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Reflecting to reshape 

It’s been a week of reflecting on multiple levels. A week that brought many thought provoking subjects in accordance to my recent post about “Timing, change and action”. It was a week of many contradictions, revelations and truths to be examined, and quite frankly it was a week that still leaves me a little baffled. I haven’t figured it all out yet.

It was a week of messages and signs, the pulls of an invisible web, the draw to something more that can’t be explained and put into words because it is yet to be understood. 

I felt tired and exhausted at times, mainly because my last vacation was September 2015. Tired in the physical sense but also in the mental aspect. Tired of the things that need changing and that no longer serve my life. Exhausted from the things that have dragged me down for so long and the vicious circle that needs to be broken once and for all. And yet, other times I felt stronger than I have in a long time. I was lucky I had both of my days off free to hiking and spending time outdoors. I tackled the trails without problems, in better shape and stronger then I did ten years ago. No rest needed on the continues climb uphill that stretched over three plus miles one way. 
I also had a few days in crippling pain and at times I didn’t know how I would make it through my shift at work. I felt the weather changing and the rain that was moving into the area. I felt the pressure drop and with it came the pain. But I also experienced a few days relatively pain free. At least compared to the pain that I have experienced over the past couple of weeks. In all honesty, there is always some level of pain, but it was so minor on these few blessed days, that I would consider them pain free. It was amazing, almost like claiming my life back, to realize the dream of thru hiking one of these days and to defy the odds of just making it happen. I pondered the days when I’m in pain, why and when, and the days when I’m free of it and feel better. Cause and reaction and I know what needs to change. I have arrived at the “action” point. 
I got to celebrate the birthday of a special friend in my life and I wouldn’t trade the moment. It has been a tough year (not my words) and I’m glad that I’m there in any way and form to make a difference. It’s a reminder of what is important and what truly matters, what life should be all about, what is good and what is missing to make these moments increase in frequency. 
I have been nominated for the versatile blogger award by a new sassy and feisty new follower. It never gets old to recognize the amazing honor which has been bestowed upon me and I feel humbled to be considered worthy. I’m grateful beyond words. Thank you. And yes, while I still have two other nominations pending, (I’m sorry) I will answer the call on this one to give my new blogger followers the insight they asked of me and to get to know each other better. It’s the least I can do while bringing attention to these new talents just are just starting out here on WordPress. Stay tuned….
My newest passion is that I have become obsessed with Tarot. Out of nowhere it is, but I believe it is another case of Devine intervention. The cards and the reading, the meaning and the guidance as if they have come into my life as yet another sign to help guide me on the path I’m meant to follow. People come into our life for a reason and I’m beyond excited to have a Tarot reading on Tuesday with a dear friend I met here on WordPress and who inspires me beyond words. I believe she is a part in my journey and is here to help guide me through the wisdom of the cards. My journey has been extraordinary and at times I feel as if I am walking a scene of Hansel & Gretel, following the bread crumbs left behind to help guide my way. Stay tuned, I can’t wait to share this experience with you and give credit to this amazing talent and friend. 
Another reflection amongst too many to mention was that there is simply not enough time for everything and if I want to make some serious strides, I can’t work full time. My job is getting in the way of what I need to do, it’s as simple as that. And yes, I have a plan. 

All in all it has come down to a choice and a decision that requires action. Here are the options….
1. Stay and continue on the same level as I have been will result in more pain, being a prisoner and peddling hard to stay on that ever faster spinning hamster wheel. For what? 
2. Or taking some drastic measures by jumping off that wheel to gain freedom, a life with less pressure and ultimately less pain. A life lived on my terms with more of the things that soothe my soul and bring happiness to my life. I might even live a little longer.

This should be a no brainer, right? Is there really a choice that needs to be made and which one would you choose? It’s just a matter of making the puzzle pieces fit in the right order. 

Approaching Wizard Island / Crater Lake Oregon 

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I'm a dreamer and hopeless romantic who believes that there is always a silver lining to everything. Now, inspired by the simple life, I have learned that less is more and that we find magic all around us if we take the time to notice. Life is a journey and a process that is ever changing. We are constantly evolving in the matter of who we are as we align our stars and shed a past no longer in line with our highest self. I don't easily fit conventional norms, not because I'm a rebel, but because of resenting the pull that threatens to take me away from my true beliefs and my unique personal identity. I support the power of "Choice" and the ability for us to be the architects of our own lives. Some of these choices should have something a little wild about them as they form the moments that forever stay edged in our memory and make our hearts beat with wonder. Nobody will remember the ordinary. For myself, I'm a warrior who has fallen many times, who has gone through trails an tribulations and who is no stranger to adversity. After all, my choice remains clear, to get back up and stand stronger than ever. To recognize that it often takes our darkest moments to mold us into who we were meant to be. I have learned to trust the process and stay positive through the challenges. I trust it to be the only way to prevent my heart from hardening and allowing bitterness to creep in. I believe in the power of "NOW" as it is the only moment we truly ever have. The past is gone, unchangeable and the future hasn't happened yet. All we can impact is the current moment. Everything starts with a choice and hopefully with one that has something wild about it and may even scare you to death to execute. DO IT...I promise you won't regret it. This blog is my voice to share my Journey. If I could describe this adventure in short, I would call it "Spiritual awakening" with a yearning for "Freedom" and going after the things that truly matter. To seek a less complicated life that is stripped down from the many obligations and responsibilities that often tie us down. For me it is a life free of rules and regulations, one that allows me to escape the must expectations while jumping off the hamster wheel that is spinning faster all the time. To be on my own time and live each day to the fullest, to make it all slow down by banishing routine and unleashing my creativity/artistic values in an effort to entertain whatever subject comes to mind. And if lucky, to perhaps offer a different view to my readers, one that speaks to your soul vs. the demands of what society might expect. It is one that empowers you to be your unique self and follow the beat of your own drum. I am dreaming big as I trail blaze the path to a new life and becoming a storyteller. I find my inspiration in the little things in life, in Mother Nature and on the trail that provides the adventures and the backdrop for a book someday. My hope is to inspire "Courage" in others who might find themselves on the brink of taking that first step. This blog serves as a foundation for my collection of personal thoughts, opinions and experiences and by no means am I an expert on any topics mentioned. To my readers I would say that the universe connects us by a common thread, we all search and we all have something to say. We don't always have to meet in person to share a strong bond and people enter our path for a reason. Some stay for a short time and serve their purpose, while others teach us a lesson and help us become stronger through experience. And a few special ones remain as the treasures we hold dear over a lifetime and touch our hearts beyond means. In whatever way we are meant to be, I thank you for crossing my path and for stopping by. I hope that I have left you inspired, full of wonder and with a few "Wild Choices" to make....Hugs XO

13 thoughts on “Reflecting to reshape 

  1. This post was wow! Well written!!!! I feel as if you were next to me! Nicely done! Follow what makes you happy! You are young! Keep dreaming, growing, and keep moving! Life isn’t waiting!

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    1. Thank you very much Oristel. Your words are kind and touch my heart. And you absolutely right, life is not guaranteed and all we ever have is now. The past has often nothing new to say and the future will unfold the way it is meant to be. All we can impact is the current moment and it should be a memory worth remembering.

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