless I was going to drive a giant loop, trying to circle the fire and come back to the house through another state, California. I contemplated getting back into the house one last time, as I was thinking about what I would take. Strangely very little came to mind as most things would be replaceable or had reached a point of where I wouldn’t want to replace them. I felt a strange combination of emotions wash over me as I couldn’t pinpoint exactly what I was feeling. A bit nervousness, sure, it’s not every day that your house is threatened to go up in flames and there was a little sadness as my mind had no problems countering up images of a past life gone up in smoke. Reduced to ashes with nothing left, gone. Of course this was exaggerated as there was plenty left, even if that would have happened, but our minds are powerful and the ego always love to portray the worst case scenario. For a moment I wondered if this was God’s way of helping me dissolve a household and clear the path for Germany. In a way, it was in that moment that I stopped worrying and once again found trust in my beliefs of that everything would find it’s way and would unfold how it was meant to be. I wouldn’t even try to interfere. 

I continued to check the phone periodically for updates and at one point learned that people within a couple of blocks from my house got evacuated. The fire was creeping closer, but eventually changed directions and was moving away from my house. I was sure I was amongst the 4000 people without power. I could sense it without knowing. I was off at 7PM and by 8:30PM the freeway finally opened up again and residents were allowed back to their houses. It was light enough driving home to see the charred up hill and how close the fire came to doing even worse destruction, messing with people’s livelihood. In the end 250 houses, 7 businesses and 10,000 residents were affected. It felt like a devastated area, driving through the black vegetation and the roads covered with red fire retardant. But those are minor things compared to what could have been and I have no complaints. I’m tired from not feeling well and I’m grateful that I can rest in my own bed, without further stress. Even the power was back on once I came into the house, as all electronics greeted me with flashing numbers to have their time reset. They are still flashing…

This was only the beginning 



I'm a dreamer and hopeless romantic who believes that there is always a silver lining to everything. Now, inspired by the simple life, I have learned that less is more and that we find magic all around us if we take the time to notice. Life is a journey and a process that is ever changing. We are constantly evolving in the matter of who we are as we align our stars and shed a past no longer in line with our highest self. I don't easily fit conventional norms, not because I'm a rebel, but because of resenting the pull that threatens to take me away from my true beliefs and my unique personal identity. I support the power of "Choice" and the ability for us to be the architects of our own lives. Some of these choices should have something a little wild about them as they form the moments that forever stay edged in our memory and make our hearts beat with wonder. Nobody will remember the ordinary. For myself, I'm a warrior who has fallen many times, who has gone through trails an tribulations and who is no stranger to adversity. After all, my choice remains clear, to get back up and stand stronger than ever. To recognize that it often takes our darkest moments to mold us into who we were meant to be. I have learned to trust the process and stay positive through the challenges. I trust it to be the only way to prevent my heart from hardening and allowing bitterness to creep in. I believe in the power of "NOW" as it is the only moment we truly ever have. The past is gone, unchangeable and the future hasn't happened yet. All we can impact is the current moment. Everything starts with a choice and hopefully with one that has something wild about it and may even scare you to death to execute. DO IT...I promise you won't regret it. This blog is my voice to share my Journey. If I could describe this adventure in short, I would call it "Spiritual awakening" with a yearning for "Freedom" and going after the things that truly matter. To seek a less complicated life that is stripped down from the many obligations and responsibilities that often tie us down. For me it is a life free of rules and regulations, one that allows me to escape the must expectations while jumping off the hamster wheel that is spinning faster all the time. To be on my own time and live each day to the fullest, to make it all slow down by banishing routine and unleashing my creativity/artistic values in an effort to entertain whatever subject comes to mind. And if lucky, to perhaps offer a different view to my readers, one that speaks to your soul vs. the demands of what society might expect. It is one that empowers you to be your unique self and follow the beat of your own drum. I am dreaming big as I trail blaze the path to a new life and becoming a storyteller. I find my inspiration in the little things in life, in Mother Nature and on the trail that provides the adventures and the backdrop for a book someday. My hope is to inspire "Courage" in others who might find themselves on the brink of taking that first step. This blog serves as a foundation for my collection of personal thoughts, opinions and experiences and by no means am I an expert on any topics mentioned. To my readers I would say that the universe connects us by a common thread, we all search and we all have something to say. We don't always have to meet in person to share a strong bond and people enter our path for a reason. Some stay for a short time and serve their purpose, while others teach us a lesson and help us become stronger through experience. And a few special ones remain as the treasures we hold dear over a lifetime and touch our hearts beyond means. In whatever way we are meant to be, I thank you for crossing my path and for stopping by. I hope that I have left you inspired, full of wonder and with a few "Wild Choices" to make....Hugs XO

14 thoughts on “Too close for comfort

  1. Thank you so much a d luckily everything turned out well. Had it not, I would have definitely grabbed Flint to rescue 😉. Have a beautiful day. More work for me today, tomorrow and Monday lol


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