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Path of my life 

The storm clouds have returned once more with rain and snow in the forecast, but my heart is peaceful today. I’m not naturally a worrier and instead do my best to be that strong warrior I know I am most of the time, but today I am pondering life and have to acknowledge that it has pushed and tugged at me for years now. Urging me to react to the struggle and all the tugging, pulling and pushing can no longer be denied. And why would I want to anyways? I continue to deal with issues that have gone unresolved and who always end in the same dilemma of not knowing what the answers are, or what the right thing is to do here. In some respect it is crystal clear while in other areas the unknown poses a huge shadow. I fear that I will never know and there will always be an element of life unfolding in it’s own way, how it is meant to be. We really have no control over it so I tell myself to eliminate the fear of the unknown but to roll with the punches should they head my way. It’s time to follow through on a decision and then just make the best out of it with all my might. I think my peace lies in that, in following what I already feel needs to be done and I know that I have closed my eyes for far too long. Not many would understand as to why I tolerated so much and while thats ok, I know everything had to be this way in order to move forward without baggage. 

So with my heart at peace, why am I writing and thinking about this today? I feel the intensity has stepped up a notch and these changes can no longer be procrastinated. Changes so apparent, no longer quiet and satisfied with the awareness of it, but changes that pull on me and demand actions. It feels like I am standing at the end of the road, a road that has ended abruptly to reveal a cliff. I know that I have reached the end of the line, as far as I can possibly go and I have gone further than most would. I can’t turn around and stay in the familiar for I have been here way too long. It is the familiar, even though bearing some comfort that has become the very thing that is crushing me and choking the life right out of me. I know that the longer I stay, the more and more a little dies inside of me and if I want to live, I have to take the leap and make some radical changes. Changes in several aspects of my life, changes that are necessary to fuel that fire within me and bring back that sparkle in my eye that I miss to see sometimes.

Take a leap of faith I remember a friend saying, you won’t regret it. The words ring loud and clear and more so now that I have arrived at that crossing point. It’s no longer a fork in the road of which direction I must choose. It has taken on a new shape with one path leading into the unknown, dark and scary and the other one ending at that cliff which somehow looks like the death of me and no way of going forward. A path that is coming to an end with a big drop into the abyss of being lost forever should I stay and fall. 

I see the affirmations and the signs that urge me to move forward, away from that cliff, and it can be as simple as my spirit buddy the squirrel, reminding me yesterday to lighten my load. To live and to prepare. I interpret that cliff in my vision as the decision, the action that needs to be set in motion. To spread my wings and soar, either full of life or to fall slowly and painfully to my death if I continue in my current spot. 

I know it all sounds very serious and intense, but there is no need for worry. I’m just speaking out loud here, entrusting my thoughts to the words and sentences that will lighten my heart and help shed clarity through the process. I am ok and this is not something sudden that life has sprung on me. I think it’s rather incredible how life works and the things it takes for us to notice. How fragile we truly are and how the events and actions of others can influence and tarnish our soul. Altering us in the process that is not always the most favorable and complimenting way. How painful and beautiful life can be while it molds us into the people we are meant to be. “No pain, no gain” could truly be life’s motto as we seem to grow through life shattering events slapping us in the face and pushing us right to the edge of that cliff. It is then and only then that during the times of unfamiliarity that we learn what we are made of, if we have the will and the strength to go on and fight, or if we let the weight of our events crush us down. To die a little more each day, knowingly and in acceptance out of fear of that dark tunnel, resembling the unknown. We each decide for ourselves and we each have to do the best we can at that point. 

Do you believe that things happen for a reason? If you are, you might also believe that the people that you encounter on your path and who walk with you are no coincidence either. Everybody has a purpose and people come in and out of our lives all the time. Some are here to stay for a little while and help us through some rough patches, they serve their purpose and soon go on with their own direction. Yet others are here to teach us a few lessons, things that help us determine right from wrong, examples that allow us to decide for ourselves. But if you are lucky enough you will have a few people that touch your heart forever, to leave permanent footprints in your soul and make all the difference in your life. People you might never get to meet in person, the ones that walk the path besides you and are connected in spirit no matter how often you talk. 

Consider yourself blessed and always remember to be grateful if those special gifts have found a way into your life. Thank you for being there and for walking besides me……xoxoxo

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I'm a dreamer and hopeless romantic who believes that there is always a silver lining to everything. Now, inspired by the simple life, I have learned that less is more and that we find magic all around us if we take the time to notice. Life is a journey and a process that is ever changing. We are constantly evolving in the matter of who we are as we align our stars and shed a past no longer in line with our highest self. I don't easily fit conventional norms, not because I'm a rebel, but because of resenting the pull that threatens to take me away from my true beliefs and my unique personal identity. I support the power of "Choice" and the ability for us to be the architects of our own lives. Some of these choices should have something a little wild about them as they form the moments that forever stay edged in our memory and make our hearts beat with wonder. Nobody will remember the ordinary. For myself, I'm a warrior who has fallen many times, who has gone through trails an tribulations and who is no stranger to adversity. After all, my choice remains clear, to get back up and stand stronger than ever. To recognize that it often takes our darkest moments to mold us into who we were meant to be. I have learned to trust the process and stay positive through the challenges. I trust it to be the only way to prevent my heart from hardening and allowing bitterness to creep in. I believe in the power of "NOW" as it is the only moment we truly ever have. The past is gone, unchangeable and the future hasn't happened yet. All we can impact is the current moment. Everything starts with a choice and hopefully with one that has something wild about it and may even scare you to death to execute. DO IT...I promise you won't regret it. This blog is my voice to share my Journey. If I could describe this adventure in short, I would call it "Spiritual awakening" with a yearning for "Freedom" and going after the things that truly matter. To seek a less complicated life that is stripped down from the many obligations and responsibilities that often tie us down. For me it is a life free of rules and regulations, one that allows me to escape the must expectations while jumping off the hamster wheel that is spinning faster all the time. To be on my own time and live each day to the fullest, to make it all slow down by banishing routine and unleashing my creativity/artistic values in an effort to entertain whatever subject comes to mind. And if lucky, to perhaps offer a different view to my readers, one that speaks to your soul vs. the demands of what society might expect. It is one that empowers you to be your unique self and follow the beat of your own drum. I am dreaming big as I trail blaze the path to a new life and becoming a storyteller. I find my inspiration in the little things in life, in Mother Nature and on the trail that provides the adventures and the backdrop for a book someday. My hope is to inspire "Courage" in others who might find themselves on the brink of taking that first step. This blog serves as a foundation for my collection of personal thoughts, opinions and experiences and by no means am I an expert on any topics mentioned. To my readers I would say that the universe connects us by a common thread, we all search and we all have something to say. We don't always have to meet in person to share a strong bond and people enter our path for a reason. Some stay for a short time and serve their purpose, while others teach us a lesson and help us become stronger through experience. And a few special ones remain as the treasures we hold dear over a lifetime and touch our hearts beyond means. In whatever way we are meant to be, I thank you for crossing my path and for stopping by. I hope that I have left you inspired, full of wonder and with a few "Wild Choices" to make....Hugs XO

19 thoughts on “Path of my life 

  1. Stay strong…believe everything is as it should be. If something feels wrong, there’s a reason for that. It’s life’s way of saying to you that you should leave it be. You’ll know what’s right Moon Warrior…your heart will feel open and smile. Trust yourself and those who matter. Big hugs coming your way!

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    1. Yes indeed my strong soul sister. Your words touch my heart as I share the same vision. Today was a good day to talk some things out, to acknowledge them for what they are to keep moving forward. Everything is the way it needs to be, one day at a time.

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  2. There’s the thing i have fought against for years. I don’t always want to believe it, but I think i really do believe that everything does happen for a reason. I learned lots about this concept from Carolyn Myss books.

    I’m pretty sure that yoyvare one of those people im totally connected to even though I’ve never met yoh in person.

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  3. Hope you’re doing good, friend. I see you’re mulling a lot of things over in your mind. I feel you when you mentioned the people in your life teaching you lessons (happens with people we like or moreso don’t like.) and also the special people who leave footprints in your life. And also the perhaps invisible spiritual forces aiding us. Hey- at least it’s a blessing that you’re not a natural worrier! 😊 I bet that helps in life. Sending you positive thoughts!

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    1. It does help, thank you. And sometimes it just helps to think out loud or in writing. Things may catch up from time to time but I never stay in a bad place and I always know better. But after all I’m human just like everybody else and I’m sure we all have those moments.
      Sending much love your way and hugs of course 😉

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      1. Oh yes, girl. I used to write in a journal/diary every day. Now, I just do it when I make time for it.Whenever I give myself time to write poetry, it’s therapeutic, too. I very much believe in the healing powers of writing – I have a BA in English 😉 Write away. xoxo huggs!!

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  4. That was an truly amazing post, and that part that grabs me is when you talk about taking that leap of faith, and to me there is nothing more important then that… I am glad you shared your feelings on paper here. It shows that your human and it’s shows that your stronger than you realize as well. Carry on my great tiger, and make sure you keep leaving your mark on the path of life…

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      1. My girlfriend used to say something like that, always wondering where I get my strengths from, while to me it just is this way. I have my days like everybody I think and apparently it’s just a given for me.

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      2. I think that you were born with that under your fur that for sure. No questions asked there. I mean my father and mother always used to tell me that I should of died like 100 times already, and I keep moving forward from my childhood and through the Army and then the lost of someone that meant the world to me, to all my surgeries in the last 5 years. So, I find it truly amazing this evening that I can sit here and know that I am alive, and that your alive and that your strengths are totally incredible…

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