Wide awake

After what I can only describe as a series of spiritual awakening, my curiosity was peaked. A hunger was born, so strong and eager that I wanted to learn more and research whatever……As my perception was shifting and taking on new norms, all I wanted was to make sense of the way I was feeling. I really didn’t know what I was looking for or where to find it, but intuition had it to always throw a few little stepping stones into my path, that seemed to land at the perfect moment. These stepping stones would soon become my reassurance that I wasn’t going crazy but that I was following the right path. They became the explanations and the “Aha” moments to prior occurrences that might have not made sense before. They were the answers to things that left me baffled and the moments when I struggled to explain what was happening. Lost for words, unable to make sense, I decided to keep those experiences to myself. Often it was nothing more then a feeling, a hunch, strange and unfamiliar, appearing out of nowhere. How do you explain and articulate something like intuition, with no facts to back, but a gut feeling so strong and only experienced by you? I knew with utter certainty that I had never experienced anything like this before, yet there was a calm and a sense of being guided that seemed comforting and put me at ease. I remember being open as I was trusting whatever it was that was happening and in the process of it I believe that my senses developed to a different level. Maybe they had always been there, but it was now that I learned to tap into this power. One of those gifts and a curse at the same time was seeing things that were mostly hidden from everyone else. I started to see them for what they were and often they would include the characteristics of people and their true intentions. The true colors that faded into nothing more then a transparency, requiring no effort reading on my part. The statement of seeing someone’s true colors took in an entirely new meaning during that time and I’m still deciding if I like it or not. I think sometimes ignorant bliss keeps us safer.

The stages of spiritual awakening was a transition period for me in which I learned what was acceptable and what I would no longer tolerate. Born into this life a long time ago, it felt as if life was just beginning for me. It was then that my own values and beliefs came to the surface and it was then that I started to pursue my own individuality. In a sense it was a phase of coming home to my own unique self accepting self while undergoing a transition of knowledge and wisdom you could say.

So who goes through these stages of spiritual awakening and who doesn’t? Do we all experience every step and how do we know? I’m no expert but I would say that it is different from person to person, but with everybody, one thing is for certain and there is always a catalyst, something dramatic, soul shattering in your life that triggers one of those steps. It is timing and being ready with awareness as the teacher will only appear when the student is ready to learn. It is being fed up with your current conditions, fed up to a point of questioning the status quo while searching for your individual purpose that is unique to only yourself. It’s not being the occasional upset or being tired about something, but it is that intolerable feeling you can’t shake and something’s that will return with increased frequency as it is beckoning for a change. And this change has to fit nobody but you, there is only one life to live and that is yours without approval of anybody else.

 

 

Going through these steps, I would like to believe that I have grown as a person. I believe that I have experienced all steps and that they offered valuable lessons and experiences along my way. Slowly but surely the pieces align and fall into harmony with my highest self and who I was meant to be. And yet I can’t help but wonder if I am fully awake. If there is more to learn and if I will look back on this, yet feeling that I have evolved once more? We always think that we know it all and have all of our experiences under our belt in our current situation, but I also know that I might find myself in the least bit surprised if those steps and lessons deepen and yet get richer with added experience.

 

You can check these individual steps here and find my own examples that might shed clarity and light onto your own experiences. Maybe just like me, some of these signs can make sense and reveal your own path of coming home to your unique beautiful self.

 

Spiritual awakening – Stage 1

Spiritual awakening – Stage 2

Spiritual awakening – Stage 3 

Spiritual awakening – Stage 4

Spiritual awakening – Stage 5 

Spiritual awakening – Stage 6

Spiritual awakening – Stage 7